A Good Way To Spend Time

This week has been a rainy week in Columbus, Ohio and I have been caught in the rain every single day. For some reason, I can't find my umbrella that I bought for 5$.

Fall has officially started according to the earth's position in the orbital and IT IS COLD! But I really like this coldness cause I can use this as an excuse to go shopping for fall and winter clothing. EVENTHOUGH I DAH SPENT A LOT!

This week I went out quite a lot.

Last Friday, I went out to Jeni's Ice-cream which is said to be AMAZING but I thought it was just okay.

Then last Sunday, I went walking at Olentangy Trail. Americans really likes to do outdoor stuff like lay outside, go out on walks, suntanning. In Malaysia, everyone would be indoors in their air-conditioned rooms.

Then on Friday, I watched a movie, but I slept in the middle of it until the end.

And yesterday I went to a park to look at flowers!

But most of the time, I just want to curl up with a good book and forget the world exists.

I just think resting and healing from all the shit that accumulates throughout the week is the best and I can't do that when I'm with people. With people, I feel like I need to put on a front to look normal and be charming and be social.

Why am I like this.

I miss the people who I can be totally myself with and not put on a front to. I miss my family and I miss the friends I don't get to spend time with. I miss home and I miss being comfortable and I miss not being pressured to tip.

I miss INTEC and how I actually liked going out on weekends with Sabrina, Rowina, and Carlin. Those times were good times!!

I used to go shopping almost every weekend at Sunway Pyramid, or Midvalley, or Berjaya Times Square and there were cell group meetings where we had REALLY good food and good fun. And when I go to school, there would always be someone to talk to and hang out with and everyone knew everyone.

I guess I miss the familiarity of it all.

Happy Chinese New Year!

These past 2 years, there were a lot of firsts for me. First time on an airplane. First time is Perak. First time studying Calculus 2.

Then there are a lot of lasts as well. Last time celebrating my birthday with my family. Last time celebrating CNY in Malaysia. Last time studying Calculus 2, cause I had to repeat it. (hopefully the last time la. If not then FML) T.T

And I hope that its truly the last because if its not the last, it means that I won't be going to America and that suckkkkkkks. That's suckier than a spit to the eyeball. I would take a knee to the crotch if that would secure my passage to America. I would give RM 10,000. I would slap my best friend. I would make peace with my worst enemy.

What wouldn't I do?

I probably draw the line at giving away my first born wtf. Or murdering someone.

But I digress.

I dyed my hair again! And now its a lighter colour but I hope its going to darken a bit, I also recently discovered that my hair grows 1 mm in 3 days. meaning its 1 cm in a month. Meaning 12 cm in a year. Wowowow.

I am mildly upset also la. When I dyed my hair, the hairdresser quoted a price for my waist length hair. But then I also asked them to cut it off at the ends to make a nice U-shape and then... AND THEN!

THEY PROCEEDED TO CUT MY HAIR UP TO THE MIDDLE OF MY BACK!!!!!

I DON'T HAVE MERMAID HAIR ANYMOREEEEEEE T__________________________T

So ya, 1 year of keeping my hair all down the drain.

But wait there's more.

After she dyed it, she still charged the same price for the shorter hair hmphhhh. I don't like.

2nd December 2014

It has been raining heavily these past few days and yesterday, it rained the whole day. The weather is so pretty like this! :D

I am back in Sabah now, having my semester holidays and I feel unusual. I was so busy with studying and assignments back in school that I was begging for the holidays to come. But now that I am having my holidays, I don’t know what to do and I feel empty.

And everyday I think, what am I gonna do today? And then I answer myself with nothing or something incredibly boring like sleeping. But before I know it, night comes and my family comes home and yay I have company again.

On a sadder note, I just found out my GPA pointer for the semester and its… not as good as I want it to be. I was aiming for 3.5 and above and I didn’t reach it. I got a 3.31 CGPA.

I am tempted to explain to everyone that the grading scale is high and the subjects were hard to justify my less than satisfactory results, but I think its immature to make excuses like that. So I’m just going to redeem myself next time.

There is a reason for me to want a 3.5 CGPA and that is because it is a minimum requirement for me to fly overseas next august. It is a huge setback for me but nevermind la, just study in Malaysia for another year also ok. :D

I don’t know why I am so desperate to fly next year. I really really want to but then again, there are some silver linings. Like for example, I could grow to be more mature and learn to find myself in a familiar environment.  And I’m still figuring out my life so waiting another year might be a good idea.

So for now, I don’t have to worry about university applications or interviews or anything that’s weighing my shoulders down. The CGPA thing is pretty bummy, but I’ll live.

