I Have Nothing Amazing To Contribute

They say that if you are torn in choices, just flip a coin and the one face that you hope will turn up will be the answer. So I fllipped a coin and I hoped that I will be taking EST.

Then the coin turned up on the EST side so I'm happy!! :D

And you know what, EST is pretty fun.

Today we talked about cloning in humans and whether or not we agree with it. Personally I don't because we are meant to be this way so why fight against what is natural right?

Its like a toy. Its meant to work a certain way but if you push it too hard beyond its capabilities, it'll get broken.

Still I still had fun talking about it with our small group of 8 people.

That's right. Eight! Including teacher. And next week it'll probably be six or five.

Today we talked about all these people having cloning done to live or to get babies or to replicate an organ.

And there was this one case teacher told us about when this little girl got her head blown off by a shotgun and she lived literally with half a brain. Cool or not???

And we talked about how girls need to keep warm and guys need to keep cool because if we don't then somehow there will be something wrong with our reproductive system. Girls, notice that when you drink cold water during your period you get cramps? Right right or not?

And I have never had a sore throat from eating hot food and surprisingly a guy in class said he did!! I didnt know that was possible.

I love these things!

There's this boy in class, Voon and he's so kind, smart, good looking and open. I don't know why but I admire these kinds of guys.

And he's athletic! Perfect.

Lol why am I like this.

Anyway I'm glad he's a friend now cause I kinda feel lonely in EST and there's only three people I talk with comfortably. Garrett, Chong and Voon. All guys. Nuuuuu!!! I want some girl friends!

Haih its okay la. They're a pretty cool trio though a little shy. Except Chong. Chong has no shame lol.

And you can ask them anything about boy stuff. And Voon said something amazing that I went wow for just now!

I can't tell you what (I'm sorry) but it just made his naive and innocent demeanor that much more attractive. Clue : He said something very good boy. And its probably a private thing so I shouldn't blog about it. Aahhh I'll stop now.

Gasp could this be yet another crush??? No no no. Its just admiration.

You know, I find that nowadays, I tend to be wayyyy more honest than I was in Form 1. In Form 1, whenever something or someone impresses me, I would keep quiet because later that someone will think differently. Like if its a guy, he would think I like him or something ridiculous like that.

But I tend to just tell people what I think now. Of course it has to be a positive comment la. I'm sure if I pass too many negative comments someone will punch me someday.

Maybe its cause people are more matured now too I guess.

Plus, everyone likes being told that they're doing a great job right! I mean, I love gettin reassurance from people that I'm doing something right. And daddy said treat people the way you want to e treated.

So that will be my first February resolution.

VALUE PEOPLE.

Oh ya, and today I talked to someone who I don't really like in class. And when I talked to her without any prejudice, it was actually nice. She says some pretty wise stuff and although I still have some uneasy feelings about her, its still not nice to dislike someone without reason right?

But how do you control dislike? I would love to love hot weather if I could but I just don't. I hate it to the core of my heart. Even in class, I would go to the last seat at the back just to get some fan and wind. Even in Bio I would sit at the same sit under the fan although its more practical to choose a seat nearer to teacher. Its just so stressful being hot (lolololol).

I can't control my dislike!!!

Lol, but I think I'm getting over my dislike for this person. I don't know.

Well I've done my bit on the internet which is talking about crap again. But someone out there might find this crap genius right?

Right???

To Take Or Not To Take

I only spent 2 hours sleeping last night and I don't feel sleepy during school at all! What is this sorcery?!

Today at school Sarah told me that narrator guy has a girlfriend and I feel so broken hearted right now... Its ridiculous! I've only seen him once and already I'm like this.

But but but all the Disney movies said....

Nevermind.

Did you guys know about my love hate relationship with EST (English For Science and Technology)?

Well I've been wanting to drop the subject because its so useless and such a waste of time but my mother won't let me. She says its a free Aa right there.

Its my choice right!!!

EST is a really tricky subject because the smallest mistake will drop you down to an E from an A. True story.

Forgot a word in that important point of yours? Too bad, FAILED! My parents can't seem to understand that!

And I had to write about Genetically Modified Food in class which I actually got an A for but what if I hadn't known a thing about it??? If I had no ability to spout some bullshit out at that time how?

Today we wrote about seed propagation and cloning/tissue culture which I have absolutely no idea about and that was SPM question on 2006! Thank God Chong was there to save the day lol.

And I have nobody there that I am close to. There is only about 9 people in the class and I don't really talk to any of them. I mean none who I would tell my secrets or my problems to. I just sit there pretending to read a book or pretend to sleep.

If not, I'll feel stupid.

Seth abandoned me. BJ abandoned me. Hafiz abandoned me. Only Kooks loves me now!

I seriously wanted to drop it so badly...

But then today, my mom finally let me drop the subject!! I begged and begged and begged and finally she snapped and said do whatever you please!

