I Fail

I failed as a Christian.

I was at the gym just now and my mother whatsapped me.

Mother : Did you go to church?
Me.        : For what?
Mother : Ash Wednesday.

I didn't even know it was Ash Wednesday! Dahlah I haven't been to church for how many weeks already...

I feel quite guilty.

No not just quite. VERY guilty.

I don't even go to a Catholic church, but an Anglican one because its easier. I know I know. It doesn't matter as long as your heart is in the right place.

But if that is so, why is my heart so heavy?

I want to go back to a Catholic church. I want to attend a mass that has been so ingrained in my head I can probably do it in my sleep.

I mean, Anglican churches are great and fun but its not the way I was brought up. I will forever be a Catholic and I don't think anything can change that.

But going to the nearest church from my place costs RM20 per trip which is ridiculous hmph and its never safe to travel alone these days. How ah. How ah...

Maybe a sacrifice I have to make.

Happy Chinese New Year!

These past 2 years, there were a lot of firsts for me. First time on an airplane. First time is Perak. First time studying Calculus 2.

Then there are a lot of lasts as well. Last time celebrating my birthday with my family. Last time celebrating CNY in Malaysia. Last time studying Calculus 2, cause I had to repeat it. (hopefully the last time la. If not then FML) T.T

And I hope that its truly the last because if its not the last, it means that I won't be going to America and that suckkkkkkks. That's suckier than a spit to the eyeball. I would take a knee to the crotch if that would secure my passage to America. I would give RM 10,000. I would slap my best friend. I would make peace with my worst enemy.

What wouldn't I do?

I probably draw the line at giving away my first born wtf. Or murdering someone.

But I digress.

I dyed my hair again! And now its a lighter colour but I hope its going to darken a bit, I also recently discovered that my hair grows 1 mm in 3 days. meaning its 1 cm in a month. Meaning 12 cm in a year. Wowowow.

I am mildly upset also la. When I dyed my hair, the hairdresser quoted a price for my waist length hair. But then I also asked them to cut it off at the ends to make a nice U-shape and then... AND THEN!

THEY PROCEEDED TO CUT MY HAIR UP TO THE MIDDLE OF MY BACK!!!!!

I DON'T HAVE MERMAID HAIR ANYMOREEEEEEE T__________________________T

So ya, 1 year of keeping my hair all down the drain.

But wait there's more.

After she dyed it, she still charged the same price for the shorter hair hmphhhh. I don't like.