Oh and also, I am totally loving living away from my family. I know some people who are incredibly homesick, and I myself get homesick sometimes too, but most of the time, I feel more free to live on my own with housemates. I like being able to buy late night snacks, and doing my own laundry without any of it going missing, and I like going to study rooms to study and staying at the library late.

Living in boarding school (although I’m not in a boarding school. I’m in college) is awesome. I can see why people love it.

I have also made some friends who I've really come to love and care for and who I know will always be there for me, so that just proves that I'm not the socially awkward seal I think I am! 

Selfie

Annyeong haseyo!

I've been thinking of getting a better, bigger phone with a better camera (my phone doesn't have a front camera either) so I can take selfies. I never take a selfie myself and if I do, it usually goes like this.

1. Put makeup on.
2. Find background.
3. Find lighting.
4. Fix hair.
5. Take selfie with the back camera.
6. Look at selfie.
7. *horrified
8. Try to salvage with filters and editors.
9. *depressed when fail
10. Delete selfie.

My 10 step guide to taking a selfie crystal-style haha.

WOOHOO MAH FACE!

One of my not failed selfies (to me anyway). OK OK I KNOW THERE'S SOME EDITING FAIL (LOL). #nomakeup but #intensely_edited

Don't believe everything you see on the internet!

And my instagram has only one picture. Dahlah one pic only, its a pic of my cat. *dark

So, I will save money to buy a high quality phone to take selfies and update my instagram and blog with pretty picutres (not necessarily of my face). 

And also, when I go to Uni (which is soon, I hope), I wanna send pics to my parents about my daily life, right? So, I should send nice high quality picture to them. 

I don't want to buy a real camera cause its such a hassle to bring that around with me wherever I go. Plus, I can't upload does instantly to my social sites using a camera.

This sudden motivation for pictures is because I went on a training course on web development yesterday with Caroline and Sarah and they took lotsa pics on their phone. 

AND! It was really fun to take pictures, and choose filters and put them online and look at other people's pictures.

Ok enough about my compressed vanity, I went out with friends yesterday!!!

Ahhhh, its so good to hang out with friends after such a long time. I feel happy now. I don't know what else to say haha, just happy to see my friends again, and hanging out again. 

I hope that I get to hang out some more, cause I'm so bored to death at home. And I miss Frieda, Vanissa, Jes, Carlin, Aina. Caroline and Sarah, I already saw yesterday so my missing them is satiated already haha.

I wanna bring all of them to go out but they're all busy with work or school. I guess the only ones that are very free is me, Caroline and maybe Sarah.

For now, I'll just spend my time learning Korean so I can one day watch Korean dramas and variety shows without subs. *burning will

Okay!

Kamsahamida, have a good day!

Procrastination Post

There's this song that has been stuck in my head and it is so addicting!

 

Anyone else?

I first heard about this song when Sarah told me and then others started raving about it as well. So, I got curious and checked it out. Damn regretful... T___T

It just stays in your head and repeats itself again and again and again. If I don't listen to this song when I want to, I'll get very frustrated, kinda like doing an add maths question haha.

And what's up with youtube buffering the videos so slow lately? And then when I try to rewind the vid it starts buffering from the very beginning. It is very annoying.

Today after my Add Maths tuition, I went to 1Borneo to buy a book!

THIS IS SO FUNNY!!!

I've read the first one and that made me laugh like mad. Its so entertaining and its short and to the point. And also, this book was 20% off. Yes, double win!

 

Didn't make you laugh??!

I hope I don't get sued for copyright but this is all over the internet so what's one more.

I hope that the author, Boey makes a gazillion of these books so I can read them till I'm like, 100 (more or less). I can relate to some of these things cause its about a childhood in Malaysia and well me=Malaysian.

But I lost the first book that I bought months ago and I wanna find ittttttt why do I keep losing things I love!

Sigh, actually the point of this blog post is to procrastinate from reading hsitory. Its just so boring to read about the past! Why can't we read about the future or the present. Why is there nothing in that textbook about Christopher Columbus or about the big horse statue that went into the Troy city place?

Actually, I've about it sometime in my childhood.

Its when the Greek wanted to enter Troy using a very sly method. They pretended to sail away and left this big wooden horse. So the Troys (Trojans? Troys? Meh, potahtoh potaytoh) pulled that big wooden horse into their city. Then, when night came and everyone was asleep, a troop of greek soldiers came out from that horse and attacked everyone in their sleep.

Its quite a funny story to me. But I remember when I read about it at the age of 5/6/7 and thought that the greeks were geniuses for doing that.

Right? Its like when you're in a fight in school and you pretend to surrender and just when the other kid walks away, you kick them in the ass. Yeap, just like that.

OR, in a girly drama-ey fight in school, you pretend to be mature and make up with that bitch but sabotage them behind their backs.

Gah! What am I doing! I'm supposed to be taking a break from history and yet I'm talking about history! And this history isn't even going to come out in my exam!

