So Tired But Still Blog

A guy kinda pissed me off today.

I and another guy in front odd me was making weird car sounds to mimic the construction sounds outside and the guy next to me said...

"As a girl, its embarrassing for you to do that."

And I wouldn't have thought anything about it if he hadn't said it in this condescending voice.

So I said,

"I'm not restricted to the kampung ways."

Not my best argument ever.... Ish!

I really wonder how people can be so 'inside' their heads like that. Just cause YOU deem it inappropriate in your head, doesn't mean others will.

I'll make my car sounds if I want to. Its my problem if it embarrasses me.

Ok ok on to a happier topic. Hornbill is my school's yearly magazine and its beautiful every year. I lost the one that I bought last year's though....

But this year's pictures... Haiya! All the pictures of me looks so spastic! Like every single one. I'm not a very photogenic person.... *weep

But its ok! *bangs table

I'm happy cause at least I have a good amount of my pictures in it even though mostly ugly ones! PMR straight A's, SINDEX, drama, class and clubs photos, and random pics on events. (Yeap, I'm showing off But now I realize its not such a big achievement anyways)

I'll share the pics next time if I can. mostly my spastic pics.

I love Hornbill magazine also cause that is when all the gossiping happens! I love gossip even though its bad but, there's a thrill in it! I don't know how, but I'm sure you guys know what I'm talking about right?

Its like you're in on a big secret or something like that.

Oh ya, this week we started or kokum and its so tiring to have to stay back in school everyday except for Friday. Then at night have to go for tuition again.

But I'm planning to change that. The Add Maths tuition I go to sucks. The teacher comes in class, gives you an example and then goes out to teach the OTHER classes. I paid for her to teach me for two hours didn't I???!!! If I'm stuck at one question then I have to wait for her to come back and I think my tinge is totally wasted like that. So no worth the RM 100 I pay once a month. So I'm planning to change to Mr Dennis.

Rumour has it that he is an awesome teacher. And he only charges RM 80 a month!

Then I'm planning to go to Cikgu Awang for chemistry but the time is just not right. I'm deciding between him or Dennis and its so hard to make up my mind.

I'll probably go to Awang for chem and Dennis for Add Maths.

Haiya don't know la. I really can't think nowadays because life is so disorienting and stressful. Last night I arrive home and straight away slept. I have never been that tired before!

And in class whenever I have no work to do, my first thought would be to sleep because I'm not sure when I can have the chance to sleep again.

And and and! My pimples are getting worse! My eyebags are getting so large you can store stuff in it! My hair is sticking out NUUUUU!!!

And most of the time I don't even care because there's always some kind of work I have to do.

Short Post For Today

Yesterday I watched the Critic's Choice Awards and I wonder how can people be so beautiful and elegant like that?

By the way, YAY ANNE HATHAWAY WON AN AWARD FOR LES MISERABLES!!!

I like her with long hair better. Just like Miley Cyrus and Emma Watson.
I've always thought that my family watches a lot of movies because everytime there's a new 'famous' movie out in the cinemas, my dad would bring the whole family to go watch. But it seems like all the good movies are out all at the same time!!!! HOW COME AH? Haiya, I definitely have to go to the store to buy them... ASAP!
After watching the Critic's Choice Award, I realised that I've actually missed a lot. Wreck-It-Ralph, Looper,  Argo, The Silver Linings Playbook.
I feel like time is slipping by too fast!!! NUUUU!
Okay, sudden subject change.
I always learn something new in EST class like today, we had a long discussion about pregnancy and giving birth.
A myth about giving birth is that it hurts like hell when you're trying to push the baby out. Well, this was a silly myth that the movies have pushed into my head because I thought that the delivery rooms was a place of cursing, screaming and crying.
But surprisingly, my teacher said that's not true! The pain is actually from the contractions and even that only lasts for about 5 seconds and then you rest for like 10 minutes, depending on how close you are to pushing.
And when you are ready to push, the pushing helps counter the pain so you don't feel much.
And then when you see the face of your baby, all the pain goes away. ^^
At least, that's how my teacher explains it. I'm not sure how much of the truth is in there. But I'm more reassured of the future after she explained that cause I've always thought that it was just one of those things that women had to deal with.

Haiya, a girl my age shouldn't think of these things yet and yet, I am. *shakes head

Ok I'm going to go for tuition in an hour so I'm gonna take a short nap.

