Today is yet another game day at OSU and on this eventful day, my housemates and I decided to go out to eat at this amazing asian food place called Joy's.

And to get there, we had to walk for about 15 minutes and since it was game day, it was happening.

So we were walking and in the distance, this guy was shouting O-H to everyone passing by.

Let me explain, in OSU, there is this thing we do that when someone shouts O-H to you, you shout I-O back. And together, you spell OHIO.

Hahaha I know.

So far, I have gone by without ever having to yell I-O back. And I thought it was so embarassing!

So when this guy was walking down the street in our direction, saying O-H to everyone, I was thinking "NO DON'T DO THIS TO ME"

And of course he did and I said I-O back.

I didn't die la thank God.

Song Joong Ki Was In My Dream!!

I had a wonderful dream last night! It was so wonderful that I refused to wake up to study for my calculus and organic chemistry quiz that was going to happen 3 hours later.

It was so wonderful cause Song Joong Ki was in it and he was in love with me lol.

Somehow it made so much sense as I was dreaming it and now it feels so disconnected and vague. What I remember was:

1. Song Joong Ki was in a parallel universe on a mission and the only way we could contact was if I was dreaming.

2. Nobody could know that I could contact Song Joong Ki.
     2.5 But someone (my best friend) did find out, and she was freaking out and I dramatically cut off my friendship with her.

3. Song Joong Ki's right hand man in my dream was Seo Dae Young.

Ya, that's all sadly. But I remember that it was so awesome!!!

My alarm totally ruined the whole thing.

Being Mature

When I see other Malaysian overseas students, more often than not, they will be the very assertive, dominant, mature, and confident types. These types are usually seniors, and... YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN RIGHT???

They're very serious and businesslike...

and then there's me. I am childish and fun (if I do say so myself) and I still refer to multiple choice questions as ABC questions. My favorite food are potatoes and my favorite coffee is white chocolate. I watch Pokemon Indigo and chick flicks that shrivel up my brain. I laugh wayyyyy too loudly and I talk about meaningless things like how I want Song Joong Ki to be my oppa.

Don't you?

I still feel like a 17 year old!!!

And its so frustrating to be so childlike and 'cute' (konon la) and small when you're an engineering student because I feel like people look down on me. And I know these are silly stupid thoughts cause people probably are not even thinking about me as much as I think they do so...

On to another topic!

I wanna go shopping so so so so badlyyyyy but I am sooooo broke!! I am going on a trip for the whole winter break and its gonna cost 700$. 700$ right now is almost RM 3000 I shit you not, I am crazy to spend so much on one trip.

Its just that I don't wanna regret not making memories and having experiences while I am in the UNITED STATES OF AMERICA! I am only 20 once, and the next time I'm gonna be here I am probably gonna be bringing children and family and I am going to be old and serious and assertive and dominant and all those other mature people stuff. Maybe.

But right now, I am young and insecure and carefree and I feel so me that I want to experience all I can as me right now. Cause I think I'm pretty fun if I do say so myself.

Haritu we went to Park of Roses and we saw roses. Oh ya! I also dyed my hair back to black and I loveeee it! Its not as dark as my original hair colour so I don't feel like a total nerd.

The weather is getting really cold nowadays with temperature as low as 3 degrees celcius. Its my first time experiencing this kind of cold and I hate it and love it at the same time.  The cold isn't as bad as it sounds, but its still shocking to go out and walk to class in the cold.

Despite it being cold, I am determined to lose weight and look good for my trip during my winter break! These cheeks and all other jiggly parts have to go! Stomach, thighs, cheeks, arms all have to tone up wuhahhaha.

But then every day I eat chocolate T.T   Its ok! Baby steps!

When am I going to be happy?

I feel so unhappy all the time.

Its A Learning Process

Ever since I started college and university, I noticed that I started to grow. For one thing, I don't get homesick anymore. I can go to the bank by myself. I can cook my own food. I find my way around public transportation.

You know, little things. And this growing up thing is happening without me noticing unless I really slow down, stop, and take a good look at me being 20 years old.

Oh, let me digress. I turned 20 last Tuesday! My birthday was a simple affair, and this time, I am determined not to get pissed off at the people who forgot. I spent my birthday morning chilling at Thompson Library and it was GOOD. The library is the best place in any part of the world. The world gets quiet and its just you and a book.

One of the things I changed my perspective about is the way I look at failure. I used to think that failing at something was the worst thing ever and I would always have this ache in my heart whenever I don't excel in my studies. I remember crying after bad tests during high school and studying my brain cells away after school. But I was so harsh on myself. I used to write "Idiot" and "Stupid" at every wrong answer in red ink.

But now, I don't mind failing anymore and if I don't do well on an exam or quiz, I would think it's a learning process. Every single mistake I make would be an opportunity to learn and I look at my mistakes as me getting better after each mistake.

And I love that kind of mindset. I guess being in a non-competitive college really helps. There is no Dean's List, there's no ranking, there's no smart or top class. There is just you, your friends, and the knowledge.

Haha, you become the best pun it doesn't matter cause nobody would know or care anyway.

Oooooh, I remember during pre-cal, I got a 33 out of 65, which is a fail and I was sooooo upset.

But then after two years, I repeated a subject and I didn't really care pun. And I have failed so many tests and quizzes, you don't even know. Its a learning process.

A Good Way To Spend Time

This week has been a rainy week in Columbus, Ohio and I have been caught in the rain every single day. For some reason, I can't find my umbrella that I bought for 5$.

Fall has officially started according to the earth's position in the orbital and IT IS COLD! But I really like this coldness cause I can use this as an excuse to go shopping for fall and winter clothing. EVENTHOUGH I DAH SPENT A LOT!

This week I went out quite a lot.

Last Friday, I went out to Jeni's Ice-cream which is said to be AMAZING but I thought it was just okay.

Then last Sunday, I went walking at Olentangy Trail. Americans really likes to do outdoor stuff like lay outside, go out on walks, suntanning. In Malaysia, everyone would be indoors in their air-conditioned rooms.

Then on Friday, I watched a movie, but I slept in the middle of it until the end.

And yesterday I went to a park to look at flowers!

But most of the time, I just want to curl up with a good book and forget the world exists.

I just think resting and healing from all the shit that accumulates throughout the week is the best and I can't do that when I'm with people. With people, I feel like I need to put on a front to look normal and be charming and be social.

Why am I like this.

I miss the people who I can be totally myself with and not put on a front to. I miss my family and I miss the friends I don't get to spend time with. I miss home and I miss being comfortable and I miss not being pressured to tip.

I miss INTEC and how I actually liked going out on weekends with Sabrina, Rowina, and Carlin. Those times were good times!!

I used to go shopping almost every weekend at Sunway Pyramid, or Midvalley, or Berjaya Times Square and there were cell group meetings where we had REALLY good food and good fun. And when I go to school, there would always be someone to talk to and hang out with and everyone knew everyone.

I guess I miss the familiarity of it all.