Ok nothing more about history

Other than that.....

Meow has been such a darling that my name for him this week is Darling! I love him so much! He hasn't bitten me for quite a while and he's always so quiet but lovable! I like quiet animals lol.

Right now he's sleeping by the door cause he got tired of waiting for me to open it. Heee, I'm so happy to have such a nice kitty!

Though I think he thinks of himself as a human. Ah well. Come Darling! Time for cuddly wuddley!!

:D

Ok time to go back to studying. *pops bubble of fantasy and procrastination

Crystal's Week

This week I got all my first SPM trial results back and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be haha! For one thing, I really thought I would get a B or C on my English paper but then I got an A(85) woohooo!! I got A for Maths(80), Malay(83) and EST(85) as well heeeee (but they're still all A- only)!!! So happy! 

For my Biology I had an E(55) wtf and an E(53) for Chemistry as well wtfwtfwtf but surprisingly I got a D(57) in my Physics haha!

As for my History I scored a C(65) and Moral was C(63), and I'm so pissed because I studied like mad for that and still only got a C haiya...

Then omg I failed my Add Maths, E(46).....

I'm so worried about that cause I have never ever passed an Add Maths exam before even though I diligently go to tuition every Saturday. So, its madness to continue doing the same thing hoping for a different result so I want to go for private tutoring.

There's only about 2 months left for SPM and then only 3 weeks left till my second trial so gambateh to myself haha.

Other than studies, I went to watch The Mortal Instruments movie with my family yesterday and it was so disappointing. :( I read the book during the holidays 2 weeks ago and it was so so so nice!!! It was almost (only almost) as Harry Potter even.

But then the main character was portrayed so weak in the movie and the hot guy character looked like a drug dealer! WHY RUIN EVERYTHING WHYYYYYY!!!??? And then there's these girls behind me who keep making their own commentary about the movie as if they're the only two people there. UGH MAJOR PROBLEM NOWADAYS. I hate it when people talk in the cinema!!

Huff huff! I've been anticipating this movie and told all my family members about how it was going to be awesome and epic and now my movie credibility is gone lol.

Ah well, I've never been very good in choosing movies. All the movies I choose to watch always end up being stupid and full of stupid erotic scenes which is awkward. 

Ok don't wanna talk about this anymore, its filling me up with negativity.

On a happier note, I started to walk my dog, Hachi everyday if I can on the evenings and its so nice to ust go out and get some sort of exercise. I've noticed that when I walk Hachi, I come to school feeling very happy the next day for no reason which is good! Happy Crystal means happy grades!

The other day I was walking Hachi and we saw a huge Golden Retriever and a huger Husky being walked by this gorgeous couple and they were so adorable!!! If wish I could touch their pretty long fur and bring them home and then sleep on top of them lol.

Instantly I felt like Hachi was lacking and felt like yelling out, "He's a labrador! A LABRADOR!!" just to prove myself or something. It didn't help that I was still wearing my school uniform that time and looked damn disgusting.

Next time, I'll wear an evening dress to avoid this kind of insecurity haha.

Little Thing

Shizzed my pants this pass few weeks cause I have been receiving my exam results from my teachers.

There are a few okay results and there are a few thrash worthy results but I guess they're all okay.

I can't get over my Moral marks though, its just too horrible. So, I've decided to change my 'don't wanna study la so lazy....' attitude to a better one.

I'm gonna start small by studying two subjects every night. Then move my way up to three, then four then five until I get my straight A's.

What Happens When You're Pressured

I went to my BM debate competition this morning and needless to say, we lost. But its fine, its fine!

I found out that two things can happen when I get pressured during a competition.

Either I become stellar.

Or I become a complete idiot.

Just now, I became an idiot, definitely.

Ok ok! What's past is past, I don't wanna blog about this anymore.

Recently, I've been really busy with drama and juggling schoolwork at the same time. I won't let drama be an excuse to get left behind in my studies like last year.

So on rehearsals, I would be reading my books and doing schoolwork backstage. HAHAHA! Yeah right, like that would actually work.

Drama is too distracting too be doing work.

You know what else is going on with my life?

A whole lot of annoyance.

I feel annoyed when people act like they know everything when they actually don't and try to teach others to do it. Cool, wallow in your stupidity, but don't drag others into it.

This is all because of my darling director of drama who keeps telling stupid things to the actors.

He acts like he's the boss of every single thing that has to do with drama and maybe he is, but he doesn't know jack shit about a thing and he doesn't listen to others.

He thinks that he is right all the time when its so obvious that he is wrong. He does things that aren't necessary and his priorities are warped. His attitude is horrible OMG!

He always uses this tone that makes me want to punch anyone within a three feet radius and I feel like he is disrespectful to the rest if the drama team.