Once that weight is lifted off my shoulders its easier to think for myself now. When she said that I was taken aback and felt so light and airy.

I was getting ready to write the letter when I thought that its actually not as bad as I made it out to be. It was just me being rebellious yet again.

I actually want to stay in EST! I can make new friends. I can ace the subject. I can totally have fun.

I realised that if I just stole looking at the negative part of things, there is actually something beautiful in it.

Lol why so emo la me.

So I guess I'm taking this subject and honestly I'm quite scared. I'm sure its gonna be hard but somehow things will be ok.

I hope.

Oh yeah, and today I beat Garrett in arm wrestling. I hope he didn't just lose on purpose...



Look at Kooks disturbing me while I'm trying to do chemistry work!

Benny And The Emerald Forest

Hi!!! I've reached a milestone in my life though not a big one la.

I've watched my FIRST EVER MUSICAL!!!!

Its called Benny and the Emerald Forest!

How did I get to know this? Sarah blogged about it a few months ago here and I so wanted to watch it the first time but it was christmas season and I was back at kampung... But no matter because they performed it again last night and tonight too!

I arrived there around 6.30pm and my dad and I loitered around for a while outside. If you're trying to picture this, I was in pink jeans and striped top and I wore glasses. I always feel ugly with glasses. Its like medicine, I hate it but I need it in my life to live.

Ok, so, I arrived and waited for Tiara to come. But while waiting, Nate came along! He told my dad that his parents knew my dad, but my dad did not recognize them. Only in the car after the musical that my dad's mind clicked and he rememered them. Okay nevermind, I'm digressing.

This is the feel of the whole thing.

I'm sorry for all the crappy photos!! I know I'm a bad photographer.

I feel pissed at first actually because the musical started at 7.45pm!!!! This is all because the guests of honours (is that how you spell it?) from all around Asia came late. Or maybe some of them. I actually read a whole chapter from Dancing At Midnight and then played a few games to distract me from my rage (I HATE WAITING). Unfortunately, losing games infuriates me more so that didn't work.



Then when they finally came and sat down, this woman just had to make a speech and by this point, my morale was just so damn low that all I wanted was 9gag and some iced lemon tea to comfort me. And then they played a video which again unfortunately had some glitches so in the end, there was no video lol.

So the musical started an HOUR LATE. How can??? Me and my dad's morale was so low, especially mine la sorry. I have really low tolerance for lateness (though I also sometimes am late, which in that case I am SUPER DUPER SORRY) and when the musical was about to start I really had to kick myself in the ass to wipe away my anger and just enjoy the musical.

YET, WHEN THE NARRATOR CAME OUT AND DID HIS THING, IT WAS SOOOOOOO AMAZING!!!!!!!

That was all the ass kicking I needed.

The intro was just *speechless*. No words for it. The narrator was so... so... *speechless*.

He's my favorite cast heheehe.

The cast was amazing given that they only had 10 DAYS to rehearse and everything and I am just so amazed! Imagine what could happen if they were given a few months.

Actually, when they were singing, I would've thought that it was recorded and then played but it wasn't! So, I was just sitting in my seat with my mouth hung open and just thinking.... WOW.

However, I would love to kick the crew in the face because people the audience could hear the people talking backstage. I don't know how that could happen or maybe it was intentional but ngeh, its easy to forget that it didn't happen.

The cast was already so great then the crew should have put more effort into it too!

Oh well, it was still amazing!

And here's the cast! Tiara and I rushed down when it was over and with all the huru hara, this is the best photo I could get. T___T Look at the little boy in the suspenders, thats the star!! CUTE OR NOT!! And see the fairy with the tall hat and wand, "she's the best singer"(my dad's quote). And then see the lady in red, thats the evil witch who freaked me out so job well done!

Aiya, I'm such a bad photographer...

Thanks narrator guy for the kick in the ass. I am telling you, he is soooo soooo soooooooooo amazing!! The voice OMG THE VOICE was so narrator like. And see see see! He's got so much coolness when I asked for a photo, he posed like that!  You just have to watch him someday. I wanna know his name because he's the kind of guy that could make it big someday and I wanna say to people I've seen him before it was cool lol.

I wish I asked him to act out a few lines and record that but that'd just be creepy. And I am obviously not a creep. At least not in real life. *shifty eyes

It'd be cool if he narrated my dreams.

All my pics are blurry dunno why. And I look weird...

I seriously super duper love Sarah's Popular!!!! Sarah is Miss Priscilla and she really potrays the good witch (or fairy) really well!

I feel like Miss Priscilla is the type of friend you would tell your secrets or problems to and she will comfort you.

And Miss Priscilla got lots of fans! O.O Actually its not surprising lol. I wanted to say bye but lots of people were begging to take pics.

