All right.
I have been missing from my blog for close to 6 monthys and have probably lost all my readers by now. Well, there was a reason for that and that reason is...
I went to college!!!
Yup I went to college, and am currently doing a foundation in Engineering.
I don't know where to start because it has been such a while... perhaps, at the beginning? Yeah okay.
First and foremost, it happened. I finally left home and started living on my own. On my first day of living in my apartment, my father went back to Sabah, and I almost cried in public. I don't mean the silent tears falling down my face (cause that did happen) but the full out bawling kind of crying. Then two arese started snickering at me from their car near us and it kinda ruined my moment.
Then that night, I cried in my room while my housemates went out lol.
Any other big news? Well, Meow died. I came back home a total of two times since I left and he was totally fine! Then one night, Mummy called me and she said he died... A WEEK BEFORE. T.T I got news that my cat died one week late....
So, how's life Krystal? Are you enjoying it?
Well honestly, I have been quite depressed (not clinically la lol) because I am taking a course that I have no passion in. And I have always dreamed of doing something I love and that I will have fun with my life that the idea that I probably won't takes so much time to sink in. But then, when it did sink (like a month ago) and I thought "Oh my God what have I gotten myself into?!" I got angry at myself and kinda ruined relationship with the people around me with my bitterness. I've been an awful person lately... sensitive, mean, insensitive, an arse to people gosh I don't like myself.
But you know what, I am getting around to accepting. There are some falls like the other day I got a 39/65 for a pre-calculus test and I broke down in class, sobbing. Only about 3 of my classmates saw me though. They were speechless cause maybe that was the first time they had to deal with an overly emotional girl (they were from an all boys school). I rethought my whole life and kinda melted into the ground haha.
But then I got myself together and scored 62.5/65 on the next test woo!
There's so much going on in my life. University applications are going on all over again. Assignments, presentations, homework are given out every single week. But somehow, I am not drowning. I am pretty bad in my socialisation skills though. I seem to say the wrong things and react the wrong way and offend people. Wanna say sorry also, too cowardly to do that.
I don't know what to do about that except to just let it be and hope time will make things better.
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Sunday, June 01, 2014
Small Of Her Back
I have read many books and have come across the phrase 'small of my/her/your/his back' so many times.
But like most words and phrases I don't know, I never bothered to find out what it means.
Then I saw the phrase again in a new book I was reading and finally decided to go find out where the small of the back actually is.
Answer : The part of your right above the top of the pants.
He rested his hands on the small of her back as they began dancing.
Now I know.
But like most words and phrases I don't know, I never bothered to find out what it means.
Then I saw the phrase again in a new book I was reading and finally decided to go find out where the small of the back actually is.
Answer : The part of your right above the top of the pants.
He rested his hands on the small of her back as they began dancing.
Now I know.
Tuesday, May 27, 2014
24th May
24th of May was the highlight of my stay in KL with Daddy, Mummy and Little Brother before I officially become a Uni Girl. Its the day of shopping!!!
Mostly shopping for stuff for my room la, but still.
We ate breakfast at Midvalley Megamall food court and its really yummy. I think better than most of the expensive restaurants' food. And way cheaper.
And then off we went! First stop, commuter station. O.O
I have never rode in a train before. Even bus and taxi also can count the number of times I've been on it on 1 hand. So I was a bit stressed out when I saw the amount of people in the station but I still have to learn how to go about buying the ticket and coins and which train to take.
Thank goodness I wasn't alone that time.
The commuter was ok though. It was air-conditioned and not as dense with people as I thought. But I don't see myself using it a lot though.
I went to see the petronas twin towers and KLCC and then went to Bukit Bintang to look around. I think its quite overrated actually, I didn't get the whole ooohhh and ahhhh feeling looking at all the buildings and shopping malls.
I heard all the wonderful cheap prices in KL compared to KK but I don't think the price difference is that big. Maybe can save a few ringgit on each item la. I bought 2 long sleeved shirts that my university required and I love them! Can wear for anything :D. But that's where the shopping stopped for me lol.