And in turn makes me disrespectful as well. It makes me feel bad sometimes and other times I promise myself to be nicer since he is just joining the team this year but I can't help that I am such a bitch.

I can take it if other seniors boss me and the others around like he always does, I can. Its just the fact that he has no experience.

It makes me wonder why the hell he is chosen as the director.

Is this just my hormones talking? I can't control what I like and dislike can I? I can't control what makes me annoyed and it just so happens that he is annoying me.

Its not me, its him lol.

Sigh, I hope this irrational feeling goes away soon. Its not good for my brain and I have to endure all this for 11 more days.

And then, I'm free.

Short Post For Today

Yesterday I watched the Critic's Choice Awards and I wonder how can people be so beautiful and elegant like that?

By the way, YAY ANNE HATHAWAY WON AN AWARD FOR LES MISERABLES!!!

I like her with long hair better. Just like Miley Cyrus and Emma Watson.
I've always thought that my family watches a lot of movies because everytime there's a new 'famous' movie out in the cinemas, my dad would bring the whole family to go watch. But it seems like all the good movies are out all at the same time!!!! HOW COME AH? Haiya, I definitely have to go to the store to buy them... ASAP!
After watching the Critic's Choice Award, I realised that I've actually missed a lot. Wreck-It-Ralph, Looper,  Argo, The Silver Linings Playbook.
I feel like time is slipping by too fast!!! NUUUU!
Okay, sudden subject change.
I always learn something new in EST class like today, we had a long discussion about pregnancy and giving birth.
A myth about giving birth is that it hurts like hell when you're trying to push the baby out. Well, this was a silly myth that the movies have pushed into my head because I thought that the delivery rooms was a place of cursing, screaming and crying.
But surprisingly, my teacher said that's not true! The pain is actually from the contractions and even that only lasts for about 5 seconds and then you rest for like 10 minutes, depending on how close you are to pushing.
And when you are ready to push, the pushing helps counter the pain so you don't feel much.
And then when you see the face of your baby, all the pain goes away. ^^
At least, that's how my teacher explains it. I'm not sure how much of the truth is in there. But I'm more reassured of the future after she explained that cause I've always thought that it was just one of those things that women had to deal with.

Haiya, a girl my age shouldn't think of these things yet and yet, I am. *shakes head

Ok I'm going to go for tuition in an hour so I'm gonna take a short nap.

Goong

Here's a post about things going on in my life based on pictures I took in my phone.

My school on Sports Day and a random mandarin orange plastic bag on the floor. Oh hehehe, I think thats mine.

We all ate A LOT of mandarin oranges! The school gave them to us for free yay and I absolutely love free
stuff!

Sarah showed us her skills of finding the sweetest oranges O.O but I still don't understand how she does it. She says find the ones which have air in them? For me, I just smell them because the sour ones always have this smell on them. Gah... don't know how to explain.

Guess its just based on luck for those who can't find the difference hahahaha!

Donovan, Daniel, Sarah.

Enjoying their oranges! Sigh, one of the best things of Chinese New Year in Lok Yuk, free food lol but I'm not sure bout other schools lah.

Well, Sports Day in my school came and went. It was actually quite nice to hang out with friends without the thought of homework at the back of my mind.

And I think my openness with boys should go down a notch or two. Its getting out of control....






A cat gave decided to make her nest at my backyard. FML man! I really hate the responsibility of taking care of 6 more cats and almost all he kittens have some sort of eye disease! I'd take them to the vet but each cat would cost around RM 50 to vaccinate. Would you be so kind as to do that? I'm not.



And Kooks is a father!! Nuuuuuu!!!! Eye disease and non-existent tail ugh. But then the black kitten died in the drain. I think the mother cat disposed the corpse.




This hibiscus tree in my backyard is given to me by my science teacher back in Form 2. We were learning about the organs in flowers and I said to her that I love her plants and she gave me a few branches the next day. I decided that she is the best teacher ever that day.


So pretty!

Kooks looking over his land with the aura of power surrounding him.

Kooks is healthy and active and happy again!!! Wahhh my baby is really getting bigger! But it seems like his love for me is directly proportional to his hunger.

I went back to kampung yesterday and look what I found : Mini Kittehs!!! Blacky the Catteh has finally given birth to four little kittehs! And they're all black fur ones. What is this sorcery???! It seems like just yesterday that Blacky and Becky (the daughter) came her to kampung from KK.

And all the kittens are healthy and active unlike the ones that nests behind my house.

And my family is planning to adopt one or two of these puppies from kampung. And yes, I sound like that when I'm happy. I used this app that picks out the scenes for you and all you have to do is pick out a song and theme. I chose the cute theme and I am in love with this song!