What If, That Is The Question

I take it back. There are a lot of homework now.

Its just that I'm too forgetful to think about it. And I'm too lazy to touch it. And that I choose to ignore it. "Is it still there if I think its not there?"

It dawned on me that I should really start doing my homework every night because today, my Add Maths teacher screamed at the class because we didn't show respect to him. I'm traumatic now!

I definitely don't ever want to be at the receiving end of his anger!

He gave me the kick in the ass that I needed to get my head out of the clouds.

And today we had a pop quiz and I didn't do a lot of the questions eventhough its really simple and agh I'm really scared he'll scold me and demand an explanation why my homework is magically done and perfect while my pop quizzes are crap.

I won't torrent off other peoples work la then! Meaning I won't cheat on homeworks.

Aiya... Add Maths is so frustrating!

Also, now I'm looking for some good tuition classes. I've already started Add Maths and now I wanna go find physics, chemistry and maths classes because I need someone there to push me on doing work. I don't do self motivation. Someone else has to motivate me. Either by smart people looking smirking at me when I fail or teachers shaking their heads when I look outside the window and not listening to teacher, anyone will push me if my brain interprets it as a challenge. Just not myself because my criticism to myself is not that important. Does that make sense?

No, I don't imagine so.

Chemistry is especially cause I tried my best last year to not do anything chemistry related because the teacher was so boring and made me sleepy every single time. Sometimes, I get hungry which is worse because I don't concentrate at all when I'm hungry. Basically, I didn't care if I failed. Horrific, I know.

But this year cannot! I must pass and possibly get an A! Which means catching up on the Form 4 topics. Oh God, I'm already feeling the stress and all I'm doing is thinking about doing work and not actually doing it. Horrific horrific!!!

Sigh, I'm just scared. Is it better to try as hard as you can and yet fail, or not try at all? I would have said it is better to try but now I kinda see why some people don't try. They're afraid that all that hard work will be for nothing and its so devastating when you work the best you can and yet not get what you want.

But then again, I also know that it would break your heart to ask 'what if'to yourself. What if I tried to do my best in SPM, Crystal asked, as she sweeped leaves of her employer's backyard lol. NO THAT WILL NOT  HAPPEN!

I will take my SPM results knowing that I have studied my ass off for it!

BUT I AM SUCH A LAZY PERSON NOWADAYS HOW CAN???!!!!!!

My chemistry books are right in front of me but I get angry everytime I pick up my pen and start writing. It's so frustrating because I know I can procrastinate and yet, I feel way too guilty to do so. ACTUALLY EVEN RIGHT NOW I'M PROCRASTINATING GAHHHH *PULL HAIR!!!!

Okay, I should calm down.... take a deep breath and try blogging out my worries....

Which I'm doing now...

I am so tempted to copy someone's experiment report but no no no, that is not the right thing to do. I have to do it myself or not I'll never get smarter!

Should I study now? Yeah I really should. Thank you Teacher Kenneth for the ass kicking. I appreciate that scream of yours.

I knew that he doesn't read my blog and that's why I wrote that haha. I wouldn't say that to him, later he thinks I like him hahahahaha.

Now, little fact if the day, sodium buns brightly and rapidly with a yellow flame and liberates white fumes which becomes a white solid at the end of the reaction.

Konichiwa! And I'll Say Hi If I Want To

Even when there's absolutely no topic to talk about, this girl can come up with anything.

To all my blogger friends, see that I put an ad up there? Legend has it that I'll earn money from it so lets give that a try and let it be for a few months. If you guys wanna try it out too then sign up to nuffnang and type type type and you're done!

Yesterday at school it was announced that my school is offering Japanese lessons from now on! Got the teacher already also! Its just that I can't take it cause I was born at the wrong year. I'm sorry that I didn't plan my birth correctly hmph!

So nice la to be a 13 year old now when you can take such an exciting subject! If it was Korean then I would be more excited oh and fight for my right to take the subject!!!

Wouldn't it be nice to walk past the teacher and call out Konichiwa Sensei! or Anyeong Sengnim!!

At least I think that is how you say your greetings.

Actually, I really hate it when you pass a teacher and say hello with a bright smile and they ignore you. After all the emphasis the school makes to respect our elders and make sure to give our greetings but yet, we get ignored anyway! It is really embarrassing okay! No wonder students choose to ignore teachers.

