Happy New Year!

Its the last day of 2013!!! I feel like 2013 dragged by soooooooo slowly, BUT! I had so much fun this year! It was full of stress and worries (SPM) and disappointments (failed subjects*cringe*) and happiness (friends and family ^^) and stupidity (myself lol).

Aw man, I'll really miss school though. Before this, it was always a burden going to school but when I think about it, there were only a few days when I'd be burdened to go to school. Sure la, there were times when I'd be lazy and skipped school because I was lazy but never because I hated school.

It has also been a year since I met the darling of my life.

Mrrroooow. This is him in a good mood. His current name is Sehun (his name is always changing).

And I cut my 4 year old hair again and I totally regret it! It was beautifully long and luscious....

But on one fateful exam week, it just became too stressful for me and I felt like my hair was made of snakes and got in my way too much. So off it went!

I cut it to shoulder lenght at that time and now its a bit longer. Sigh, I will never cut it short again!

<-- That picture was taken exactly 365 days ago. Sigh. Short legs....

My empty class on the absolutely last day of school, when only us EST students were there. I felt so blessed to be in this school! When we had a 3 hour break after the first paper of EST, I walked around and sorta, 'absorbed' everything.

A pic of me with one of my best friends. This is on her (and many others) last day. You don't see it in the picture but my dark circles and pimples are smashing! How does Frieda maintain her skin?!

I think a lot has changed in one year. One obvious thing is my motivation. Last year, I failed 5 SUBJECTS and got no A's and only like, 1 or to B's out of 10 subjects. I couldn't even get an A for english or EST which is ridiculous. Then I didn't even care lol.

But this year, I passed everything except Add Maths (DARN IT!) and even got a few A's! Ok ok, its not very spectacular but progress is what matters! And I've made progress yay!

I've also become more sparing with my money spending, I think. Last year, it was shopping trip almost every weekend. But this year, if I counted my new clothes and makeup, it would be less. I think hehe. This is the kind of thing that I can be very delusional about.

And not to forget! I've also fallen for EXO this year!!! EXO has completely won over my heart and they're on my mind every day for the past three months.

T.T

So pretty!

They're so fashionable, which makes me wanna be fashionable as well!

Oh which reminds me! I've started wearing more dresses. It's a top and bottom at one purchase so my money is well spent lol. *cheapskate Its legit right?

Now, these are my new years resolution. I'll limit them to 5.

1. Continue learning Korean, eventhough its snail paced. It doesn't matter if I'm crawling or running, as long as I keep moving.

2. Get a job!

3. Take better care of my skin!!!! I'm still struggling but between this and and last year, its definitly getting much better.

4. Not be so cheapskate and to put quality over quantity.

5. To be selfless, brave, smart and peace-loving. I'm always finding myself hesitating when it comes to helping others because of stupid reasons like, what if they push away my help and what if I say the wrong thing?

Day #003

What are two habits that you have?

I use sarcasm a lot. I guess some people might be insulted but its not you, its me. My favorite sarcasm phrase is "Geeeeeeeeee, reaaalllllyyyyyy?". And I also have this useless habit of looking at downloads or installation bars as they are moving. Like the youtube buffering bars. I look at that every 3 seconds.

EXO RUMOURS AND I'M A LOSER

I read some rumours about EXO and my love for them declined dramatically.

Then I realised pshfft, whatever, even if it's true, I'll just fall in love with their on screen personalities. But it's so hard to believe that what I'm watching on TV isn't the real them! The on screen them is so funny and close and kind. And the off screen them could be cruel and mean.

Haihhhh someone slap me cause I feel so loserish right now. No cool person would be sad because their favorite celebrities are accused. Or maybe I haven't seen the sun for so long I'm going insane. Or maybe my life is just so boring that my girl hormones are craving drama?

I'll just continue believing that EXO members are perfect haha. *deluded

Here's what the rumours said. It's not so horrible la, haha I kinda laughed at some things but to be honest I was so disheartened when I read this. EXO WHY AM I SO OBSESSED WITH YOU TO THE POINT OF LOSERISM?! The kpop world might be full of deceptions and I'm ok with that.

Yes it's true EXO-M is much closer in relationship than EXO-K. Absolutely true that the Chinese member stick together, because of being bullied and such by other trainees and SM staff.

First, I will go through each member and think of something I can share. There is a lot. Quickly, I will say that none of them are dating now, that is something I do know even now, even though some members may be interested in someone or something like that.

Suho – It's not so true that he's an asshole/douchebag, but he does not have any close friends in EXO. Before in trainee life he trained for quite a while so he considered himself above the others. That is why he also gained leader status, because of past experience. But the other members do not respect his experience that much, because he is not really admirable. He did not debut for a while because he was not ready by the company's judgement, so they see him as more of a failure than experienced. The relationship between Kris is mutual respect, not friendship, and only since EXO was formed. As for dating, he has dated within SM a lot. Many of his girlfriends have since left SM or their career didn't work out for them. He had plastic surgery.

Kai – It's not true anymore that no one in EXO gets along with Kai, but around the time of this year until debut, maybe. It's because Kai got too much attention and the other members felt like they were in the shadow. Also Kai used his friendship with Taemin for status. Taemin/Kai is not just PR friendship as they really are friends since before but since EXO debuted they have not been in contact mostly at all. For most of the other trainees there is a big wall between trainee and debuted idol so many of them were jealous of his ability to do that. Since debut Kai's popularity has gone down so it has humbled him to the other members, truthfully. Many people said Kai has a girlfriend after debut, but he does not. He had a noona girlfriend before debut, but he has had a lot of girlfriends anyway. At his age it's not serious.

D.O – His relationship to the other members is more professional, not friends. He is friendly to staff and such, but he is a private person. Truthfully, he does not get along with everyone. The furthest distance is Chanyeol/Baekhyun, I have seen him be annoyed by them quickly many times. He thought he would be chosen for EXO-M and was surprised when Chen was chosen instead. When he thought that he would be chosen for EXO-M his attitude was good and he was prepared to have a life overseas. His dating life is very private, he keeps it to himself and does not let everyone know what is going on. He has a private circle of neighborhood friends and he still puts them above everything.

Chanyeol – I want to say to his fans to believe what you want. For me, I don't like him. He makes life very difficult for all staff because he does not behave well. In life, he thinks everything is a joke. He's very immature. And he is two-faced! There is one member who he really admires, of course, it's Kris. When he's around Kris he acts so different, like a good child. (Actually, many of the EXO members admire Kris). When Kris is not around he becomes the bad child again. I can't say how I know, but he is racist AND homophobic as well. He really thinks homophobic jokes are funny. As for dating, he did date a trainee everyone knows about, but he cheated on her before. His type is the voluptuous club girl with sexy clothes. He had a lot of plastic surgery.