Normally the fur is like short and stubby, kinda like eyebrows lol but their fur is long and so bunny like! In the original video I went crazy over them but my voice is too annoying so just see the edited version la.

Chinese New Year holidays has started and that means a whole week of not having to wake up early or go home late!!!

For others, it would be much more eventful than mine because they would be wearing all new clothes, going to relatives' houses, receiving ang paos and eating all the chinese food. For me, it would just be sleeping, watching running man and reading this new manga, Goong.

For Valentine's Day, I am forming a one sided relationship with this manga. HAPPIEST RELATIONSHIP EVER!!!

This manga brings out feelings I didn't know I had lol.


Look at the picture! This scene alone makes me choke in happiness and sadness at the same time!

It makes me go NUUUUUUU!!!!! WHYYYYY!!!! OH SH**! GASP! AWWW! WTH HAHHAHAHA! CHOKEINHAPPINESS....

Sometimes all these at the same time.

Ok blogging about Goong makes me want to continue reading it.

I Have Nothing Amazing To Contribute

They say that if you are torn in choices, just flip a coin and the one face that you hope will turn up will be the answer. So I fllipped a coin and I hoped that I will be taking EST.

Then the coin turned up on the EST side so I'm happy!! :D

And you know what, EST is pretty fun.

Today we talked about cloning in humans and whether or not we agree with it. Personally I don't because we are meant to be this way so why fight against what is natural right?

Its like a toy. Its meant to work a certain way but if you push it too hard beyond its capabilities, it'll get broken.

Still I still had fun talking about it with our small group of 8 people.

That's right. Eight! Including teacher. And next week it'll probably be six or five.

Today we talked about all these people having cloning done to live or to get babies or to replicate an organ.

And there was this one case teacher told us about when this little girl got her head blown off by a shotgun and she lived literally with half a brain. Cool or not???

And we talked about how girls need to keep warm and guys need to keep cool because if we don't then somehow there will be something wrong with our reproductive system. Girls, notice that when you drink cold water during your period you get cramps? Right right or not?

And I have never had a sore throat from eating hot food and surprisingly a guy in class said he did!! I didnt know that was possible.

I love these things!

There's this boy in class, Voon and he's so kind, smart, good looking and open. I don't know why but I admire these kinds of guys.

And he's athletic! Perfect.

Lol why am I like this.

Anyway I'm glad he's a friend now cause I kinda feel lonely in EST and there's only three people I talk with comfortably. Garrett, Chong and Voon. All guys. Nuuuuu!!! I want some girl friends!

Haih its okay la. They're a pretty cool trio though a little shy. Except Chong. Chong has no shame lol.

And you can ask them anything about boy stuff. And Voon said something amazing that I went wow for just now!

I can't tell you what (I'm sorry) but it just made his naive and innocent demeanor that much more attractive. Clue : He said something very good boy. And its probably a private thing so I shouldn't blog about it. Aahhh I'll stop now.

Gasp could this be yet another crush??? No no no. Its just admiration.

You know, I find that nowadays, I tend to be wayyyy more honest than I was in Form 1. In Form 1, whenever something or someone impresses me, I would keep quiet because later that someone will think differently. Like if its a guy, he would think I like him or something ridiculous like that.

But I tend to just tell people what I think now. Of course it has to be a positive comment la. I'm sure if I pass too many negative comments someone will punch me someday.

Maybe its cause people are more matured now too I guess.

Plus, everyone likes being told that they're doing a great job right! I mean, I love gettin reassurance from people that I'm doing something right. And daddy said treat people the way you want to e treated.

So that will be my first February resolution.

VALUE PEOPLE.

Oh ya, and today I talked to someone who I don't really like in class. And when I talked to her without any prejudice, it was actually nice. She says some pretty wise stuff and although I still have some uneasy feelings about her, its still not nice to dislike someone without reason right?

But how do you control dislike? I would love to love hot weather if I could but I just don't. I hate it to the core of my heart. Even in class, I would go to the last seat at the back just to get some fan and wind. Even in Bio I would sit at the same sit under the fan although its more practical to choose a seat nearer to teacher. Its just so stressful being hot (lolololol).

I can't control my dislike!!!

Lol, but I think I'm getting over my dislike for this person. I don't know.

Well I've done my bit on the internet which is talking about crap again. But someone out there might find this crap genius right?

Right???

To Take Or Not To Take

I only spent 2 hours sleeping last night and I don't feel sleepy during school at all! What is this sorcery?!

Today at school Sarah told me that narrator guy has a girlfriend and I feel so broken hearted right now... Its ridiculous! I've only seen him once and already I'm like this.

But but but all the Disney movies said....

Nevermind.

Did you guys know about my love hate relationship with EST (English For Science and Technology)?

Well I've been wanting to drop the subject because its so useless and such a waste of time but my mother won't let me. She says its a free Aa right there.

