Boring Story Of My Current Drama

Hey, did I tell you guys that if I was having any dramas I'd blog about it?

Well earlier this year, I actually developed a crush on a classmate of mine. Lets call him Tim.

Well Tim isn't exactly the most good looking guy in my opinion but he's so damn funny! Everything he says I will confirm laugh. And he's such a gentleman and I like that. And he's smart.

So I developed a tiny crush. Very tiny. I didn't even act on the crush! Didn't even think about it that much.

One day, I was in the library studying physics and this was probably in the second week of the year.

And Vanissa comes along and we talked and she told me a secret of hers. So I told her a secret of mine and it was that I had a small admiration for Tim. I emphasized the small.

And a few days later my admiration disappeared.

If you don't know, I'm a person who loves to joke around and some people have told me that I'm too open. Anyway, I always joke around with Tim about normal stuff. Mostly I just quote 9gag memes a lot. So obviously, we would laugh a lot.

And some people were teasing us about 'things' but I didn't think much about it and laughed it off with another joke. And Tim always laughs along with me.

But then two days ago, we were talking and something he said took me aback.

Tim : Did you tell Vanissa I was good in physics?
Me : Oh, yeah.
Tim : Oh she told me that last time. And she said something else....

Oh. MY. GAWD.

What did she say ahhhh??? Does he know? But it was just a small crush! Hiya so embarrassing!!!

In reality all I did was blink and coolly said, "Oh?"

I'm proud of myself for keeping my cool at that time lol.

So the next day, I asked Vanissa about it and she said yes but it was an accident cause Leon brought up the topic of me and cause she thought Tim already knew about it. Don't get me wrong, I'm not angry or anything. She already said sorry anyway. :-)

The whole story is that while waiting for the bus at the bus stop, Van, Leon and Tim were talking. Leon brought up the subject of me and Van accidentally said that she wa surprised I put Tim in my list.

The whole day, I did not talk to Tim or even look at him and I kept sighing to myself. I don't know why la since it was a small thing anyway.

And today, I was sitting at the back of the class during Bio because I love the fan and it was the side with no sunlight.

And idiot Leon told Tim to sit next to me like he did before but I said don't lol. My excuse was that I needed to study. And then Raina said, "So you admit that you can't concentrate when Tim sits next to you?"

I was like.... SERIOUSLY?? And Tim was like... Wtf and laughed it off.

Throughout Bio class, Zul (another classmate) kept pestering me bout Tim. One time, he walked over to where I was sitting (I was alone because I like it) alone and said something like, "Why you so lonely here??" and then screamed across the class and called out Tim's name? And reflex took over and I hit him on the chest.

I buried my face in my arms after that and laughed. It was seriously funny and if I didn't control my laughter, it would have been really emarassing for me. Imgine this. I wa sitting at the very back, at the far left. And Tim was sitting at the very front at the far right.

No, not funny? Okay...

And after that came EST class and Tim and I sat next to each other. I was very quiet and when he asked me why, I just said that I was on my period which is true. Things were very awkward because all I can think about is that HE KNOWS.

And then after a while, I sighed audibly and he asked so I said... "You know how I love to joke around right? People are saying that I like this person or that and one of those people is you. There I said it!!"

Imagine I said that all in one breath lol.

Anyway, Tim just said don't worry la. Don't care watt others think.

And now that think about it, I don't really care what others think also actually so its fine. I guess he's ok with it so if he's not feeling weird, then I shouldn't feel weird too.

So all well that ends well. Its not such a big thing but life is so boring nowadays! I got nothing else to say and yet I really want to blog about something.

Tim if you're reading this and you obviously know it's you. So now you know lol.

Things People Say #2

Me : Daddy what happened to your head?!

Dad : What what?

Me : Its getting bald...

Update on Kooks. He came home right after I posted yesterday. Then he took a piss and then puked!

Then I looked at his ass and its dirty and black ew.

Kooks is sick!!! Crap. I feel so guilty that it was me who caused him to be like this.

But I'm gonna take him to the vet soon. Just gotta find the time for it. Why don't vets open in the weekends???? Its so silly la.

Or maybe they do and I just don't know.

Ah great I just searched the whole house for Kooks and he is no where to be found. Is this what it feels like to be a parent for a teenager? I never go out with my friends anymore.

I know I would feel so guilty if I come home with a bad result for SPM next year. I'll totally recall eety time I have fun. Even blogging right now I feel guilty but its okay because it makes me feel better and I'm using Bloggeroid on Android anyway so its fine.

Tomorrow is the cross country run.

Its so easy to tell others on being responsible and putting business before pleasure but I so want to be a hypocrite! I want to run with my friends and I want to laugh along and get tired and enjoy refreshing drinks and go buy ice cream float and have one final chance in getting top 10. There's always a chance right?