Baekhyun – He is also not nice. He's so two-faced, who you see on TV is not the real Baekhyun. He gets along with Chanyeol so well because they are the same type, so immature and think everything is a joke. Baekhyun is the coldest to the Chinese trainees, even more than Chanyeol. He is not really close to Tao like they say. He felt sorry for Xiu Min and Chen when they were chosen for EXO-M and to leave Korea, but happy that it wasn't him. He really looks at Chinese as lesser than Korean. As for dating, he says he likes the cute type but it's not true, he likes sexy, well-endowed in the right place type of girls. Between Baekhyun/Chanyeol is a wall between the other members. No one will challenge them because they really gained a lot of popularity since debut and so they help promote EXO. On screen, their personalities are the strongest, but off screen it becomes annoying.

Sehun – I know, everyone is thinking of Lu Han, but it is not true that Sehun is in romantic love with Lu Han. During trainee days, Sehun did not have many friends. Lu Han was the first true friend he made in the company, and Sehun becomes clingy to friends easily. Behind the scenes, he is not easy to get along with. Not because he is mean. He doesn't read the atmosphere very well and he is the most difficult case to make camera-ready because his answers are so short and he is always disinterested. The company noticed Sehun and Lu Han's friendship and used that to film the joint teaser. This is the type of thing the company will watch for, which quality they can emphasize to gain public interest. Since debut, Sehun and Lu Han do not talk as much and Lu Han already made different friends in EXO-M, but Sehun is not very outgoing so he is still a little bit alone, even though he is not disliked. As for dating, he has not had a serious relationship beyond girls in school. I do not think he ever dated within SM.

Kris – Kris is a private person. When he first joined SM as a trainee, he was very motivated and wanted to learn everything, like a child. But he was told before directly by staff that he wasn't good at anything, even up to this year. He thought he wouldn't debut at one point, but he was too scared to quit the company because of the debt he incurred as a trainee would be hard on his family to pay back. I think for him, middle of 2009 is the lowest point in his life. In the past, he had depression and low self-esteem. Even though now he is a celebrity, he has not forgotten that time. He did not start out that way but until the time of EXO's debut, he became a very wise, empathetic person. Sorry if you want to hear bad things about him but he did not do anything bad. Most of his bad points are within himself. This is why the other members really look up to him like an ideal type of guy they want to become. It's not true that he thought he would join EXO-K, actually I do not think he ever considered not being chosen for EXO-M. When EXO is 12, he is the leader. As for dating, yes he had a girlfriend, but sorry I can't tell more. The girl idols who were cold to him when he was a trainee, you can see which ones they are by the way he looks at them now. 

Lay – Lay was a trainee for a long time but he was treated more highly than Kris because of his dance skill, but not equal to the Korean trainees still because he is Chinese and that is considered lower by the other trainees and staff. Lay and Kris are only somewhat close even after knowing each other 4 years, but Lay had the advantage as a trainee whereas Kris was a low trainee and they did not really become very close. Lay became closer to other trainees. When he danced for SHINee, he looked at them as a fan who got to go on stage with their idol, not like a professional from the same company. Lay became closer to Lu Han because Lu Han was also a more advanced trainee than the low trainees (but still under Koreans). Lay is very tied to Chinese culture, but at one point he did want to debut in Korea instead, because Kpop is so popular and the entertainment scene in China is very structured and more humble. As for dating, he dated a Chinese girl for a long time and maintained a long distance relationship. He never dated a Korean girl, or if he did it was not significant.

Lu Han – There are many things I want to fix besides Sehun. He was not a JYP trainee, also he did not join SM in 2008. He came to Korea to become a trainee, yes, but he was stopped by his parents. His parents do oppose him being a celebrity but he will always save face for them and he would never admit it. He is not a bad person, but he did lie to his parents about why he wanted to come to Korea. That's why they called him back home. He returned to Korea in 2010 and that's when he became a trainee. He went through regular auditions like anyone else. I know there is some "evidence" to show he was a trainee since 2008 but it's not true that he was waiting because of SM. SM does not extend enough to make someone wait 2 years to be a trainee. If you are not available at the time then you aren't a trainee. He does make friends easily, but he is always especially nice to the person who has the most trouble fitting in, like Sehun in Korea or Xiu Min in China. He can't stand to see someone left out or ostracized. He is also close to Lay, but not in the same way. They are truly just like bros. Lu Han really admires Kris, even though he does not show it on screen. As for dating, you couldn't believe it with his face but he is always being dumped. He says he likes quiet and calm girls, but from what I have seen, it's actually the opposite. He will be attracted to girls others would consider challenging. It is true that he almost had plastic surgery on his nose.Oh, I want to say one thing about the scars on his face. It's from a fight. He is not violent himself but he does end up as the victim of fights, because he is small and an easy target. The fight was very cold, because the other guy purposefully wanted to mess up his face. And it's not true he wasn't bullied as a trainee. In fact, other trainees did harass him sometimes. He blames lots of things on himself, which is sad.

Tao – It is true that many of the trainees didn't like Tao. Tao is confident in himself, but he is also so warm and nice that it was sad to watch. Before EXO, out of all the trainees Kris and Tao were considered the lowest. Lu Han and Lay were above them, and then the Koreans above Lu Han and Lay. So, they are especially close, although after debut now that they are all equals their relationships are changing a little. Also, it is not true that Tao smokes or drinks, it's the opposite. He treats his body very well because of his martial arts practice. When he first became a trainee, he would always buy Starbucks, because in China to drink Starbucks is a luxury, but now that has worn off. Tao comes from a commoner family so he was the most dazzled by celebrity life.I forgot to say that part: Tao comes from a commoner family (middle lower class by Chinese standards which would be low class by American standards), Kris comes from a family that was poor in the past, and Lu Han comes from a wealthy family. Kris and Tao send any money they get back home. Lu Han does not. He does not talk about his family life much so I don't know why.

Xiu Min – I feel like he is okay now, but in the past he was very depressed about being chosen for EXO-M. Among the Korean trainees, he started out high but dropped to very low. Many people thought he wouldn't be a good type for an idol. He was chosen for EXO because he began to work really hard and show he would not quit. Everyone is very sensitive towards him because of his anxieties. Oh, and it's not because he doesn't like China, actually he was one of the closest Korean trainees to the Chinese trainees and did not think of them as lower. Because the team comforted him he feels better now, but he still wishes he was not viewed as lower than the Chinese members by the media. As for dating, I think he has the least experience out of all the EXO members.