Its my choice right!!!

EST is a really tricky subject because the smallest mistake will drop you down to an E from an A. True story.

Forgot a word in that important point of yours? Too bad, FAILED! My parents can't seem to understand that!

And I had to write about Genetically Modified Food in class which I actually got an A for but what if I hadn't known a thing about it??? If I had no ability to spout some bullshit out at that time how?

Today we wrote about seed propagation and cloning/tissue culture which I have absolutely no idea about and that was SPM question on 2006! Thank God Chong was there to save the day lol.

And I have nobody there that I am close to. There is only about 9 people in the class and I don't really talk to any of them. I mean none who I would tell my secrets or my problems to. I just sit there pretending to read a book or pretend to sleep.

If not, I'll feel stupid.

Seth abandoned me. BJ abandoned me. Hafiz abandoned me. Only Kooks loves me now!

I seriously wanted to drop it so badly...

But then today, my mom finally let me drop the subject!! I begged and begged and begged and finally she snapped and said do whatever you please!

Once that weight is lifted off my shoulders its easier to think for myself now. When she said that I was taken aback and felt so light and airy.

I was getting ready to write the letter when I thought that its actually not as bad as I made it out to be. It was just me being rebellious yet again.

I actually want to stay in EST! I can make new friends. I can ace the subject. I can totally have fun.

I realised that if I just stole looking at the negative part of things, there is actually something beautiful in it.

Lol why so emo la me.

So I guess I'm taking this subject and honestly I'm quite scared. I'm sure its gonna be hard but somehow things will be ok.

I hope.

Oh yeah, and today I beat Garrett in arm wrestling. I hope he didn't just lose on purpose...



Look at Kooks disturbing me while I'm trying to do chemistry work!

Boring Story Of My Current Drama

Hey, did I tell you guys that if I was having any dramas I'd blog about it?

Well earlier this year, I actually developed a crush on a classmate of mine. Lets call him Tim.

Well Tim isn't exactly the most good looking guy in my opinion but he's so damn funny! Everything he says I will confirm laugh. And he's such a gentleman and I like that. And he's smart.

So I developed a tiny crush. Very tiny. I didn't even act on the crush! Didn't even think about it that much.

One day, I was in the library studying physics and this was probably in the second week of the year.

And Vanissa comes along and we talked and she told me a secret of hers. So I told her a secret of mine and it was that I had a small admiration for Tim. I emphasized the small.

And a few days later my admiration disappeared.

If you don't know, I'm a person who loves to joke around and some people have told me that I'm too open. Anyway, I always joke around with Tim about normal stuff. Mostly I just quote 9gag memes a lot. So obviously, we would laugh a lot.

And some people were teasing us about 'things' but I didn't think much about it and laughed it off with another joke. And Tim always laughs along with me.

But then two days ago, we were talking and something he said took me aback.

Tim : Did you tell Vanissa I was good in physics?
Me : Oh, yeah.
Tim : Oh she told me that last time. And she said something else....

Oh. MY. GAWD.

What did she say ahhhh??? Does he know? But it was just a small crush! Hiya so embarrassing!!!

In reality all I did was blink and coolly said, "Oh?"

I'm proud of myself for keeping my cool at that time lol.

So the next day, I asked Vanissa about it and she said yes but it was an accident cause Leon brought up the topic of me and cause she thought Tim already knew about it. Don't get me wrong, I'm not angry or anything. She already said sorry anyway. :-)

The whole story is that while waiting for the bus at the bus stop, Van, Leon and Tim were talking. Leon brought up the subject of me and Van accidentally said that she wa surprised I put Tim in my list.

The whole day, I did not talk to Tim or even look at him and I kept sighing to myself. I don't know why la since it was a small thing anyway.

And today, I was sitting at the back of the class during Bio because I love the fan and it was the side with no sunlight.

And idiot Leon told Tim to sit next to me like he did before but I said don't lol. My excuse was that I needed to study. And then Raina said, "So you admit that you can't concentrate when Tim sits next to you?"

I was like.... SERIOUSLY?? And Tim was like... Wtf and laughed it off.

Throughout Bio class, Zul (another classmate) kept pestering me bout Tim. One time, he walked over to where I was sitting (I was alone because I like it) alone and said something like, "Why you so lonely here??" and then screamed across the class and called out Tim's name? And reflex took over and I hit him on the chest.

I buried my face in my arms after that and laughed. It was seriously funny and if I didn't control my laughter, it would have been really emarassing for me. Imgine this. I wa sitting at the very back, at the far left. And Tim was sitting at the very front at the far right.

No, not funny? Okay...

And after that came EST class and Tim and I sat next to each other. I was very quiet and when he asked me why, I just said that I was on my period which is true. Things were very awkward because all I can think about is that HE KNOWS.