And as we were going out, my dad said she was the best singer. Talent scouts are you reading this??!! And I can say that I knew the Fairy Godmother before it was cool also lol.

I demand that you watch this so you can know exactly what I'm talking about. Skip to 0.10.

My two favorite fairies! They should've gotten bigger roles eh!! What is this!? Maybe the evil daughters of Miss Elvina (the evil witch).

But they were so cute! Too cute to be evil la. Theres another pink fairy and I love all three of them! They looked really graceful and I'm not joking when I say the Three Pink Fairies (thats what I call them in my head) were mesmerizing. I stared only at them in their dancing scene.

Not creepy at all...
The girl on the right is Jia Tian (or just Tian Tian) and on the left is Nuhaa.

TALENTED or not!!? :D She's only 10 I think in this vid. I think la. I'm spouting BS (BullShit) And she's really graceful on stage as you can tell. I've never seen her sing a solo live though so I hope I'd at least get to see her once in school.

Tian Tian is a ballroom dancer also from school. Last year, she was in Choral Speaking and since she's 14 now, she has 4 more years of guiding the team.

I feel so proud1!! I feel like a Jie Jie (older sis) to these two girls and really want the best for them!

I feel so happy to watch them all! There's a fluttery feeling in the pit of my stomach

I used to be in a musical when I was in Primary 1 in Seri Insan. I was a munchkin in the Wizard Of Oz and all I had to do was act cute and short.

I can't wait for the next musical!

Boring Story Of My Current Drama

Hey, did I tell you guys that if I was having any dramas I'd blog about it?

Well earlier this year, I actually developed a crush on a classmate of mine. Lets call him Tim.

Well Tim isn't exactly the most good looking guy in my opinion but he's so damn funny! Everything he says I will confirm laugh. And he's such a gentleman and I like that. And he's smart.

So I developed a tiny crush. Very tiny. I didn't even act on the crush! Didn't even think about it that much.

One day, I was in the library studying physics and this was probably in the second week of the year.

And Vanissa comes along and we talked and she told me a secret of hers. So I told her a secret of mine and it was that I had a small admiration for Tim. I emphasized the small.

And a few days later my admiration disappeared.

If you don't know, I'm a person who loves to joke around and some people have told me that I'm too open. Anyway, I always joke around with Tim about normal stuff. Mostly I just quote 9gag memes a lot. So obviously, we would laugh a lot.

And some people were teasing us about 'things' but I didn't think much about it and laughed it off with another joke. And Tim always laughs along with me.

But then two days ago, we were talking and something he said took me aback.

Tim : Did you tell Vanissa I was good in physics?
Me : Oh, yeah.
Tim : Oh she told me that last time. And she said something else....

Oh. MY. GAWD.

What did she say ahhhh??? Does he know? But it was just a small crush! Hiya so embarrassing!!!

In reality all I did was blink and coolly said, "Oh?"

I'm proud of myself for keeping my cool at that time lol.

So the next day, I asked Vanissa about it and she said yes but it was an accident cause Leon brought up the topic of me and cause she thought Tim already knew about it. Don't get me wrong, I'm not angry or anything. She already said sorry anyway. :-)

The whole story is that while waiting for the bus at the bus stop, Van, Leon and Tim were talking. Leon brought up the subject of me and Van accidentally said that she wa surprised I put Tim in my list.

The whole day, I did not talk to Tim or even look at him and I kept sighing to myself. I don't know why la since it was a small thing anyway.

And today, I was sitting at the back of the class during Bio because I love the fan and it was the side with no sunlight.

And idiot Leon told Tim to sit next to me like he did before but I said don't lol. My excuse was that I needed to study. And then Raina said, "So you admit that you can't concentrate when Tim sits next to you?"

I was like.... SERIOUSLY?? And Tim was like... Wtf and laughed it off.

Throughout Bio class, Zul (another classmate) kept pestering me bout Tim. One time, he walked over to where I was sitting (I was alone because I like it) alone and said something like, "Why you so lonely here??" and then screamed across the class and called out Tim's name? And reflex took over and I hit him on the chest.

I buried my face in my arms after that and laughed. It was seriously funny and if I didn't control my laughter, it would have been really emarassing for me. Imgine this. I wa sitting at the very back, at the far left. And Tim was sitting at the very front at the far right.

No, not funny? Okay...

And after that came EST class and Tim and I sat next to each other. I was very quiet and when he asked me why, I just said that I was on my period which is true. Things were very awkward because all I can think about is that HE KNOWS.

And then after a while, I sighed audibly and he asked so I said... "You know how I love to joke around right? People are saying that I like this person or that and one of those people is you. There I said it!!"

Imagine I said that all in one breath lol.

Anyway, Tim just said don't worry la. Don't care watt others think.

And now that think about it, I don't really care what others think also actually so its fine. I guess he's ok with it so if he's not feeling weird, then I shouldn't feel weird too.