Chen – Chen also did not feel happy at first with being chosen for EXO-M, but it was his only choice to debut as an idol, or else leave SM. Chen was not as close to the Chinese trainees before debut so he is more distant from them than Xiu Min. Chen really admires Kris a lot, and so they became a little closer, but Kris still remembers the time when he was a low trainee and the Korean trainees didn't look at him seriously, so it's a little difficult. Chen did not bully them, though. He joined late so he didn't have a history, it's just that he became with the Korean trainees quickly. When he was chosen for EXO-M, the Korean trainees didn't talk to him as much. The debut period was the hardest on him, and he covered up a lot. He's much more comfortable now. As for dating, he had a long-term girlfriend who he broke up with when he became confirmed for EXO. He had her picture set on his KaKao ID up until debut. I don't think there are any remaining feelings now.

All of them got skin treatments before debut. Kris and Lu Han had their teeth fixed. Chanyeol and Suho had plastic surgery. The company asked Lay to have plastic surgery but he really felt strongly against it. In EXO-K, all of the members come from lower to upper middle class families. The wealthiest member of EXO-M is Lu Han of course. He will always treat the others though and he doesn't like to talk about money. And he doesn't have much interest in designer clothes and things besides accessories. Actually before debut, Lu Han was a fashion black hole. Tao is interested in designer things, not just Gucci but he likes luxury brands. EXO cannot yet afford these things so he will have to wait a little while longer. Chanyeol is also interested in designer things, but more like street or hip hop fashion. He buys many of his own clothes that you can see him wearing even in MVs.The group is not "OT12" and they are pretty comfortable in their own teams. The Chinese members do check the internet for comments about them, but the Korean members don't. Besides Taemin and Kai, none of the EXO members were really close to any debuted idols. Kris became close to Amber because of SMTOWN. They are not particularly close to Zhou Mi and Henry either, there is some tension there.There's more in my head if anyone has another question but this is just a summary. If I said I can't share something then I can't share it, sorry. I won't expose myself."

On another related note, The Heirs has finally ended T___T *sobs What should I do with my life now?? Continue drawing circles in the corner I guess haha.

I wanna get a job sooooo badly but I'm a coward. And also my mom keeps promising to send me to places to hunt for jobs (cough like today cough) but she keeps on breaking those promises haih mommy why u no support daughter's dreams.

And I'm so sick of staying at home only so sick so sick so sick!!!!! I was planning to go to Tiara's prom but it didn't work out and at that time, my head wasn't throbbing like it was going to explode. But now I feel like I wanna punch someone and tear my hair off my scalp.

Daebak this is the power of boredom,

Tomorrow I planned to go to my class party and for a few days before, that was what kept me sane. The thought that I could dress up and make up and go hang out with someone. Then the date changed. Before this the date was changed from 14th to 20th to next year to 15th to 16th and I thought that finally we agreed on 15th. But then people voted on another different date and I thought, ugh, screw it, I'm not going to something with people I'm not close to and pay RM35 for it.

Screw it screw it screw it. You can tell that I'm a 'little' bit upset lol.

Ah well. My mood was good at the beginning of this post then decreased dramatically. See, this is what I said about my hormones craving drama. I'm making a drama all by myself now.

Hahaha, annyeong!

Day #002

A question a day. Day #002.

Who is the most mysterious person in your life right now?

Hmm, if I'm gonna be honest in this question, my answer would be very silly and shallow and weird.

The most mysterious person in my life right now is a namja at school and I liked to be friends with him.Then he got a girlfriend and totally ignored me for the rest of the school year!

He's mysterious. I couldn't quite figure him out. Is he awkward with me? Does he hate me? Did I do something wrong?

Cause he was very very friendly and nice but then suddenly, he wouldn't even talk to me.

Yeap. Kinda psycho and clingy of me.

Actually, I don't think about other people or care about others much so no one is very mysterious to me.

Day #001

A question a day. Day #001.

What's your favorite drink?

Iced lemon tea. I think anyone who's had a meal out with me would know this haha. I'd either order iced lemon tea or just plain water (or as the fancy restaurants would call it, Diamond Water). I love lemons and I love tea and I love ice lol. So iced lemon tea is the perfect drink for me on any day, any time. :D

I want some now...

Korean Obsession

It has been a month of post-school-days and I'm so culture shocked by this freedom haha. First freedom-ish thing I did was to dye my hair a yellow brown colour. To be honest, its a bit too yellow for my taste so I'm gonna darken it a bit soon.

No pics though haha, I don't take pictures of myself often.

And with my sudden abundance of free time, I started to learn Korean. So far, I've finished learning how to read it and learning random words. My pronunciation still sucks though.

눈 (nun) eyes

보조개 (bo jo gae) dimples

Just simple words but I feel so proud hoho. Korea here I come! But have to get degree, job and money first. T__T And also, I've got a long way to go in learning a new language.

Recently I've been thinking about how awesome university life is gonna be. I've talked to my cousin about it and she said that its not really all that but she talked about carnivals and projects and outings how is that not all that?! I'm so starstruck with the idea of university/leaving home. :D So I'm really excited for SPM results to come out. COME FASTER!빨리!!!!

Ugh, I am so addicted to korean culture. Its just so fascinating!!! The kpop idols are the most fascinating hehe cause they're so beautiful and perfect. Maybe I should go to Korea for university. Then I'd kill two birds with one stone, go to Uni and go to Korea.... meet a Korean man and get married and have korean children haha. Then me and Korea would be connected by blood! *psycho

In fact, I'm so obsessed with Korean culture that I never go out in the sun if I could help it so I could achieve their fair skin look. These past few years, I have turned a bit dark for some reason that I don't know. During the day, I would keep my curtains closed and when night comes, I open it to ventilate my room. I don't notice any difference yet (T_T) but I'm gonna keep trying. Buy whitening products, go to whitening facials and keep out of the sun. And sunscreen. Always suncreen.

I don't know why westerners want dark, tanned, bronzed skin. Its NOT good for your skin and I don't think it looks nice. Well, to each their own.

Except Tao. Tao rocks his dark skin. But Tao isn't korean, he's chinese. He looks so good in that bulletproof vest! <3

Why Is Life So Easy?

Ahh, why is life so easy?

Now that SPM is finished, I am doomed to spend my days in total boredom, just like today. But during my pre-SPM days, there was an abundance of things to do (besides studying). I guess 12 hours of doing nothing really does feel like crap.

