What a busy busy busyyyyy few days, as usual.

But this week is as busy as a midsem kind of week! Let me list out my work for you so you can see just how bad this week is...

Chemistry lab report, mock trial personal report, spontaneous speech for contemporary law, physics AND chemistry AND calculus II tests, programming quiz.

Yay for engineering right?

I have my calculus II test tomorrow and I am slowly losing my noggins but that's okay cause...

Next week is a holiday weee!

Which is a well deserved break for me I think. I will be going back to Sabah and my mom is having a holiday too and we can spend some mother daughter time together, which is my favorite kind of time.

Today is a holiday, cause its Malaysia Day and I think I took it for granted cause I didn't even study much. All I did was eat and read and eat and somehow, its already midnight and the day is gone.

I'm sure that if it wasn't a holiday, there'd be more work piled on us.

So, remember how a post a while back was about me complaining about the woes of singledom? Well, after more and more thinking, do I even have time to think about such bullshit right now?

I am barely breathing, so why do I need to muddle up my mind with 'feelings'. Right or not? So, its better to just push all the unnecessary stuff away for now and focus on more important things such as my calculus II test tomorrow, which I should really start studying for.

 Calculus II.... is probably the best among the worst of the core subjects I'm taking. The best subject would be contemporary law which is ironic because I'm taking engineering, not law. Maybe law is my calling.

Another thing, I have been moping a lot lately because my grades aren't as good as I hoped. I mean, they're really really bad. But I think, my moping around and being sad all the time is just annoying the people around me so I need to stop.

But how?

I am the type of person who wears her heart on her sleeve and every single emotion I feel shines through like a big disco ball in a dark room. Even my lecturer said so, "If she (me) likes something, she shows it." Can't help it leh. Its like reflex for me to express.

I'm trying to learn to control my emotions but hahaha I'm not doing very well.

Any tips? I'm bad at playing cards because of this. When people try to guess who I like pun its so easy cause I suck in my cheeks. When I am uncomfortable I take a deep breath. When I'm lying I act really dumb. And when I'm happy I smile by myself.

Sometimes I just want an air of mystery to linger.