So all well that ends well. Its not such a big thing but life is so boring nowadays! I got nothing else to say and yet I really want to blog about something.

Tim if you're reading this and you obviously know it's you. So now you know lol.

Things People Say #2

Me : Daddy what happened to your head?!

Dad : What what?

Me : Its getting bald...

Update on Kooks. He came home right after I posted yesterday. Then he took a piss and then puked!

Then I looked at his ass and its dirty and black ew.

Kooks is sick!!! Crap. I feel so guilty that it was me who caused him to be like this.

But I'm gonna take him to the vet soon. Just gotta find the time for it. Why don't vets open in the weekends???? Its so silly la.

Or maybe they do and I just don't know.

Ah great I just searched the whole house for Kooks and he is no where to be found. Is this what it feels like to be a parent for a teenager? I never go out with my friends anymore.

I know I would feel so guilty if I come home with a bad result for SPM next year. I'll totally recall eety time I have fun. Even blogging right now I feel guilty but its okay because it makes me feel better and I'm using Bloggeroid on Android anyway so its fine.

Tomorrow is the cross country run.

Its so easy to tell others on being responsible and putting business before pleasure but I so want to be a hypocrite! I want to run with my friends and I want to laugh along and get tired and enjoy refreshing drinks and go buy ice cream float and have one final chance in getting top 10. There's always a chance right?

Right now I am resenting every single St John Ambulance members who refuses to go do their duty. Rawwwerrr!!!

I hope they get sunburn. And I hope the Zuhals (green team) gets points! And the other teams to fall down or something.

Okay I don't mean that. Stay safe ah guys. Watch out for cars. I'll be somewhere there to catch you when you fall.

Have fun..... TT
No la I'm joking, I'm not really that upset. Its cool bha to be a nurse. The silent guardian angel. The silent hero. The savior of the cramped and the fainted.

So to any schoolmates of mine, I'll be there to cheer you on yeah!

And I predict that tomorrow, Jong Kook will get top 10. He says he wants to get top 5 and yet he never even got top 10 in the four past years. Quite a big leap oh.

(The next day....)

I came to school around 5.30am and it was so dark and eerie! I wasn't wearing glasses so all the faces I saw were like ghosts and it was so freak and lonely to sit in the dark all alone, eavesdropping in some 13 year old girl's love life..

And then I watch the sun slowly rise and imagined myself holding someone's hand LOL. I'm joking.

Anyway, I hung out with Vanissa and Bethany for a little while until it was time to go for St John duties.

All I can say about the preparation is that it is very confusing and the Form 6 guy who was in charge of everything was so stressed, he was a little scary in handling everything. But I know how these things are like for some people so I didn't take it to heart.

We were all waiting outside for all the kids to be unleashed and two interesting things happened.

One, when the Lelaki A boys were on the go, it was like a herd of bulls bullsand when they cleared out, there was a phone in the middle of the school entrance and it was cracked haha! FHL.

Then when the Perempun A girls were let out, a girl fell down somewhere 100 m away from the entrance and I along with 2 other juniors went to help her. I am so proud!!! My most most most gentlest version of myself comes out when I'm doing my St. John duties.

And ten after that, off I go to my station. And this part I am very pissed about.

I am stationed together with a Form 6 guy named Darrie and that's fine until every Form 6 said things like "Don't dating ahhhh!!" and stuff like that.

Grow up.

But actually, I didn't mind that at the time lol. Only now that I think about it that I'm getting a little pissed.

And and and the Form 6 in charge said that our station which was the Chung Hwa roundabout is near the school and since the school van is full, we should just walk there.

So we did. And when we did get there, they said it was at Shan Tao which was bloody far away.

And then the van passed us just as we arrived there with half the people gone!!!! Which means they sent people who's stations are much closer to the school than us!!!!

And then we waited for all the boys to pass by and fortunately nobody fainted.

By 9am, all the boys passed by and we followed Teacher Tsang's car back to school.

There I met with my other friends and they told me that someone was mad at me and the person wrote a Facebook status last night.

But why would they think its me?

Anyway, I asked the person if I did anything wrong and he said no the status wasn't about me. It was accidentally posted.

Problem solved. Its always better to talk it out rather than just leave a problem hanging there.

And oh yeah! Jong Kook didn't get top 10.

After school, I sent a very sick Kooks to the vet. And its so amazing cause you can just leave your pet there and then come back some time later to pick it up! So time saving and convenient.

I went to Dr Hady's Vet at Kingfisher and I like the people there. They're friendly once you've warmed them up a bit. So I guess that's my default vet from now on la.

I wish I have my own drivers license and job and house and car because I really hate troubling my parents like this!

Have to pay for my cat.
Have to pay for my studies.
Have to pay for my skin.

I'll repay them when I can.