This is exactly what my Physics/Chem tutor told me about!! After SPM, I would be craving for something, anything to do. And I just scoffed at his words and thought that internet is my best friend. What could be so bad about having free time?

How wrong was I...

Now, I'm trying to find something useful to do with my time. The current things that I do is watching Korean dramas and variety shows.

OMG SPEAKING OF DRAMAS!! I'm watching one called The Heirs, The One Trying To Wear The Crown, Withstands The Weight. It's about a girl, Cha Eun Sang who is played by Park Shin Hye (ohmahgerd she's so pretty). Eun Sang is poor and she meets a guy, Kim Tan a rich heir played by Lee Min Ho (eeeeep) and they fall in love.

So, of course they can't be together right? Cause Eun Sang is the heir of poverty and Tan is the heir of Jeguk Group.

I am telling you, this drama is so amazing! I'm not exaggerating when I say every episode makes me cry and laugh and feel so many emotions at the same time.

Everyone in this drama is beautiful!

And Lee Min Ho (centre) and Kim Woo Bin (the one in the very left) are natural beauties supposedly. And its believable cause Kim Woo Bin's nose isn't super straight and Lee Min Ho's jawline isn't very sharp.

I recommend this drama to everyone. Trust me.

This drama is already at episode 18 so there's only two episodes for me to enjoy left. Wuahhhhh whyyy!!

Hehehehehehehehehehehehehe...

So yeah, I'm watching The Heirs and Running Man everyday now. Which isn't so bad but The Heirs is finishing in two weeks so I'm gonna need some backup drama's now.

Last night, I went to my Senior Prom yayyyyy. I don't have much to say about it and I didn't bring a camera and my phone sucks at taking pics so all my pictures are in other people's camera. *sad

I can say that the desert was awesome. Chocolate cake was awesome. Pudding was awesome. Soup was awesome. Cream puff was awesome. Jelly was awesome. Drinks were awesome. Stuff I don't remember was awesome. If there was ever a time to let go of my self control, it was then. Eating time should've been longer! *bangs table

2 hours of eating isn't enough for me! 

Right now, I wanna go back and eat again hahhhhh. And suddenly I feel like I wanna karaoke (???) . 

But more than anything, I wanna have something to do.

Miracles Of November

So, November is coming to an end. I got this title from twitter just now. I've been having writer's block again, probably because of EXO.

Speaking of EXO! I saw their first variety show on youtube called Showtime and and and they're so charming! My heart was literally aching from just watching them. Any EXO fans out there? Exothermic's? Hello?

*stares dreamily* 

Tao laughs like a girl.... -.-

Why why why why why must they be so perfect! Everytime I watch them, my self-esteem goes down drastically....

Ok, enough about EXO.

Now, miracles of November. I've not finished my SPM examinations yet - there's one more week to go - but since my last paper is English for Science and Tech, I feel like I've already finished it! It's more of trying to fit everything you know into the given title in 2 hours than actually writing a real report, as long as it makes sense. Just bullshit through it and you'll be fine also.

My reports aren't very professional heh.

It's a miracle of November to be feeling this kind of freedom that I am feeling now. Playing games, reading story books, going out, sleeping, 9gagging (YES)  is all guilt free. Before this, I used to always scold myself for not being very productive, which is actually most of the time.

Miracle of November #2, I am ignored by a guy friend now that he has a girlfriend. Now that I think about it though, I don't think he even liked me (as a friend hey ahem ahem) before, and was just amusing me lol. Yeah... there goes half of my self esteem.

Miracle of November #3, I finished high school! Oh my goodness, has it really been five years. Yeah, there were a lot of fun, embarrassing, cool, sad, happy memories made there. I actually remember my first day there pretty well. Everything looked very very big. Now its small and familiar in the way that you know almost every twist and turn of it. But I still think that the toilet and canteen is sooooo far away from each other.

And that's pretty much it. SPM was fine and not as stressful as I thought it would be. I always dreaded the SPM month cause I never have handled pressure and stress really well. I always try to deal with pressure by assuring myself that everything would be okay. No not assuring, deluding.

My paper 2 of history was a total mess though. And after I finished it, I was very convinced that I would get B. Then I checked my paper 1, which is and A B C paper, and I got 38/40. *pat's self on back

So my confidence shot right back up.

Now, life is pretty boring. I bet all kids are like that huh. Or is it just me that's a loser? *dark

I have to find something to do for five months and the obvious think is to get a job. But what and how? I have never worked a day in my life and suddenly I'm a woman haha. I really don't want to work but at the same time, I really don't want to rot at home.

This is the curse of having an easy life. You work not cause you need the money, but cause you have nothing better to do. My tutor warned me about this last time. After SPM,  wouldn't know what to do. At tht time, I just said no la, there's tons of things to do after SPM. Like being best friends with the internet (we would never part).

But now, the internet isn't looking so hot. Its so boring! This must be Stockholm Syndrome (when the prisoner grows attached to the kidnapper aka Beauty and The Beast). SPM is my kidnapper and now that I'm free, I keep wishing that I kinda wasn't.

EXO EXO WE WANT EXO!

Today I'm gonna spam my blog with EXO. Like A LOT OF EXO.

Sarah loves Lay. I don't know if this guy is Lay actually. I think it is? This was from Running Man episoe 171 when Lay was trying to say 'Jong Kook hyung'

Actually, that episode of Running Man was when I saw (and fell in love with) EXO for the first time. I think its cause they made eye contact with the camera a lot.

(Eye contact makes you fall in love and if you make eye contact for 8 seconds when you meet sometime for the first time, it could lead to love at first sight or hate *fyeah EST student)

BUT OMAIGAWD SEHUN IS SO COOL. Look at the way he sticks his tongue out. He does it so photogenically.

Lay and Tao *faints from gorgeousness

By the way, does anyone else notice that Tao has elf ears? Its pointed at the tip. And his nose is so straight ad his jawline is so defined. If I stand next to him it would look like plastic surgery before and after.

(Revives from looking at Kris) 

And Luhan!!!! He's wearing eyeliner. I like how his teeth is so straight and white. When I earn my own money, its straight to surgery with my teeth. I don't think I can stand waiting for braces to set. That's two, three years! That's one of the things on top of my must-do list, get straight teeth in 5 years.

Oh my goodness, how can these boys be so talented, good looking, charismatic and cute? How can???

One of my classmates looks like Sehun! His name is Li Xuan and when I told him so, he said he loves Sehun. Hahahaha. And when I said I love Sehun and Tao, he said he loves Tao too!!! Unfortunately, Li Xuan is kind of mean and takes jokes too far.