And we can't even say Hi! It must be Good Morning or something formal but I refuse! I will say Hi if I want to!

And you know what else passes me off?

The library in my school is almost NEVER open and I am left outside sweating and ending up not studying.

Back when the old librarian hasn't retired, the library was always open in the afternoon.

For the past three years I have been a librarian but as time passes it seems like the school library is getting worse by the year.

Today there were a total of only three people in the library including me and that's nice, no distraction. But after an hour the library was closed because the teacher had to go to class.

Where are all the librarians you ask? Well, all of them quit because even if they come for duty, even they couldn't enter. Which is why I quit being a librarian, its such a waste of time.

And and and!!!!!

Lol, this doesn't really piss me off because I don't do much wrong in school because I am a lazy potato and do anything I can to sit still and sleep but my school also installed all these cameras all around the school. If I counted, I think there would be around 20 cameras around.

But still meh, doesn't affect me much. *lazy potato speaking

I really do feel so lazy right now! I have no homework to do so I have no motivation to get my books out and study for the sake of studying but I know I should ahhhh I don't know, I'll procrastinate and do it later.

My classes are so laid back. In maths, teacher almost never gives out homework. In english, teahcer is happy if we even write the date. In chemistry, teacher just hangs her mouth like a fish and stretches out the homework due date. In physics, there has been no homework up till now. Its like Form 4 all over again!

I realy feel like I should seize the oppurtunity to relax while I still can... but I know I shouldn't!!!! Something or someone should really kick me in the ass to get me up and going.

I am so torn....


---In the end, Crystal's conscience won and she went off to study for probably about 5 minutes until she gets a headache and goes to bed---

 

*big shiny eyes

I am so obsessed with this manghwa!!! GOONG FTW!

 

 

Random Questions Day 1

1:Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
- Closed definitely cause have you ever seen Monster's Inc??? That's what I imagine happening to me at night. I've tried to conquer my fear of monsters and ghosts and anything paranormal by purposely sleeping with it open but I can't go to sleep with the thought of it. So in the end, I get up and close them.

2:Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
-Pshhh yeah of course who wouldn't? Free stuff is the best. But in the end I won't use them and they rot in the closet.

3:Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
-Tucked out. Its so hot already in this weather and with the sheets tucked in again.... *disregard the fact that I have aircon installed.

4:Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
-LOL NO. Is that what the kids nowadays do?

5:Do you like to use post-it notes?
-I used to use them for PMR and stick them onto random parts of the house like bathroom, fridge, mirror and yeah that was useful. Till now, I still find some around the house. But now I don't find uses for them anymore.

6:Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
-Even cutting them out is a nuissance haha. And I never have the courage to use them or the memory to remember that I have them. I won a RM10 coupon for my school koperasi in Form 3 and it rotted in my bag. What a waste...

7:Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?

-I guess bees. I mean you can't do anything if a bear attacks you right? If its bees you can run to water and.... either way you die lol.

 

8:Do you have freckles?

-No but I'd gratefully trade them in for my pimples. Ugh, so annoying.

 

9:Do you always smile for pictures?

-YES. MUST. I look stupid if I don't smile. Like I'm trying too hard to look cool or something.

 

10:What is your biggest pet peeve?

-People breathing on my skin. People looking while I use the computer or phone. When people are loudly talking in the cinema. When people in front of me take too long to take an order. When people are in my personal bubble.

 

Speaking of people invading my personal bubble, there was this one time in class when teacher wasn't alone that I was sitting beside this guy cause Leon needed to use my place for hanging up the curtains.

 

Then when a group of us were talking, this guy, L, accindentally poked his knees on my butt!!! MY PERSONAL BUBBLE!!!! Ugh. So I moved a bit la, then comes that knee again and again I moved over. Then it happened again. So I told him that its bugging me.

 

"Why does your knees always poke my ass????"

 

And he said "Manada!" (Where got?) "Perasan oh kau kan?"

 

So basically he said I was sensitive and think too much. Thank goodness after that time recess came and we all forgot about it and became good friends lol. Kids.

 

 

Happy V Day

As you all know, yesterday was Valentine's Day and surprisingly it was the most eventful one so far.

I was annoyed that morning when my phone rang and someone texted me on midnight if I wanted to go out that day.

