Of Universities

Since I am already 18 this year, its time for me to apply for university yay!

My first choice is pharmacy because after learning that, I can apply for med school and then be a doctor. Doctor is a very coveted title and I guess I can do it, so why not.

Butttttt then again, I feel like its very scary and I'm not a very tough person. In fact, I cry when people yell at me (so I hate working retail) and I'm slow. I don't know if I can stand the pressure like say, in an ER!

The second choice is TESL which is for teaching secondary or primary school English as a second language. This is my style cause its English! My best subject has always been English and my most loved subject has also always been english. I love it.

I really really jeongmal am frustrated with what to do with my life.

Everything will work out though in the end, so I'm crossing my fingers that what happens in the middle of that will not be to major.

Selfie

Annyeong haseyo!

I've been thinking of getting a better, bigger phone with a better camera (my phone doesn't have a front camera either) so I can take selfies. I never take a selfie myself and if I do, it usually goes like this.

1. Put makeup on.
2. Find background.
3. Find lighting.
4. Fix hair.
5. Take selfie with the back camera.
6. Look at selfie.
7. *horrified
8. Try to salvage with filters and editors.
9. *depressed when fail
10. Delete selfie.

My 10 step guide to taking a selfie crystal-style haha.

WOOHOO MAH FACE!

One of my not failed selfies (to me anyway). OK OK I KNOW THERE'S SOME EDITING FAIL (LOL). #nomakeup but #intensely_edited

Don't believe everything you see on the internet!

And my instagram has only one picture. Dahlah one pic only, its a pic of my cat. *dark

So, I will save money to buy a high quality phone to take selfies and update my instagram and blog with pretty picutres (not necessarily of my face). 

And also, when I go to Uni (which is soon, I hope), I wanna send pics to my parents about my daily life, right? So, I should send nice high quality picture to them. 

I don't want to buy a real camera cause its such a hassle to bring that around with me wherever I go. Plus, I can't upload does instantly to my social sites using a camera.

This sudden motivation for pictures is because I went on a training course on web development yesterday with Caroline and Sarah and they took lotsa pics on their phone. 

AND! It was really fun to take pictures, and choose filters and put them online and look at other people's pictures.

Ok enough about my compressed vanity, I went out with friends yesterday!!!

Ahhhh, its so good to hang out with friends after such a long time. I feel happy now. I don't know what else to say haha, just happy to see my friends again, and hanging out again. 

I hope that I get to hang out some more, cause I'm so bored to death at home. And I miss Frieda, Vanissa, Jes, Carlin, Aina. Caroline and Sarah, I already saw yesterday so my missing them is satiated already haha.

I wanna bring all of them to go out but they're all busy with work or school. I guess the only ones that are very free is me, Caroline and maybe Sarah.

For now, I'll just spend my time learning Korean so I can one day watch Korean dramas and variety shows without subs. *burning will

Okay!

Kamsahamida, have a good day!

Just another day in the mountains.

I went for an hour drive up to Tambunan on Saturday. And see the little village there? That's the place my father and I were heading to.

I woke up on Saturday and my father asked me if I wanted to go to Tambunan for a 7th day. Images of struggling to stay awake in the car, awkward forced chats with cousins and people forcing me to eat flashed into my mind so automatically, I said no.

But then I thought, hey, its not everyday I get an opportunity to have a real reason to shower. So I changed my mind.

I think it was so pretty going up Crocker Range! The air was so cool and the sky was so blue! It's just so nice. :D

I even finished my meal. ^^

I also went to a rafflesia farm but rafflesia's aren't in bloom right now. Rafflesia is the biggest flower in the world and they have no specific blooming season, its random and they can't be preserved for some reason.

But I am determined to see a real rafflesia with my own eyes someday! It's so shameful that I want to go to other countries and yet have not experienced the full beauty of my own country. *deep

It was so nice to get out of the house and go somewhere! I've been rotting for more than a week. The sims was right? One does go a bit crazy when they don't step outside once in a while.

And after that, we went to a mall aka my natural habitat. *yay!

And I found my most favorite purchase ever!!!!

The Body Shop All In One BB Cream

It comes out white but when you blend it, it turns into your skin colour. Cool or cool? :D

Apparently, it has magic capsules that burst and magically blend into your skin colour. I don't know how that works but it works.

And it makes my skin looks nice AND it was 20% off but even with that, this was still the most expensive product I've bought. This is fulfilling my new year's resolution! To go for quality and not quantity.