Sehun's ideal type is :

160cm-164cm. Dang it, I missed the minimum requirement by 6 cm! *makes note to drink more milk

Prefers older girls. He's 19 now, and I'm 17. Oppa, don't you like younger girls?

He prefers kind girls. Yeah, well, don't all boys?

He likes Miranda Kerr. Whaaaaat? (I like her too haha.)

Likes pale skin. *goes to bleach skin

WEIGHT IS 99 POUNDS WTF SEHUN YOU'RE DATING BARBIE. Seriously, 160 cm and weighing that little? He must like models. Oh wait.... Miranda Kerr...

HAIYA ALL OF THESE CRITERIAS DON'T APPLY TO ME! Except he likes bubbly girls, and I'm bubbly right right right? And he likes double eyelids and I have double eyelids! And he likes neat girls and I'm neat what!

Hohoho, there's a chance after all. *delusional

And this is for Sarah, who is also a fan of EXO who likes Lay.

1)Kind

2)Respectful

3)Someone who's shorter than he is.

4)Long hair

5)Someone who's cute.

Hmmmm. It's weird cause Sarah has all these characteristics. Sehun-ah whyyyyyy! *moody and dark

But I still love Sehun cause I'm just that faithful.

EXOthermic

I've fallen in love with EXO! Especially Sehun and Tao. Tao being the guy who opens the door in the beginning and Sehun is the blonde guy with a beanie.

They're so cool and when I saw them in Running Man Ep 171, I was like OOOOOOOHHHHHH, pretty boys!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM!!!!! While doing moral and add maths exam the other day, this song was playing in my mind in repeat despite the fact that this is in Korean. Yerrr, I really wanna learn Korean and Chinese now (cause EXO is Korean/Chinese group)

Maybe I'll do Chinese first.

Xiaole yixia hao qiguai. (You smile strangely at me?)

I mean, how do these guys manage to look so cool and glamorous??!! What do they drink, what do they eat?? Is the water in east Asia that magical?

Hahaha, nope not the water, the doctors. Most idols' beauty is man-made. Which makes me feel better about myself cause they had to work to be perfect too. So, there's a chance for me to become as perfect looking as them, provided that I have the money and time and desperation lol.

But alas, as it is, I am pretty happy with the way I look now.

I STILL LOVE EXO TO INFINITY AND BEYOND!!!!

None Of You Understands This Post LOL

I guess its true but I can't help it!

I was worrying that my history answers for my exam was wrong today and guess what, one whole essay was completely out of topic so because of that, 20 marks were gone just like that.

So I just stared at my rotten exam paper and accepted the fact that I'm not gonna get an A for this subject. But I couldn't make myself accept it. So I just hoped that there would be an abundance of idiots taking this SPM, or at last, more idiotic than me so that the curve would be just a bit in my favour.

And then a while later, Tiara, a very good friend of mine texted me the answers to the objective parts of the exam which is basically just shading in alphabets.

Guess what! I got 38/40 answers correct!!!!! While I was taking the exam, I thought, hmmm, too easy? Or maybe my standards have sunk so low these past two years lol. SO YAY!!!! This is the highest marks I've ever gotten for SPM standards.

Hmm, what else. Ok, about the subjective parts, which is the writing and essays.

I opened my paper and was so shocked because I didn't anticipate the question. It asked about two cities in the history of India. My first thought was, 'nobody would know that'. So I did the most stupid thing ever, which was to leave it blank. Only later did I find out that everybody else knew the answer to that.

For the essay part, we had to choose three out of six questions and one of the things that I chose was about the reopening of the city of Makkah.

Now, there are four Muslim themed chapters in the SPM syllabus and they are not my forte. I don't even know why I chose that question!!!! Dammmitttttt!

But yeah, I got the whole concept wrong so my whole essay was filled with silliness and so, I lost 20 marks.

According to my calculation, assuming that I have full marks which is 20% for my Paper 3 tomorrow and I got 29% for my Paper 1, I just need another 23% to get an A.

Which means I need 46/100 in that paper!!!!!

I hope it was enough!!! Please God please!

What am I supposed to do now.... study more would be the wise thing to do.

Its SPM month/season/time now!!!! It has finally come!

I don't know if its because I am a teenager and my hormones are getting the best of me but suddenly I feel like all hope of getting good results are sucked out of me. And I'm not even saying straight A's ok, I mean, 8A's is good enough for me already.

But I read some blog posts by people who got good grades and their marks were all A's and B's ONLY.

http://jovylky.blogspot.com/2012/03/spm-results.html#

http://fatiguechic.blogspot.com/2012/03/spm-result-day.html

http://littlemissmeencollections.blogspot.com/2011/03/my-spm-results.html


And here I was struggling to even achieve a C in almost everything. T___T

I'm damn emo right now, let me just rant this off. Feel free to judge.

I am a stupid girl and the only reason (some) people think I am even mildly smart is JUST because I got slightly smarter than last year. And last year, I failed 5 subjects and didn't even get a B in a single one. But eventhough I am getting better than last year, I am still lacking A LOT and I am still struggling.

But I shouldn't be saying that about myself....

Because SPM hasn't ended yet and there's still a chance for good results!! The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts today.

This is my 1 year dream (?) and I will definitely strive towards it. And eventhough I may not achieve my good grades, I will still be happy because this was my effort after all, and I'm only angry when things happen that is out of my control.

Everyone, please pray for me ok? Cause I am freaking scared right now.

Haha, I just remembered something my sister said the other day. "Crystal!! You must get straight A's!" she said as she pointed her index finger to my nose. "Yeah yeah..." I sighed, rolling my eyes towards the ceiling above. "How much did Daddy invest in your studies this year?" she said with a warning tone.

Then I went to study lol. He had invested so much in my SPM!!!! Like thousands of ringgits. So, I must do well!

And, I'll pray for everyone else too! Especially SPM, STPM and O-Levels dudes. We'll win this battle together.

Afterthought : Actually, I should hope that other spm-ers would do badly so the grade will drop hoho. Such evil thoughts shouldn't even be contemplated!

The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are always so certain of themselves, but wiser people so full of doubts.

My greatest concern is not whether you have failed, but whether you are content with your failure. 

Letter To 13 Year Old Crystal

(If anyone wants me to blur out their faces or put down any photos, feel free to tell me and I'll do it ASAP).)

When I was 13, I always thought to myself, remember this moment when you finish high school. Those moments were always useless and boring ones haha but I remember that once I stared in the clock and imagined what difference life would have in 5 years.