Right now I am resenting every single St John Ambulance members who refuses to go do their duty. Rawwwerrr!!!

I hope they get sunburn. And I hope the Zuhals (green team) gets points! And the other teams to fall down or something.

Okay I don't mean that. Stay safe ah guys. Watch out for cars. I'll be somewhere there to catch you when you fall.

Have fun..... TT
No la I'm joking, I'm not really that upset. Its cool bha to be a nurse. The silent guardian angel. The silent hero. The savior of the cramped and the fainted.

So to any schoolmates of mine, I'll be there to cheer you on yeah!

And I predict that tomorrow, Jong Kook will get top 10. He says he wants to get top 5 and yet he never even got top 10 in the four past years. Quite a big leap oh.

(The next day....)

I came to school around 5.30am and it was so dark and eerie! I wasn't wearing glasses so all the faces I saw were like ghosts and it was so freak and lonely to sit in the dark all alone, eavesdropping in some 13 year old girl's love life..

And then I watch the sun slowly rise and imagined myself holding someone's hand LOL. I'm joking.

Anyway, I hung out with Vanissa and Bethany for a little while until it was time to go for St John duties.

All I can say about the preparation is that it is very confusing and the Form 6 guy who was in charge of everything was so stressed, he was a little scary in handling everything. But I know how these things are like for some people so I didn't take it to heart.

We were all waiting outside for all the kids to be unleashed and two interesting things happened.

One, when the Lelaki A boys were on the go, it was like a herd of bulls bullsand when they cleared out, there was a phone in the middle of the school entrance and it was cracked haha! FHL.

Then when the Perempun A girls were let out, a girl fell down somewhere 100 m away from the entrance and I along with 2 other juniors went to help her. I am so proud!!! My most most most gentlest version of myself comes out when I'm doing my St. John duties.

And ten after that, off I go to my station. And this part I am very pissed about.

I am stationed together with a Form 6 guy named Darrie and that's fine until every Form 6 said things like "Don't dating ahhhh!!" and stuff like that.

Grow up.

But actually, I didn't mind that at the time lol. Only now that I think about it that I'm getting a little pissed.

And and and the Form 6 in charge said that our station which was the Chung Hwa roundabout is near the school and since the school van is full, we should just walk there.

So we did. And when we did get there, they said it was at Shan Tao which was bloody far away.

And then the van passed us just as we arrived there with half the people gone!!!! Which means they sent people who's stations are much closer to the school than us!!!!

And then we waited for all the boys to pass by and fortunately nobody fainted.

By 9am, all the boys passed by and we followed Teacher Tsang's car back to school.

There I met with my other friends and they told me that someone was mad at me and the person wrote a Facebook status last night.

But why would they think its me?

Anyway, I asked the person if I did anything wrong and he said no the status wasn't about me. It was accidentally posted.

Problem solved. Its always better to talk it out rather than just leave a problem hanging there.

And oh yeah! Jong Kook didn't get top 10.

After school, I sent a very sick Kooks to the vet. And its so amazing cause you can just leave your pet there and then come back some time later to pick it up! So time saving and convenient.

I went to Dr Hady's Vet at Kingfisher and I like the people there. They're friendly once you've warmed them up a bit. So I guess that's my default vet from now on la.

I wish I have my own drivers license and job and house and car because I really hate troubling my parents like this!

Have to pay for my cat.
Have to pay for my studies.
Have to pay for my skin.

I'll repay them when I can.

Bye Bye Blogger

I'm moving to Wordpress.

And maybe I won't like it and come sniffling back to blogger but I'm just gonna try it out. Heard its better.

So if you're interested, its here.

Okay nevermind, I just tried it and it is so complicated.... so back to blogger I am!

Today is a holiday which means that I am free to blog yay!

So, I noticed that some of my friends are in a bad mood nowadays and I am really not emphatic to these things. I won't ask what's wrong because I know that they won't tell me and even if they do, I don't really know what to do except pat them on the back and say Aw....

So here's a video to all you sad people out there on how to stay positive. Just watch it. Its really funny (to me anyways).

I like her. She's funny.



Okay, done watching?

Don't worry and be happy.

And I am trying to stay positive because this Saturday is my school's cross country run and I can't run because I have to do my St. John Ambulance duties and treat all the sicklings.

To all the athletes or runners or whatever, DO NOT take these nurses, St Johns', PBSMs and scouts for granted because they (mainly me) are sacrificing their (last for me) run for you. So buy them (me) a drink.

And its not that I am forced by my teacher but as the president of St John, I'd rather be a responsible leader for my last year than be the jerk prez who tells her juniors to do the boring work. So at least my conscience is clear! =D

And my cat ran away to who knows where!!!! =(((

I hope Kooks comes back.... I'm getting kinda worried...