It's too early to tell if its actually making my skin better though.

I guess that's all the things I've done that's exciting for the weekend. *sad

I should take up a class or something like that. That would be something that's not a waste of my time at least.

Height Complaining

This gave me hope haha. D.O, Chen, Suho and Xiumin are the shortest among the SM boys, AND! If I wear heels, I might be able to reach Chen's height.

Thank God for the invention of heels right?

Dahlah I'm so short, the proportion is way out of balance. My torso is long and my legs are short. Ya, unsexy. But its ok... its ok. Cause I haven't stopped growing yet. I'm only 18 years old this year, I'm bound to grow some more if I stuff cheese and milk and calcium pills down my throat right right?? *nervous laugh

Current height : 157 cm

Plus, I sleep 10 hours a day these days so I am bound to grow taller. I just hope that I'll be able to reach 160cm please please please.

Really, the worst thing that could happen now is that 157cm isn't really my real height and I'm actually shorter wtf that would be damn unlucky for me.

I will not give up! *bang table

I am not destined to be a hobbit!!

I have a friend named Richmond and he's super duper tall, about as tall as EXO's Kris (the tallest guy in the pic up there). I guess Richmond is around 185cm I think. Anyway, he's so tall, he can be a model or an idol. He and Kris have two things in common, height and a deep voice.

If only Richmond could shave some of his height off and give some to me. Though I doubt if humans could divide their height, he would give some to me.

Today, I ate maggi noodles, 2 pieces of chicken, french fries (little bit), chocolate pastry, 2 pieces of chocolate, 1 mug of green tea. I don't know why I wrote that, but somethings missing. My riceeeeeee.

But right now, I want some ppopgi.... yummy.

One Month And A Half

It has been a month and a half since the last SPM exam paper and I still have about 2 months to wait till the results come out.

My maths teacher once said, penantian itu sejenis penyeksaan which translates to waiting is torture and she said this when we didn't hand in our homework.

I'm damn worried about my results! I feel like I didn't study enough... Ok, I did work hard, but not very hard.

 I always slept at 9pm and wake up at 5am and my other friends stay up till 3am and then wake up at 4am. *wide eyes

What coffee brand are you guys drinking?? Are we drinking the same water, eating the same rice? Buying the same McD?

And during those ungodly hours they stay up, they actually study, like, intensely. *wider eyes

I never study at home, only at school and tuition and when I do study at home, its usually just reading and memorizing facts and not heavy stuff like Add Maths. How to do algebra and calculus when I can barely count to a hundred without falling asleep.

But I don't sleep at school la, eventhough I feel like dying in the middle of every class. But dunno why, I suddenly resurrect during recess and after school. And the only reason I don't sleep is because I wear contact lenses the whole day. There, my secret to not falling asleep but looking like shit trying to keep my eyes open haha.

Anyway, here are my personal forecast of my subjects.

Malay         - A

English        - A

Maths         - A+

Add Maths  -A

Biology        -A

Chemistry    -A

Physics        -A

Moral          -B/C

EST             -A/B

History         -B

But if I had this results, I would be kinda sad.... I want straight A's! So I change hehe. This is what I pray it will look like

Malay         - A+

English        - A+

Maths         - A+

Add Maths  -A+

Biology        -A+

Chemistry    -A+

Physics        -A+

Moral          -A+

EST             -A+

History         -A+

If I had straight A's, I'd scream WOOHOOO and flip a finger to the world haha.

Ok, no I wouldn't. *asian respect dilemma

I think I'll just ask my parents to bring me go celebrate somewhere, and eat to my heart's delight. Mmmmm, I want some meat. Duck meat, with crispy skin and soy sauce OMG droooooool. 

Speaking of eating, I am very sure I got fatter in the holidays. *gasp

My face got very chubby and I already have a humongous head to begin with fml. And my tummy pouch got bigger to the point where I can't even delude myself that its my imagination. Haiya, what to do except diet and exercise. On the plus side, my skin got better and fairer thanks to not seeing Mr. Sun for a very long time. And I'm drinking green tea and eating vitamin, haih the things I do for good skin.

I love her method! Instead of dunking my face in green tea, I just take one used bag and gently dab that all over my skin till it dries. And my skin feels like a baby's butt afterwards.

Day #004

A question a day. DaY #004.

What was the last food you ate? If we are what we eat...?