Oh btw, the name of the person will not be mentioned. Feel free to guess.

Okay anyway, at first I was like OMG WTF MAN HOW DARE YOU WAKE ME FROM MY SLUMBER!!?? But then I just texted "why?"

And then he replied back, "Don't you want to? :(... " which irked me cause guys who use smileys are sissies in my opinion.

But in my disorientedness, I just said, "Okay la. When and where?"

Secretly in my heart I was kinda happy and excited lol. I couldn't even go back to sleep for a few hours! Heeeeeee!

We set up the time at 12.30pm at 1Borneo and as expected on V Day, it was a little to crowded for my taste but surprisingly, I didn't meet anyone who I would say hi to.

I won't go into detail on the whole thing cause it would be too long to write and I'm in no mood to write long posts today.

But the best part was that he bought me to eat at this Chinese restaurant where I ordered this big cheese baked rice with pork and oh my, I'm salivating thinking about it!

THEN HE PAID FOR THE MEAL WHICH WAS LIKE RM40+++!

So nice!

After that we just hung out around and then at last we went to Starbucks. Hmmm... This seems familiar lol.

Then we just talked and talked and talked about everything and nothing. He told me about how he wants to start a business one day and buy a big mansion and get a fast sports car and have lots of girls swooning everytime he passes. *roll eyes... Men.

And I talked about clothes, beauty and all my friends and *coughasasshole#1cough*.

We talked for such a long time. It was the longest time that I can remember just sitting down and talk without doing anything else. It was nice lol.

Then we stopped talking for a while and shared a comfortable pause and so I bought about my feelings for him. I've always known that we had a 'thing' and so my heart beat wildly against my rib cage when he called out my name. Softly la, he didn't scream it out.

I was thinking about how I was going to handle it if he confessed. How??? I would be cool if course. At least, as cool as can be. I'd say that I'll think about it and then consult my friends and of course blog it out hahahahahaha. Oh crap....

Then he said....

"I'm glad to have a friend like you"

*glass shatter

*pin drop

*crickets chirp



Then I woke up lololol.

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!! :D

Goong

Here's a post about things going on in my life based on pictures I took in my phone.

My school on Sports Day and a random mandarin orange plastic bag on the floor. Oh hehehe, I think thats mine.

We all ate A LOT of mandarin oranges! The school gave them to us for free yay and I absolutely love free
stuff!

Sarah showed us her skills of finding the sweetest oranges O.O but I still don't understand how she does it. She says find the ones which have air in them? For me, I just smell them because the sour ones always have this smell on them. Gah... don't know how to explain.

Guess its just based on luck for those who can't find the difference hahahaha!

Donovan, Daniel, Sarah.

Enjoying their oranges! Sigh, one of the best things of Chinese New Year in Lok Yuk, free food lol but I'm not sure bout other schools lah.

Well, Sports Day in my school came and went. It was actually quite nice to hang out with friends without the thought of homework at the back of my mind.

And I think my openness with boys should go down a notch or two. Its getting out of control....






A cat gave decided to make her nest at my backyard. FML man! I really hate the responsibility of taking care of 6 more cats and almost all he kittens have some sort of eye disease! I'd take them to the vet but each cat would cost around RM 50 to vaccinate. Would you be so kind as to do that? I'm not.



And Kooks is a father!! Nuuuuuu!!!! Eye disease and non-existent tail ugh. But then the black kitten died in the drain. I think the mother cat disposed the corpse.




This hibiscus tree in my backyard is given to me by my science teacher back in Form 2. We were learning about the organs in flowers and I said to her that I love her plants and she gave me a few branches the next day. I decided that she is the best teacher ever that day.


So pretty!

Kooks looking over his land with the aura of power surrounding him.

Kooks is healthy and active and happy again!!! Wahhh my baby is really getting bigger! But it seems like his love for me is directly proportional to his hunger.

I went back to kampung yesterday and look what I found : Mini Kittehs!!! Blacky the Catteh has finally given birth to four little kittehs! And they're all black fur ones. What is this sorcery???! It seems like just yesterday that Blacky and Becky (the daughter) came her to kampung from KK.

And all the kittens are healthy and active unlike the ones that nests behind my house.

And my family is planning to adopt one or two of these puppies from kampung. And yes, I sound like that when I'm happy. I used this app that picks out the scenes for you and all you have to do is pick out a song and theme. I chose the cute theme and I am in love with this song!