I imagined that by 17, I would be in a relationship. Yes seriously, I was so desperate to have someone I could call mine and he had to be heartbreakingly handsome, smart, doesn't smoke, is strong spiritually, mysterious, sweet, kind, and most of all, makes my heart flutter. *gag

Big shoes to fill huh?

Yeah, so big that until now no guy has ever filled it haha.

And then I imagined that I would be breathtakingly gorgeous and smart and cool and very very mature and sophisticated. Again, big shoes and I have such small feet.

And I also thought that I would move to All Saints and mingle with rich people while drinking champagne (?).

I hated my classes. I hated the people (yeah, I did....) And I hated the overall thought of my school.

Needless to say, I was miserable and I wanted out.

But you know what 13 year old Crystal, when you turn 17, you would have already met some of the most awesome people in the world. You have laughed soooooo much till you choked and formed abs. 

Like this, yeah the guy you called rude, 13 year old Crystal. Unexpected righttttt?! But he's not rude at all!! He makes you laugh like crazy every single time you talk to him, so obviously you talk to him a lot. But at times, he can be mature when he needs to, which makes him kinda cool hoho. He's super nice! He'll be the guy who talks to you when you're all by yourself.

You would have cried, and there are friends who gather around you and say what you need to hear.

In form 5, you'll experience your worst nightmare 13 year old Crystal, you went down to third class! But no worries, the 16 year old you doesn't care and the 17 year old you loved it! It was a blast to study there, trust me.

 Again with this guy haha. Also, you'll be talking to the coolest trio ever. Zul, Hafiz and Adzman. They are seriously the best trio ever!!!

 There's this girl called Frieda. In form 3, she'll come up to your seat in the 3rd row by the window and she'll randomly tell you about her new boyfriend. Then your friendship bloomed from there. *shiny eyes And you should watch out for the day when she'll say she has a blog cause that'll be one of your favorite hobbies.

Also, there's a guy named Calvin from the chinese class who will be your classmate in form 2. He'll sit right behind you in form 2 and in form 5, he'll be one of the kindest people whom you can speak to

Jessica has been in your life since 2005. She'll change a 270 degree turn trust me. In a good way of course. You love her to death now and don't stop.

And this is Brian John, another guy from a chinese class. You'll be in the same class with him from form 2 till form 5, yeap. No matter how derpy he looks, don't underestimate him.

He is one of the guys in school that you trust. And you love talking to him cause you guys share the same kind of sick humour.

You still make weird faces without knowing that you do at the camera. But now, you start liking the way you look. Don't worry about how you'll look like, you'll start blooming when you become 15 year old Crystal.

Caroline you will meet next year. She'll sit next to you at the back of the class and that is when the party of the next four years of your life starts. Click the link. Theres one whole blog post about her haha.

Vanissa will turn out to be one of your best friends! You'll love her very much, trust me. I'm not sure how you two got close but just go with the flow. What I do know is that, you two will start talking more after form 3. I don't know much, but what I do know is that she'll be one of the people who will mean a lot to you.

Carlin also! She is damn smart ok, ask her any add maths questions in form 5. And also, dunno how you guys got close, eh heh...-.0 However, I don't think we've talked as much as I would have loved to. :( But nevermind, we've talked during those days that we both wait for our parents in front of the school. :)

Sarah is a new girl next year. You will be immediately envious of her beauty and then more envious of her singing talent. Listen to her, cause she gives the best advice ever. In form 4, you and her will bond over drama. And you will love drama, trust me.

Aina and you will bond over her textbooks in form 3. You will be a bad class monitor and will be entrusted with the responsibility of helping her with her textbooks. In form 5, you guys will talk A LOT.

Donovan is a random guy in your life, forget about him. HAHA JUST JOKING. He is the class clown and will be responsible for most of your laughter in form 5. He has become more good looking huh?

The person taking this picture is Asrie and he has become wayyyy taller. You thought he was good looking then, he's very good looking now! Haha, and he's one of the nice guys that you love hanging around with.

Oh ya!! That crush you have right now will go on till form 3. He will be nicknamed Mathias (based on your favorite model). And Mathias will never ever like you back. EVER. Or at least, not so far. But its no use telling you not to waste energy and breath over this one way feeling, cause you will.

Right now, hmmm, I don't know. He's made you fall for him (hard), and now, I'm kinda spiralling back. Though now I know that I need to resist. And btw, you make it so obvious you like him, so he knows you like him all this while. But you guys have never talked about it.

Well, 13 year old Crystal, there are lots more pictures out there but people haven't uploaded them on facebook yet. Yeap, that thing you signed up for this year has officially replaced Friendster lol.

In 1st November 2013, you will have your last real class of high school. You didn't cry then. But while taking pictures with your best buds, you feel like you lose a part of yourself. You will hug them tightly as if you will never see them again.

And you feel that if you could, you'd have another year with them all over again.

Puai Puai

When I was a kid, I slept in my parent's room till I was 12. Yup.

That's not really embarassing right??

Anyway, one of the routine things I did every night was asking my mom to puai puai my back. Puai puai is basically just rubbing my back lol.

Then my mom would just basically rub my back till I fell asleep. And in any case when she fell asleep first, I would nudge her awake and she would continue again haha.

I don't know why I suddenly thought of this but it makes me kinda.... sad. Sad that my mother always stayed up till I went to sleep when she could've just said no.

And she was always tired then, with my little brother and her job. I feel so loved by her!!

I'm grateful that my mother is my mother.

I hope my future child would want me to puai puai his/her back. Its one of the essentials of having half my genes lol. Along with having a too much self esteem to the point of being delusional and also having a really good knack at procrastination.

Konichiwa!

Right now, Big Brother is cooking some chicken and the smell is wafting in the air, so yummy!

I skipped school again today (haiya, need to write a letter...) to study at home lol. I'm asian at heart. I never thought that a day would come when I would do something as "nerdy" as this.

This week, I won an award as the "best" member of my school's Pencinta Alam (nature lovers) group. Its not that I'm so spectacular la, but its because its a very mediocre group to start off with. And then I happened to win a Gold Award in the Environmental Day competition.

Also this week, I started to collect my SPM forecast results from my teachers and its hardly surprising except that for Add Maths, I got a C. Teacher Kenneth gave some serious thought about my marks.

Teacher Kenneth : How much did you get on your SPM trial?
Me : 48. *proudly

Just saying, that was already ok! I used to get 20-something marks

Teacher Kenneth : 48???!!!!
Me : Yeah...
Teacher Kenneth : Well, what do you want?
Me : At least a C.