I ate chocolates just now after I went grocery shopping. Its so delicious, I'd chocolate everyday if there was a chocolate store next to my house.

The chocolate I ate was rice cracker style and it said on the packaging that it had nutritional benefits. Pshft, I don't believe it haha.

If I were what I eat (chocolate) then I'd be full of happiness.

The Person I'm Most Grateful Of In Life

There's so many people to be grateful for in my life. I mean, everyone in my life, whether good or bad, has played an important role in making me into what I am today. Even those who have been assholes (hmph!) has shaped me to being me.

SO HOW CAN I SINGLE ONE PERSON OUT?! lol

But if I had to pick one person that has influenced me greatly, it would be my father.

Let's do a little background on him first. He was born in the country area to a humble family. But! He worked hard, and was handpicked to attend a boarding school that is a 2 hour car ride and a 2 hour plane ride from home and then after that went to Europe to study some more. Wahhhh my dad is Cinderella!

Anyway!

If I didn't have my dad, I wouldn't be here typing this post. I don't know where I would be, but right now, I'm in a very happy place! I've got a roof over my head and a shirt on my back. (and smartphone, tablets, laptop, plus lots of hair and skincare products. My dad was the one who bought me everything I currently own -duh- including my tablet and samsung smartphone. Plus! My Digi top ups which is very very important for me)

I remembered one day, my dad sent me to primary school and he walked me to the gate. And I was too attached to my dad that I felt so sad to enter school and wait another 6 hours to see him. Then when school was over, I'd be staring at the road for his car. Like a puppy lol.

During sales season, which comes quite often in Malaysia (or is it just me?) he'd be the only one willing to bring me go. During my birthday, he let me roam in my natural habitat and shop till I literally dropped (I fell down heh). But its not just that, its that he is willing to spend time with me doing something that other's might deem boring.

In fact, during the year end's sale this year, he brought the whole family go shopping around! Although this year, I controlled myself and limited my spending to RM20. But its nice to spend time with family and go around the city and just, HAVE FUN! Having fun is my favorite past time hehe. Especially having fun with the people I love!

And most importantly, he instilled my moralistic values in me. From simple things such as never ever throwing rubbish on the ground (my mantra lol) to more serious things, like honesty. When I was young, I used to collect abandoned pens and pencils from my drawer. And when I told this to my father, he said, what if those belong to someone? To which I replied, but I found them, so its mine (haha, totally influenced by the finders keepers bull). Then he told me that that wasn't true and asked me what if I forgot my things and someone took it based on the finders keepers logic. And that stuck with me till today.

He also taught me multitudes of things from how to cook eggs haha to the importance of intelligence. I love my dad! 사랑해요! Translation : I love you! (formally)

Haha, a drawing of him. I am definitely not the next Picasso.

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1/5 Life Crisis

Tiny blisters are forming in terrifying amount on my ring finger so I wrapped it in cotton pad and tied a rubber band around it. Its so painful!!!

Today I found a new wonderful way to earn money, and that is by taking online surveys!

Its so easy and so fast, but the money is only around a few cents a day, which isn't really that bad, since all you had to do was click at answers. If I could spend my life taking surveys, I would be so happy.

Why aren't more people taking surveys???? As all fast and easy money are, its kinda hard cause I don't qualify for some of the surveys so its hard to take surveys when no one want your opinion lol. *depressed

And since we're in the topic of money, there is a job that offers money if you do some packaging and maybe shipping. I don't really know how it works but it seems easy enough. Its just a repetition of packing and writing and packing and writing. Ctrl C Ctrl V lol.

Right now, I wanna earn money without having to work lol. I'm so lazy. Or if I were to do real work, I wanna do it with friends. I've tried doing some retail before and it was nice and the people were friendly and it wasn't really that hard, but it just didn't have much of a cheery mood to it. Why do work that makes you miserable for 12 hours. Not to mention the fact that I sleep at 10pm which is when work ends!

Isn't there supposed to be shorter hours offered? Like when you can come and work for two hours everyday and be done with it? I wouldn't mind that.

                             

I've been having a mental crisis these days. What should I do when I have to get a job? I'm a very sensitive person and the slightest criticism cuts my heart. Sigh, its a big flaw.

Before this I had big plans about starting my own business and I will someday but before that, I'm at a loss. Should I be an english teacher? I'd get trampled and tied up by my students. T.T

I'm having 1/5 life crisis!!!!!