Maybe I just haven't explored the shops enough. But there's much more of the brands at KL, like Sephora, Forever 21, ZARA, and Makeup Forever.
I really think my accent is too different because wheneverI order something, I always have to repeat it at least twice. After a while, I just spoke in English to everyone.
Then, we went back to the hotel.
I didn't even get to rest before I went shopping for stuff like pail, hangers, pillow, bed sheets, tupperware and alarm clock. Buying all these took up the rest of the day and left us with so much stuff to bring to my college.
Finally, we ended the day with Godzilla which was an okay movie. Again, it is overrated.
And now, is when I tell you a plot twist.
I was getting ready to go to sleep when a Watsapp message ring came and I found out that the Mara loan results were out. I sat up and checked and....
I GOT IN!
So I told my parents and just like that, I wasn't going to sign up to the uni anymore. I only had while to think about it and wish I had more time to think about which I wanted to go (like google and research and ask for advice)... but we had to book the flight ASAP so I just went with my gut feeling and chose Engineering over Life Science.
I still wonder if I made the right decision and I'm still worried if I made the wrong one. But there's no going back now. Its now Engineering or nothing. Aih... I hope I'll be able to do this.
I'll work really hard! I won't give up. I'm going to go to the library until late at night ad do all those maths calculations until I become as smart as Albert Einstein. And then I'm going to read and read and read all the books until I can quote the exact paragraph and the page number in each one.
Do or die.
Go big or go home.
Oh God, I hope I made the right choice.
Mostly shopping for stuff for my room la, but still.
We ate breakfast at Midvalley Megamall food court and its really yummy. I think better than most of the expensive restaurants' food. And way cheaper.
And then off we went! First stop, commuter station. O.O
I have never rode in a train before. Even bus and taxi also can count the number of times I've been on it on 1 hand. So I was a bit stressed out when I saw the amount of people in the station but I still have to learn how to go about buying the ticket and coins and which train to take.
Thank goodness I wasn't alone that time.
The commuter was ok though. It was air-conditioned and not as dense with people as I thought. But I don't see myself using it a lot though.
I went to see the petronas twin towers and KLCC and then went to Bukit Bintang to look around. I think its quite overrated actually, I didn't get the whole ooohhh and ahhhh feeling looking at all the buildings and shopping malls.
I heard all the wonderful cheap prices in KL compared to KK but I don't think the price difference is that big. Maybe can save a few ringgit on each item la. I bought 2 long sleeved shirts that my university required and I love them! Can wear for anything :D. But that's where the shopping stopped for me lol.
Maybe I just haven't explored the shops enough. But there's much more of the brands at KL, like Sephora, Forever 21, ZARA, and Makeup Forever.
I really think my accent is too different because wheneverI order something, I always have to repeat it at least twice. After a while, I just spoke in English to everyone.
Then, we went back to the hotel.
I didn't even get to rest before I went shopping for stuff like pail, hangers, pillow, bed sheets, tupperware and alarm clock. Buying all these took up the rest of the day and left us with so much stuff to bring to my college.
Finally, we ended the day with Godzilla which was an okay movie. Again, it is overrated.
And now, is when I tell you a plot twist.
I was getting ready to go to sleep when a Watsapp message ring came and I found out that the Mara loan results were out. I sat up and checked and....
I GOT IN!
So I told my parents and just like that, I wasn't going to sign up to the uni anymore. I only had while to think about it and wish I had more time to think about which I wanted to go (like google and research and ask for advice)... but we had to book the flight ASAP so I just went with my gut feeling and chose Engineering over Life Science.
I still wonder if I made the right decision and I'm still worried if I made the wrong one. But there's no going back now. Its now Engineering or nothing. Aih... I hope I'll be able to do this.
I'll work really hard! I won't give up. I'm going to go to the library until late at night ad do all those maths calculations until I become as smart as Albert Einstein. And then I'm going to read and read and read all the books until I can quote the exact paragraph and the page number in each one.
Do or die.
Go big or go home.
Oh God, I hope I made the right choice.
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