And then after a while, I sighed audibly and he asked so I said... "You know how I love to joke around right? People are saying that I like this person or that and one of those people is you. There I said it!!"

Imagine I said that all in one breath lol.

Anyway, Tim just said don't worry la. Don't care watt others think.

And now that think about it, I don't really care what others think also actually so its fine. I guess he's ok with it so if he's not feeling weird, then I shouldn't feel weird too.

So all well that ends well. Its not such a big thing but life is so boring nowadays! I got nothing else to say and yet I really want to blog about something.

Tim if you're reading this and you obviously know it's you. So now you know lol.

Things People Say #2

Me : Daddy what happened to your head?!

Dad : What what?

Me : Its getting bald...

Update on Kooks. He came home right after I posted yesterday. Then he took a piss and then puked!

Then I looked at his ass and its dirty and black ew.

Kooks is sick!!! Crap. I feel so guilty that it was me who caused him to be like this.

But I'm gonna take him to the vet soon. Just gotta find the time for it. Why don't vets open in the weekends???? Its so silly la.

Or maybe they do and I just don't know.

Ah great I just searched the whole house for Kooks and he is no where to be found. Is this what it feels like to be a parent for a teenager? I never go out with my friends anymore.

I know I would feel so guilty if I come home with a bad result for SPM next year. I'll totally recall eety time I have fun. Even blogging right now I feel guilty but its okay because it makes me feel better and I'm using Bloggeroid on Android anyway so its fine.

Tomorrow is the cross country run.

Its so easy to tell others on being responsible and putting business before pleasure but I so want to be a hypocrite! I want to run with my friends and I want to laugh along and get tired and enjoy refreshing drinks and go buy ice cream float and have one final chance in getting top 10. There's always a chance right?

Right now I am resenting every single St John Ambulance members who refuses to go do their duty. Rawwwerrr!!!

I hope they get sunburn. And I hope the Zuhals (green team) gets points! And the other teams to fall down or something.

Okay I don't mean that. Stay safe ah guys. Watch out for cars. I'll be somewhere there to catch you when you fall.

Have fun..... TT
No la I'm joking, I'm not really that upset. Its cool bha to be a nurse. The silent guardian angel. The silent hero. The savior of the cramped and the fainted.

So to any schoolmates of mine, I'll be there to cheer you on yeah!

And I predict that tomorrow, Jong Kook will get top 10. He says he wants to get top 5 and yet he never even got top 10 in the four past years. Quite a big leap oh.

(The next day....)

I came to school around 5.30am and it was so dark and eerie! I wasn't wearing glasses so all the faces I saw were like ghosts and it was so freak and lonely to sit in the dark all alone, eavesdropping in some 13 year old girl's love life..

And then I watch the sun slowly rise and imagined myself holding someone's hand LOL. I'm joking.

Anyway, I hung out with Vanissa and Bethany for a little while until it was time to go for St John duties.

All I can say about the preparation is that it is very confusing and the Form 6 guy who was in charge of everything was so stressed, he was a little scary in handling everything. But I know how these things are like for some people so I didn't take it to heart.

We were all waiting outside for all the kids to be unleashed and two interesting things happened.

One, when the Lelaki A boys were on the go, it was like a herd of bulls bullsand when they cleared out, there was a phone in the middle of the school entrance and it was cracked haha! FHL.

Then when the Perempun A girls were let out, a girl fell down somewhere 100 m away from the entrance and I along with 2 other juniors went to help her. I am so proud!!! My most most most gentlest version of myself comes out when I'm doing my St. John duties.

And ten after that, off I go to my station. And this part I am very pissed about.

I am stationed together with a Form 6 guy named Darrie and that's fine until every Form 6 said things like "Don't dating ahhhh!!" and stuff like that.

Grow up.

But actually, I didn't mind that at the time lol. Only now that I think about it that I'm getting a little pissed.

And and and the Form 6 in charge said that our station which was the Chung Hwa roundabout is near the school and since the school van is full, we should just walk there.

So we did. And when we did get there, they said it was at Shan Tao which was bloody far away.

And then the van passed us just as we arrived there with half the people gone!!!! Which means they sent people who's stations are much closer to the school than us!!!!

And then we waited for all the boys to pass by and fortunately nobody fainted.

By 9am, all the boys passed by and we followed Teacher Tsang's car back to school.

There I met with my other friends and they told me that someone was mad at me and the person wrote a Facebook status last night.

But why would they think its me?

Anyway, I asked the person if I did anything wrong and he said no the status wasn't about me. It was accidentally posted.

Problem solved. Its always better to talk it out rather than just leave a problem hanging there.

And oh yeah! Jong Kook didn't get top 10.