Normally the fur is like short and stubby, kinda like eyebrows lol but their fur is long and so bunny like! In the original video I went crazy over them but my voice is too annoying so just see the edited version la.

Chinese New Year holidays has started and that means a whole week of not having to wake up early or go home late!!!

For others, it would be much more eventful than mine because they would be wearing all new clothes, going to relatives' houses, receiving ang paos and eating all the chinese food. For me, it would just be sleeping, watching running man and reading this new manga, Goong.

For Valentine's Day, I am forming a one sided relationship with this manga. HAPPIEST RELATIONSHIP EVER!!!

This manga brings out feelings I didn't know I had lol.


Look at the picture! This scene alone makes me choke in happiness and sadness at the same time!

It makes me go NUUUUUUU!!!!! WHYYYYY!!!! OH SH**! GASP! AWWW! WTH HAHHAHAHA! CHOKEINHAPPINESS....

Sometimes all these at the same time.

Ok blogging about Goong makes me want to continue reading it.

Happy Birthday!!!!!! :DDDDDD

Thought I forgot didn't you?

We met in the year 2006 when we were both 10 years old. She says when she first saw me she hated me T__T and when I saw her, I didn't care who she was.

But then, everything changed the year after that! I think it was because we both joined a dancing thing then her friends turned their back on her and we both kinda just hung out after that.

Here is us playing dress up last year in my room!

That's not my bra, that's just the dress tag. I wore my dress wrongly.

My favorite memory of us was in Form 2 when she invited me to her school's prom. I wore the exact same dress as in the picture. We talked for hours and hours and hours about everything and anything!

If I could describe her in one word, it would be... KIND. She is seriously kind. She brought me shopping last year! She knows me so well... Maybe I should bring her shopping this time too?

Anyway, I'm gonna take this best friends quiz and she'll tell me how much I score. At least, I hope she reads this.

1. Who is their current celebrity crush?

-Robert Pattinson.

2. What is their favorite sport?

-Handball (Bola Jaring)??

3. What is their favorite TV show?

-How I Met Your Mother? Aw man, I don't know this one.

4. Name all the people in their direct family (mom/dad/sister/brother etc.)

-Aw man.. Sherly, Darlene and one more little girl?

5. What is their favorite school subject?

-English.

6. What teacher can't they stand?

-Her physics or chemistry. The one who said don't use blue pen.

7. Name ten objects in their room

-Novels, a bed, a table, magazines, wall sticker, cupboard, curtains, radio (?), shoes, school books.

8. What are they allergic to?

-Prawns!!!! Or shellfish.

9. Who are they currently dating?

-Nate.

10. Who do they have a major crush on?

-Nate?

11. Who is their worst enemy?

-Mean girls in school.

12. What is their favorite ice cream flavor?

Chocolate and mint?

13. What do they do when they're angry?

Sulk lol.

14. What is their favorite song at the moment?

Let Me Sign... I think?

15. Who is their role model?

-I have no idea I'm sorry!!!

16. What are they scared of?

Failing in big exams.

17. What is their favorite pizza topping?

Hawaiin Chicken.

18. When is their birthday?

7th February 2013.

19. What religion are they?

-Muslim

20. What is their favorite animal?

- Cat.

21. What is their favorite food?

-Lasagna. At least thats what she ordered last time.

22. Where have they been on vacation to?

-Singapore! Philippines!

23. What is their dream car?

-Something sleek la.

25. What is their favorite season?

-Autumn

26. Which country would they most like to visit?

-Paris.

27. What is their favorite item of clothing?

-She wanted this leather jacket from Cotton On.

28. What piercings do they have?

-Ear piercings.

29. What was the last thing they got grounded for?

-For nothing. Or maybe spending too much money ka that?

30. What is their most embarrassing moment?

 -When she fell down in my school bazaar last year lol. Honestly I'm not sure.

I just realised what a bad friend I am....

Anyway....

Dear Tiara,

You are an amazing friend! And I'm sorry if lately I have been distant and whatever, its just mood swings. Hormones... *hand gesture

OMG You're 17 now!!!! Its been 7 years already can you believe that!

It seems like just yesterday that we were jumping across that huge drain and walking back and forth to tuition. And talking at that swing in front of tuition. And remember that haunted house??? Scared me everytime we passed it. And remember that dead cat on the way to tuition and we saw it rot the whole year? Lololol.