BUT STAY POSITIVE AND HOPE FOR THE BEST!

Do I have a problem? Yes. Can I do anything about it? No. So why worry.

KITTY COME BACK PLEASEEEEEEE!!!!

Sniffle sniffle, I'm damn worried and I'm going crazy! I haven't seen him yesterday or today...

What to do what to do what to do??? There's nothing I can do!!!

What if he died of somewhere? Or some kids took him away and dismembered his limbs. Oh crap.

Calm... calm. He'll be back by nightfall.

Oh ya, I haven't even made a new year's resolution! Last year's resolution was a complete fail...

It was.

1. Work super duper hard. (Fail)
2. Keep your cool, no more screaming. (Fail)
3. ALWAYS do your homework. (Fail, definitely)
4. Never go to school ugly. (I can't remember how many times I didn't brush my hair, or wore mismatched socks)
5. Don't fake sickness again. (Fail lol)
6. Study 2 hours every night. (FAIL HAHAHA!)
7. Don't hate my teacher. (Failllllll)
8. Accept criticism with grace. (Hmmm, not sure.)
9. Don't gossip about anyone. (Fail la of course)
10. Don't forget any books. (Fail)
11. Have a notebook at all times. (Okay, this one pass)

Eyer, my 15 year old self could have done this no problem, but turned 16 and there goes my studying motivation.

So here's my resolutions of 2013! *cue drumroll

1. Eat vegetables everyday. (So far, so good!)
2. Heal my skin. (So far, so good!!)
3. Study and do homework. (So far so good!)
4. Try not to be a jerk. (Uhhh, not sure. But I'm trying!) If I am being a jerk, just tell me.
5. Try to blog more about nice things.
6. Be more serious in class. My BM teacher told me this last year.
7. Admit that I'm wrong when I am and apologize after that.
8. Save money to buy a treat for myself at the end of each month.
9. Stop wearing makeup. Or at least lessen it.
10. Screw cute and become more elegant.
11. Be a responsible person.
12. Learn to say no to responsibililities if I know I'm not capable.

So that is my 2013 resolution for the month of January hahaha. I'll make a new one on February. I'd post a new one so its one step at a time.

One step closer to perfection.

2013 has been really nice so far. Surprisingly, I like my teachers, even my Add Maths teacher.

And as for boys, I don't think I want to have a relationship with anyone. But its fun to talk to boys because they're so different from girls. So everyone who has the XY chromosomes are in the friendzone. For now.

And beside, I think a boy is so distracting if I like him. Actually, even if I don't like him, it will still be distracting.

What with all the phone calls, texts, facebook chats, have to spend time, and then can't even concentrate on schoolwork and the whole mess in the breakups. Its easier to avoid that until I and this future guy will be mature enough to have a proper and healthy relationships.

So no relationships for me! *applause

At least I hope so because sometimes, these things can't be helped.

Responsible student or not hehehe. But if there's a guy I like, I'll probably blog it out. Boys are always good blogging substances.

I Suck At History

Written on 18th January 2013

Finally it is Friday! It feels like a week since the last Friday.

Today I am very impressed with the people who sit around me in class because there were maybe 50 questions given to us by our history teacher on Wednesday and every one have done it except me because I was absent on Wednesday.

Anyway, teacher said that she would test us the questions without us looking at the book. And I was like, Oh dammit....

I knew only about 10 of the answers and even those are only the easy ones.

So I tested Frieda.

Question after question I shoot at her and answer after answer she shoots it back. I died lol.

Very impressive Frieda, very very impressive. *applause

So since she is already so pro, I turned behind in hopes of finding someone closer to my league so I can tell myself that I'm not stupid haha.

But Leon is also so damn smart in history how can they be in this class! They should be in S2 or S1.

Leon was even more impressive because I shot questions at him like a machine gun and he fires back like blinking his eyes. So laid back again that!!!

Me? I answered their questions like an angry birds slingshot. Haiya, why am I like this...

Hehehe, but when Leon was asked by teacher, he cracked under the pressure after a while and answered one question wrongly. Nevertheless, its still very impressive of them.

And Lionel also claimed that he doesn't know anything but yet he answered like it was nothing.

When is Teacher Dorothy gonna give us some essay to do ah... I have to do at least one thing that I'm good at. Yeah I did mess up my year end essay by writing a stupid love story but never again! I'm going to write some awesome mind blowing stuff (I HOPE).

But you know, maybe my essays are crap and I'm just biased to my own work. But I'm determined!

I don't know how but my 1119 will a least be a B+.

1119 is your essay grade if you didn't already know.

Form 5 maths for me is actually really simple for now because my teacher is very very slow. Like soil paced slow.