Then he really gave me a C haha. Ah well, I'll just prove myself, hopefully, during SPM.

And then the other subject teachers gave me A's and B's. But even if I did have my forecasts, I don't know what I'll do with them. I don't want to straight away go to school AGAIN after SPM. I wanna slow down and relax first. Cause if not then, when?

We don't relax to study, we study to work, we work so we can later relax.

Kinda silly.

Well, my goal in life is not in my career but in being truly happy. So, I'm not going to revolve my whole life and future around a successful career, but revolving my career around my life.

Am I making any sense? Haha.......

Aiya, I'm not, am I.

Something else that will happen this week is my brother is graduating college and my whole family (except my sister and I) are going on a mini vacation to watch him receive his degree. NOT AGAIN!!!!!

Its ok its ok its ok.

More Of Mathias

Whenever I try to do cool things like this, I look so stupid.

For those who have been living all this while not recognizing this face (which is everyone I'm sure, Mathias Lauridsen isn't very popular), Mathias Lauridsen is a model from Denmark. Now if you play the game where you have to say one famous person from a country you can say, "Mathias Lauridsen" with a confident face.

Cause I can't think of any other famous person from Denmark. Can you?

Oh Yes.

What is it that makes him so charismatic??!! I know some guys in my school who are average in looks but when you talk to them, you feel so special...

And people don't even know much about him. 

Hm...

Witchcraft.

Ok, enough about him.

Frustrations

I wanna write about the SINDEX thing I attended two days ago and some things that really made me upset. Well, last year, my team that won a gold medal the SINDEX competition, which is an invention competition, was selected to go international -Korea.

Well, I didn't get to go la, but hey, at least 2 members and our project got the chance.

But then, shit happened and it was cancelled, and our invention was not international anymore, dropping us back down to just another state level winner.

WE COULD HAVE BEEN INTERNATIONAL!! *BANGS FIST

The reason remains unknown as to why it was suddenly cancelled and cancelled as in last minute. As in, a frikkin day before they were due to leave. All the bags were packed, documents were ready, project polished and ready to shine and then nothing.

Our school was told to get ready RM 10 000 (or so) and we did, everything was prepared on our side. Then we got a phone call that said that nothing, NOTHING, was prepared on the other side.

We held our end of the bargain SO HOW CAN THIS HAPPEN??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so sick of lazy people who aren't doing what they're supposed to be doing and these people aren't even thinking about the people they are affecting!

I hate the fact that I don't even know who these people are.

Then during the SINDEX Launch 2014, they were talking about all these schools that went to Korea and I feel like shit because my team should be in that list as well.

But we're not.

And we got an overall gold medal, and most innovative invention, and most marketable invention and also No. 1 for the office and education section. And despite these accomplishments and sacrifice that we put in (especially Elvena and Ben who were supposed to board a plane), we didn't go because of carelessness?

Then the speeches were all about them (teams who went to Korea) and how THEY'VE MADE THEIR COUNTRY PROUD AND THEY SHOULD GET RM1000 FOR THEIR HARD WORK, and I'm just sitting there screaming in the inside.

Well, I'm gonna go to sleep because this frustration is too much.

What Has Been Done Can Never Be Undone

  I heard the crack of the gunshot before I felt the pain. Actually, now that I think about it, it wasn't painful at all. Just a strange buzzing sound in my head, as if my brain was bidding its time to explode into a squishy mess. I fell to my knees and was greeted by a soft blanket of snow, cushioning my fall. I saw a pool of dark scarlet blood around me, turning the snow that was once a pure white into a gory red. Then, I made the mistake of looking up, right into the eyes that oozed hatred; a pair of blue eyes with specks of gold; a pair of eyes that I would call beautiful, if not for the hint of menace that screamed out 'PSYCHO' at you. My best friend's eyes. Well, you must be wondering why this boy would kill his best friend.

     It was a beautiful night. The moon cast a pale glow on the snow around me, making everything seem like a Disney fairytale. Right beside me, was Anne. "Mathias, I don't like lying to John," she sighed. "We should tell him the truth between us. He'll understand..." A desolate sigh escaped her lips.

     "Don't worry about it," I chuckled as I pecked her nose and stared dreamily, lost in her eyes. At that moment, a man clumsily stumbled out in front of us. His lips curled into a snarl and I could see a vein pulsating on his very thick neck. A low growl emanated from him, reminding me of an animal right before it was going to kill you. "John... " Anne gasped.

   I told Anne to go back home and in a fit of tears and hiccups, she did. "John, I can explain-" I started but then his fist connected with my left eye. "Alex told me but I couldn't believe it. I couldn't believe that you could do this to me." I expected him to roar and unleash the rage that was condensed within himself but all I heard was the voice of a man who seemed lost. "We are best friends, and you betrayed me," he whispered. His eyes were filled with sorrow when they met mine. "Mathias, you betrayed me."

     "Please John, I can explain," I began, then thought the better of it. "Look, the night is late. Let's just talk tomorrow," I offered and watched him look at me like a stranger on the street. He stood there, like an inanimate object and I began to wonder if he could recover from this. So, I inched closer to him, every fibre of my being filled with regret.

     With a sudden strike, like a black mamba injecting venom into its prey, John struck me with something hard. Out of the corner of my eye, I could barely make out a gun. A metallic taste formed in my mouth but before I could even notice that it was blood, John kicked my abdomen hard, with what sounded like a warcry. He kicked me, punched me, spat on me, while spewing profanities with every strike until finally, after what seemed like forever, he pulled out a gun. I couldn't do anything, my limbs were black and blue and my spirit was crushed. I could barely see anything from my swollen black eyes.

     "You're my best friend, Mathias, " he whispered into my ear with an eerie calm. He dragged all 160 pounds of me up and slammed the life out me against an oak tree. "I hope you have fun down there. I'll meet you in hell," he sounded deranged and crazy. I felt something cold press against my stomach. BANG! As I lay there, dying in agony, John walked away.

     Shivering, I thought if I had deserved this after my sin. It was my fault, mea culpa. As I gasped my final breath, my last thought was, 'what is done can never be undone'.

Marks = 42/50

Hachi's Grown Up! And Competiton Again...

Today, Hachi did one of the most proudest things ever!!

I was standing inside my house, opening my door inch by inch in fear of the demon dog trying to kill me again. So when I saw him, "Damn... not this again..." But then! When I fully opened the door, he was just sitting there, with his head to the side and looked.

Just looked!

Then when I petted his head, he didn't try to amputate my fingers like always, he just sat still and let me pet him.

THEN HE LAID DOWN. T__T So proud...