I hope that you get an awesome 17th birthday ya! Blog about it!

In 3 years, we'll be 20 and probably in University.

In 13 years, we'll be at the peak of our career and probably with kids.

In 24 years, we'll be 40 and complaining about mid-life crisis lol.

But I hope that we'll still be friends forever! And if we ever drift apart (knock wood), I hope we'll meet each other again and go to your place at Paris and drink tea while basking in bikinis under the sun.

And come lets hang out sometime in CNY? I'm going to kampung for a while though.

Love,

Crystal



Annoying Store People

Today I went out to the shops near my school with some of my friends and things just infuriated me so much!!!

Almost every store we went to acted like we were criminals out to steal their items! Sometimes I want to throw money to their faces just to say 'I got money!! I don't need to steal!!'

Like in Guardian, this dude said to us, "Are you done cooling yourselves?" Well that would have hurt if the sole reason we were there was to leech on the aircon. But I wanted to buy a new moisturiser bha.

And then when I was paying for it, the dude asked me to help him pay for it. He was probably joking but it was still awkward and uncomfortable for me. Especially just after he just said something mean.

Him : Pay mine as well?
Me : Um.... Ok?

* Cashier hands me my change and receipt.

Him : Have you paid these? *pushes his 'pills' towards me
Me : Um... No? *run away

And this happened in the supermarket as well! We took a picture together when this worker asked if we took a picture in this mean harsh tone. So we said yes la cause we did. And then nothing happened. So was the point of using the tone if we didn't do anything wrong????

Never going there AGAIN! Or going to that Guardian!

I'm going to Watsons only. Their service is always nice and polite.

When I open my own boutique all my salesgirls will be polite and helpful. If not then I myself will take care of the boutique.

Oh ya, haven't you heard? I want to become a businesswoman now.

I Have Nothing Amazing To Contribute

They say that if you are torn in choices, just flip a coin and the one face that you hope will turn up will be the answer. So I fllipped a coin and I hoped that I will be taking EST.

Then the coin turned up on the EST side so I'm happy!! :D

And you know what, EST is pretty fun.

Today we talked about cloning in humans and whether or not we agree with it. Personally I don't because we are meant to be this way so why fight against what is natural right?

Its like a toy. Its meant to work a certain way but if you push it too hard beyond its capabilities, it'll get broken.

Still I still had fun talking about it with our small group of 8 people.

That's right. Eight! Including teacher. And next week it'll probably be six or five.

Today we talked about all these people having cloning done to live or to get babies or to replicate an organ.

And there was this one case teacher told us about when this little girl got her head blown off by a shotgun and she lived literally with half a brain. Cool or not???

And we talked about how girls need to keep warm and guys need to keep cool because if we don't then somehow there will be something wrong with our reproductive system. Girls, notice that when you drink cold water during your period you get cramps? Right right or not?

And I have never had a sore throat from eating hot food and surprisingly a guy in class said he did!! I didnt know that was possible.

I love these things!

There's this boy in class, Voon and he's so kind, smart, good looking and open. I don't know why but I admire these kinds of guys.

And he's athletic! Perfect.

Lol why am I like this.

Anyway I'm glad he's a friend now cause I kinda feel lonely in EST and there's only three people I talk with comfortably. Garrett, Chong and Voon. All guys. Nuuuuu!!! I want some girl friends!

Haih its okay la. They're a pretty cool trio though a little shy. Except Chong. Chong has no shame lol.

And you can ask them anything about boy stuff. And Voon said something amazing that I went wow for just now!

I can't tell you what (I'm sorry) but it just made his naive and innocent demeanor that much more attractive. Clue : He said something very good boy. And its probably a private thing so I shouldn't blog about it. Aahhh I'll stop now.

Gasp could this be yet another crush??? No no no. Its just admiration.

You know, I find that nowadays, I tend to be wayyyy more honest than I was in Form 1. In Form 1, whenever something or someone impresses me, I would keep quiet because later that someone will think differently. Like if its a guy, he would think I like him or something ridiculous like that.

But I tend to just tell people what I think now. Of course it has to be a positive comment la. I'm sure if I pass too many negative comments someone will punch me someday.

Maybe its cause people are more matured now too I guess.