I wish there was something I can do for my history! Besides reading each page 10 times a day that is. Any tips? Any magic voodoo you can do on me?

But I'm sure with hard work and dedication anything is possible! So I'm gonna go study and do my homework now.

Have a nice weekend!

Here's a picture of Kookie.

Grateful

I am grateful to God because I have a flu. Even though its really messing up my noise and throat, I am really really thankful that that's all I have. A flu.

Because I was browsing through Facebook for a while and a friend I had when I was a kid has cancer. And he posted how he would look like bald.

I found out last year actually but that time I didn't really care because that's his problem and it doesn't affect me anyway. But now setting him so positive about it makes me somehow sympathise about him...

It could be anyone who would have cancer. It could be me. It could be you.

So right now I'm grateful that the only sickness I have to worry about for now is a flu.

So now I'm going to kick myself in the ass because I need to finish my homework and do some revision.

Ohhh and if you can tell me how to make a quadratic equation only with the vertex of a graph that would make my day.

How Boring Of A Person I Am

Aw man... my feelings are so muddled......

Every guy I see, I will confirm find something about that guy that is attractive and then form a crush on that guy.

And I am so easily terperasan!! That means easily won over by the slightest compliment.

Like a guy called me cute (JOKINGLY of course) and I was sooooo happy, and then he says like a dog. Okay, dog sounds so harsh, maybe like a puppy. Anyway, it was a joke and it made me laugh.

But all I could focus on was "cute". Lol.

To another different topic, a guy named Leon in my class reminds me of Jong Kook aka Mr. Capable, from Running Man, a funny korean reality show. Because Leon is very capable and freakishly muscly (or so I heard. I don't notice it) and garang (fierce).

And then my mind thought that BJ (also a classmate) reminds me of Gary. And Kwang Soo, the bullied one is Richmond.

And just as I was thinking these things, Leon was telling me how he thinks we should decorate our class but I was just nodding and thinking about how Jong Kook is so funny. Then when he paused and I realised that he was waiting for a response, that I snapped back into earth and said "Huh?"

And so Adzman who is also my classmate says I am Blank Ji Hyo.

Coincidence that I was just thinking about Running Man members that Adzman mentions it? I think not!

Anyway, that is all that is interesting this week haha. Life has turned so dull with just studying.

First Week Of 2013

From now on, I shall limit my blogging because SPM is just around the corner and I am lusting for straight A's.

I know la some of you will say, yeah right, keep dreaming. But I believe that people do things they don't know they can when they really want something...

And I want a scholarship.

Wah! Its been a long week.


On Monday, I went to the dentist and then after that went back to kampung for new year.

But my grandma wasn't home so we stayed in a hotel! For me, staying in a hotelis a big luxury because I never go on vacations and there is never a reason to stay in a hotel. Unless my dad gets a free stay somewhere which happened once in a while way back when.



My new year feast!

The thing I was most excited about the room was the bathtub because all my life, I have been bathing in a shower so I was excited in spending the new year countdown soaking in a tub. So imagine my fury when I found this....



A shower...

Haiya.. But is ok! It had hot water and in my house, we never had hot water from the pipe so I've gotten immune to cold morning showers lol.

And we went back home and I found this previous thing!



Its the cat from my kampung! The best aunty in the world brought it here because my uncle was planning to throw it away.

I haven't decided what to name him yet. Maybe Cookie. Or Dobby. Or Prince because he is treated like a prince in this house.

I love him so much to the point that I would go from school tired and cranky, yet clean his litter box and spend time playing with him. Then when I finally take my daily nap, he curls up on my chest and sleeps too. Sometimes I would roll over and he falls off but he just curls up under my armpit and continue to cuddle me.

If that is not cat bondage then I don't know what is lol.

Then on Tuesday, I began a new year in school. My last year. My senior year. Oh God time passes so fast! Sob sob..

I like my new class and I like my teachers! But I miss my friends... So much. But its not like I transferred school or anything pshh.

We meet before class starts and in recess and in our after school activities so there's really no need to miss them lol.

On Saturday, my school has managed to ruin my Saturday by having classes to replace the Chinese New Year holiday. But it is okay la, its all for my own good. Study study study! If I fail my SPM, might as well kill myself than let my parents do it.

After school, I immediately went back to my kampung for my grandfather's 40th day of death. I was so tired I slept through the whole journey and felt groggy when I did wake up.

The whole weekend went by in a blur. Cooking, eating, sleeping, praying and all that jazz. When we were about to finally go home though, we couldn't find my dad's car keys so we had to all squeeze into my mom's car and arrived home, at 8pm.

At home, I cleaned Prince Kookie's (I decided that that would be his name) crap in my room, took a bath, and sat down to finish my homework.

And ended my week with the shibangness of pulling through the night reading my BM novel.