After school, I sent a very sick Kooks to the vet. And its so amazing cause you can just leave your pet there and then come back some time later to pick it up! So time saving and convenient.

I went to Dr Hady's Vet at Kingfisher and I like the people there. They're friendly once you've warmed them up a bit. So I guess that's my default vet from now on la.

I wish I have my own drivers license and job and house and car because I really hate troubling my parents like this!

Have to pay for my cat.
Have to pay for my studies.
Have to pay for my skin.

I'll repay them when I can.

Bye Bye Blogger

I'm moving to Wordpress.

And maybe I won't like it and come sniffling back to blogger but I'm just gonna try it out. Heard its better.

So if you're interested, its here.

Okay nevermind, I just tried it and it is so complicated.... so back to blogger I am!

Today is a holiday which means that I am free to blog yay!

So, I noticed that some of my friends are in a bad mood nowadays and I am really not emphatic to these things. I won't ask what's wrong because I know that they won't tell me and even if they do, I don't really know what to do except pat them on the back and say Aw....

So here's a video to all you sad people out there on how to stay positive. Just watch it. Its really funny (to me anyways).

I like her. She's funny.



Okay, done watching?

Don't worry and be happy.

And I am trying to stay positive because this Saturday is my school's cross country run and I can't run because I have to do my St. John Ambulance duties and treat all the sicklings.

To all the athletes or runners or whatever, DO NOT take these nurses, St Johns', PBSMs and scouts for granted because they (mainly me) are sacrificing their (last for me) run for you. So buy them (me) a drink.

And its not that I am forced by my teacher but as the president of St John, I'd rather be a responsible leader for my last year than be the jerk prez who tells her juniors to do the boring work. So at least my conscience is clear! =D

And my cat ran away to who knows where!!!! =(((

I hope Kooks comes back.... I'm getting kinda worried...

BUT STAY POSITIVE AND HOPE FOR THE BEST!

Do I have a problem? Yes. Can I do anything about it? No. So why worry.

KITTY COME BACK PLEASEEEEEEE!!!!

Sniffle sniffle, I'm damn worried and I'm going crazy! I haven't seen him yesterday or today...

What to do what to do what to do??? There's nothing I can do!!!

What if he died of somewhere? Or some kids took him away and dismembered his limbs. Oh crap.

Calm... calm. He'll be back by nightfall.

Oh ya, I haven't even made a new year's resolution! Last year's resolution was a complete fail...

It was.

1. Work super duper hard. (Fail)
2. Keep your cool, no more screaming. (Fail)
3. ALWAYS do your homework. (Fail, definitely)
4. Never go to school ugly. (I can't remember how many times I didn't brush my hair, or wore mismatched socks)
5. Don't fake sickness again. (Fail lol)
6. Study 2 hours every night. (FAIL HAHAHA!)
7. Don't hate my teacher. (Failllllll)
8. Accept criticism with grace. (Hmmm, not sure.)
9. Don't gossip about anyone. (Fail la of course)
10. Don't forget any books. (Fail)
11. Have a notebook at all times. (Okay, this one pass)

Eyer, my 15 year old self could have done this no problem, but turned 16 and there goes my studying motivation.

So here's my resolutions of 2013! *cue drumroll

1. Eat vegetables everyday. (So far, so good!)
2. Heal my skin. (So far, so good!!)
3. Study and do homework. (So far so good!)
4. Try not to be a jerk. (Uhhh, not sure. But I'm trying!) If I am being a jerk, just tell me.
5. Try to blog more about nice things.
6. Be more serious in class. My BM teacher told me this last year.
7. Admit that I'm wrong when I am and apologize after that.
8. Save money to buy a treat for myself at the end of each month.
9. Stop wearing makeup. Or at least lessen it.
10. Screw cute and become more elegant.
11. Be a responsible person.
12. Learn to say no to responsibililities if I know I'm not capable.

So that is my 2013 resolution for the month of January hahaha. I'll make a new one on February. I'd post a new one so its one step at a time.

One step closer to perfection.

2013 has been really nice so far. Surprisingly, I like my teachers, even my Add Maths teacher.

And as for boys, I don't think I want to have a relationship with anyone. But its fun to talk to boys because they're so different from girls. So everyone who has the XY chromosomes are in the friendzone. For now.

And beside, I think a boy is so distracting if I like him. Actually, even if I don't like him, it will still be distracting.

What with all the phone calls, texts, facebook chats, have to spend time, and then can't even concentrate on schoolwork and the whole mess in the breakups. Its easier to avoid that until I and this future guy will be mature enough to have a proper and healthy relationships.

So no relationships for me! *applause

At least I hope so because sometimes, these things can't be helped.

Responsible student or not hehehe. But if there's a guy I like, I'll probably blog it out. Boys are always good blogging substances.