Plus, everyone likes being told that they're doing a great job right! I mean, I love gettin reassurance from people that I'm doing something right. And daddy said treat people the way you want to e treated.

So that will be my first February resolution.

VALUE PEOPLE.

Oh ya, and today I talked to someone who I don't really like in class. And when I talked to her without any prejudice, it was actually nice. She says some pretty wise stuff and although I still have some uneasy feelings about her, its still not nice to dislike someone without reason right?

But how do you control dislike? I would love to love hot weather if I could but I just don't. I hate it to the core of my heart. Even in class, I would go to the last seat at the back just to get some fan and wind. Even in Bio I would sit at the same sit under the fan although its more practical to choose a seat nearer to teacher. Its just so stressful being hot (lolololol).

I can't control my dislike!!!

Lol, but I think I'm getting over my dislike for this person. I don't know.

Well I've done my bit on the internet which is talking about crap again. But someone out there might find this crap genius right?

Right???

To Take Or Not To Take

I only spent 2 hours sleeping last night and I don't feel sleepy during school at all! What is this sorcery?!

Today at school Sarah told me that narrator guy has a girlfriend and I feel so broken hearted right now... Its ridiculous! I've only seen him once and already I'm like this.

But but but all the Disney movies said....

Nevermind.

Did you guys know about my love hate relationship with EST (English For Science and Technology)?

Well I've been wanting to drop the subject because its so useless and such a waste of time but my mother won't let me. She says its a free Aa right there.

Its my choice right!!!

EST is a really tricky subject because the smallest mistake will drop you down to an E from an A. True story.

Forgot a word in that important point of yours? Too bad, FAILED! My parents can't seem to understand that!

And I had to write about Genetically Modified Food in class which I actually got an A for but what if I hadn't known a thing about it??? If I had no ability to spout some bullshit out at that time how?

Today we wrote about seed propagation and cloning/tissue culture which I have absolutely no idea about and that was SPM question on 2006! Thank God Chong was there to save the day lol.

And I have nobody there that I am close to. There is only about 9 people in the class and I don't really talk to any of them. I mean none who I would tell my secrets or my problems to. I just sit there pretending to read a book or pretend to sleep.

If not, I'll feel stupid.

Seth abandoned me. BJ abandoned me. Hafiz abandoned me. Only Kooks loves me now!

I seriously wanted to drop it so badly...

But then today, my mom finally let me drop the subject!! I begged and begged and begged and finally she snapped and said do whatever you please!

Once that weight is lifted off my shoulders its easier to think for myself now. When she said that I was taken aback and felt so light and airy.

I was getting ready to write the letter when I thought that its actually not as bad as I made it out to be. It was just me being rebellious yet again.

I actually want to stay in EST! I can make new friends. I can ace the subject. I can totally have fun.

I realised that if I just stole looking at the negative part of things, there is actually something beautiful in it.

Lol why so emo la me.

So I guess I'm taking this subject and honestly I'm quite scared. I'm sure its gonna be hard but somehow things will be ok.

I hope.

Oh yeah, and today I beat Garrett in arm wrestling. I hope he didn't just lose on purpose...



Look at Kooks disturbing me while I'm trying to do chemistry work!

Benny And The Emerald Forest

Hi!!! I've reached a milestone in my life though not a big one la.

I've watched my FIRST EVER MUSICAL!!!!

Its called Benny and the Emerald Forest!

How did I get to know this? Sarah blogged about it a few months ago here and I so wanted to watch it the first time but it was christmas season and I was back at kampung... But no matter because they performed it again last night and tonight too!

I arrived there around 6.30pm and my dad and I loitered around for a while outside. If you're trying to picture this, I was in pink jeans and striped top and I wore glasses. I always feel ugly with glasses. Its like medicine, I hate it but I need it in my life to live.

Ok, so, I arrived and waited for Tiara to come. But while waiting, Nate came along! He told my dad that his parents knew my dad, but my dad did not recognize them. Only in the car after the musical that my dad's mind clicked and he rememered them. Okay nevermind, I'm digressing.

This is the feel of the whole thing.

I'm sorry for all the crappy photos!! I know I'm a bad photographer.

I feel pissed at first actually because the musical started at 7.45pm!!!! This is all because the guests of honours (is that how you spell it?) from all around Asia came late. Or maybe some of them. I actually read a whole chapter from Dancing At Midnight and then played a few games to distract me from my rage (I HATE WAITING). Unfortunately, losing games infuriates me more so that didn't work.