But now he's in his cage, cause its raining.

Speaking of raining, its been raining everyday for the past few days and I think I'm getting sick. I can't get sick!!!

Tomorrow, I've got a SINDEX competition to go to, which is an invention competition I joined last year and until now, its still on going. Actually, maybe now its just showcasing our project. I'm really not sure, I was only told about this today haiya why like this..

But anyway, its tomorrow and I'm kinda nervous!

Hope everything goes well!!

Laptop

My dad did buy me a laptop! Yay!!!

What have I done to deserve this wuaaahhhhh I must've cured cancer in a prallel universe or something haha. It looks like the picture but I forgot the model so, not sure. Mine is all black and elegant. *awesome

Before I had a laptop, I could always think of things to do if I had one, but now that I actually have one, I just want to store it somewhere to keep and never use it in fear of it getting dirty.

Sigh, so happy.... and suddenly I have a new appreciation for my father. :)

Sixteen Going On Seventeen

Yesterday was my birthday! I WAS sixteen going on seventeen.

On 4th October 1996, a girl was born!

Actually, every year, I have this silly fantasy that something amazing will happen to me like the things that happen in fairytale books.

Harry was a wizard at 11.
Bella met a vampire at 16.
Clary became a shadowhunter at 15.

And then there's people who found out they're fairies, wolves, princesses, and found their true love or whatnot.

But nobody finds their destiny after 20! Right or not?! So I have 2 more years left. Yikes, it would make such a boring story if those characters were old.

So, 17 has passed. No Hogwarts letter so that's too late. No creepy vampires. No princess of a lost land hmph.

I am seventeen! When I was 10 or 11, I couldn't wait to be 13. When I was 13, I couldn't wait to be 15. And when I was 15 I couldn't wait to be 17. And now I can't wait to be 18 haha.

After 21, I think I'm not gonna want to get older after that.

But yes, seventeen now. Its odd.

And as a 17 year old, I'm going to make my first silly embarrassing confession.

Only three of my friends remembered my birthday. Yeap... I shouldn't feel so embarrassed about this but I am! Its silly but, I kinda feel, underappreciated.

Haiya, I told myself to not be so silly.

On Thursday, I was talking to BJ (who remembered!) about how no one else in class remembered and I couldn't help it, I cried. Normally, I cry because I'm mad or frustrated but this time, its pure sadness.

And then BJ freaked out, so I stopped. Then he was so nice and comforted me! If it was anyone else, they would tell me to stop being an idiot. But.... I'm still super sad

Shit, even now I'm tearing up thinking about it.

Stoicism!!

I'm sad cause I remembered all their birthdays, and celebrated and gave gifts and I want them to at least say Happy Birthday but the good part of me says, give without expecting.

And then Adrian went around saying that they're planning a birthday surprise for a teacher that is like, 2 Weeks away. How can!?

Hello!?

I'm here!!

Screw these people! I hate them, I hate them all! No more kindness for them! But as usual, I stay silent and even shared some chocolates with everyone in class.

But I wanted so much to bawl my eyeballs out.

But like I said, to expect everyone to give you something like this is silly. Its so not genuine and nice.

Give without expecting.
Give with an unexpecting heart.
Don't be a bitch, Crystal!
Its ok.
Remember that you're not entitled to anything.

Good happy thoughts lol.

But its ok, like all things, it passed!

My birthday was quite uneventful haha.

The only thing we did was buy a cake from Secret Recipe and some pizza and KFC.

But its really nice la what my family did for me, I'm happy! In the morning, my mom texted me happy birthday. And my dad showed me a Samsung catalog so maybe, just maybe, this birthday will become totally awesome?

Then we ate an expensive cake.

and....

And....

Yeah that's all lol.

Thank you to BJ, Sarah and Tiara for wishing me! Now I know who my true friends are wtf.

You guys should have some expensive cake!!

Procrastination Post

There's this song that has been stuck in my head and it is so addicting!

 

Anyone else?

I first heard about this song when Sarah told me and then others started raving about it as well. So, I got curious and checked it out. Damn regretful... T___T

It just stays in your head and repeats itself again and again and again. If I don't listen to this song when I want to, I'll get very frustrated, kinda like doing an add maths question haha.

And what's up with youtube buffering the videos so slow lately? And then when I try to rewind the vid it starts buffering from the very beginning. It is very annoying.

Today after my Add Maths tuition, I went to 1Borneo to buy a book!

THIS IS SO FUNNY!!!

I've read the first one and that made me laugh like mad. Its so entertaining and its short and to the point. And also, this book was 20% off. Yes, double win!

 

Didn't make you laugh??!

I hope I don't get sued for copyright but this is all over the internet so what's one more.

I hope that the author, Boey makes a gazillion of these books so I can read them till I'm like, 100 (more or less). I can relate to some of these things cause its about a childhood in Malaysia and well me=Malaysian.

But I lost the first book that I bought months ago and I wanna find ittttttt why do I keep losing things I love!

Sigh, actually the point of this blog post is to procrastinate from reading hsitory. Its just so boring to read about the past! Why can't we read about the future or the present. Why is there nothing in that textbook about Christopher Columbus or about the big horse statue that went into the Troy city place?

Actually, I've about it sometime in my childhood.

Its when the Greek wanted to enter Troy using a very sly method. They pretended to sail away and left this big wooden horse. So the Troys (Trojans? Troys? Meh, potahtoh potaytoh) pulled that big wooden horse into their city. Then, when night came and everyone was asleep, a troop of greek soldiers came out from that horse and attacked everyone in their sleep.

Its quite a funny story to me. But I remember when I read about it at the age of 5/6/7 and thought that the greeks were geniuses for doing that.

Right? Its like when you're in a fight in school and you pretend to surrender and just when the other kid walks away, you kick them in the ass. Yeap, just like that.

OR, in a girly drama-ey fight in school, you pretend to be mature and make up with that bitch but sabotage them behind their backs.

Gah! What am I doing! I'm supposed to be taking a break from history and yet I'm talking about history! And this history isn't even going to come out in my exam!

Ok nothing more about history

Other than that.....

Meow has been such a darling that my name for him this week is Darling! I love him so much! He hasn't bitten me for quite a while and he's always so quiet but lovable! I like quiet animals lol.

Right now he's sleeping by the door cause he got tired of waiting for me to open it. Heee, I'm so happy to have such a nice kitty!

Though I think he thinks of himself as a human. Ah well. Come Darling! Time for cuddly wuddley!!

:D

Ok time to go back to studying. *pops bubble of fantasy and procrastination