Then when they finally came and sat down, this woman just had to make a speech and by this point, my morale was just so damn low that all I wanted was 9gag and some iced lemon tea to comfort me. And then they played a video which again unfortunately had some glitches so in the end, there was no video lol.

So the musical started an HOUR LATE. How can??? Me and my dad's morale was so low, especially mine la sorry. I have really low tolerance for lateness (though I also sometimes am late, which in that case I am SUPER DUPER SORRY) and when the musical was about to start I really had to kick myself in the ass to wipe away my anger and just enjoy the musical.

YET, WHEN THE NARRATOR CAME OUT AND DID HIS THING, IT WAS SOOOOOOO AMAZING!!!!!!!

That was all the ass kicking I needed.

The intro was just *speechless*. No words for it. The narrator was so... so... *speechless*.

He's my favorite cast heheehe.

The cast was amazing given that they only had 10 DAYS to rehearse and everything and I am just so amazed! Imagine what could happen if they were given a few months.

Actually, when they were singing, I would've thought that it was recorded and then played but it wasn't! So, I was just sitting in my seat with my mouth hung open and just thinking.... WOW.

However, I would love to kick the crew in the face because people the audience could hear the people talking backstage. I don't know how that could happen or maybe it was intentional but ngeh, its easy to forget that it didn't happen.

The cast was already so great then the crew should have put more effort into it too!

Oh well, it was still amazing!

And here's the cast! Tiara and I rushed down when it was over and with all the huru hara, this is the best photo I could get. T___T Look at the little boy in the suspenders, thats the star!! CUTE OR NOT!! And see the fairy with the tall hat and wand, "she's the best singer"(my dad's quote). And then see the lady in red, thats the evil witch who freaked me out so job well done!

Aiya, I'm such a bad photographer...

Thanks narrator guy for the kick in the ass. I am telling you, he is soooo soooo soooooooooo amazing!! The voice OMG THE VOICE was so narrator like. And see see see! He's got so much coolness when I asked for a photo, he posed like that!  You just have to watch him someday. I wanna know his name because he's the kind of guy that could make it big someday and I wanna say to people I've seen him before it was cool lol.

I wish I asked him to act out a few lines and record that but that'd just be creepy. And I am obviously not a creep. At least not in real life. *shifty eyes

It'd be cool if he narrated my dreams.

All my pics are blurry dunno why. And I look weird...

I seriously super duper love Sarah's Popular!!!! Sarah is Miss Priscilla and she really potrays the good witch (or fairy) really well!

I feel like Miss Priscilla is the type of friend you would tell your secrets or problems to and she will comfort you.

And Miss Priscilla got lots of fans! O.O Actually its not surprising lol. I wanted to say bye but lots of people were begging to take pics.

And as we were going out, my dad said she was the best singer. Talent scouts are you reading this??!! And I can say that I knew the Fairy Godmother before it was cool also lol.

I demand that you watch this so you can know exactly what I'm talking about. Skip to 0.10.

My two favorite fairies! They should've gotten bigger roles eh!! What is this!? Maybe the evil daughters of Miss Elvina (the evil witch).

But they were so cute! Too cute to be evil la. Theres another pink fairy and I love all three of them! They looked really graceful and I'm not joking when I say the Three Pink Fairies (thats what I call them in my head) were mesmerizing. I stared only at them in their dancing scene.

Not creepy at all...
The girl on the right is Jia Tian (or just Tian Tian) and on the left is Nuhaa.

TALENTED or not!!? :D She's only 10 I think in this vid. I think la. I'm spouting BS (BullShit) And she's really graceful on stage as you can tell. I've never seen her sing a solo live though so I hope I'd at least get to see her once in school.

Tian Tian is a ballroom dancer also from school. Last year, she was in Choral Speaking and since she's 14 now, she has 4 more years of guiding the team.

I feel so proud1!! I feel like a Jie Jie (older sis) to these two girls and really want the best for them!

I feel so happy to watch them all! There's a fluttery feeling in the pit of my stomach

I used to be in a musical when I was in Primary 1 in Seri Insan. I was a munchkin in the Wizard Of Oz and all I had to do was act cute and short.

I can't wait for the next musical!