I Have Nothing To Do

Lately my days have been filled with a whole lot of NOTHING.

However, I did go have a semi-boujee lunch last weekend with Bjay.

I went to Pusas The Smokehouse at Signal Hill and lemme tell you... the portion of fries is huge and I think RM 12 for fries with bacon and cheese is an okay deal. The cheesy wedges from KFC is already like RM 4 for a quarter of what Pusas gives you.

I've been going back to Dr. Seuss' Oh The Places You'll Go. It was relevent when I was taking my SPM, and relevant when I was waiting for my uni placement, and it is relevant now as I am trying to get a job as a fresh graduate.

I think getting a job as a fresh graduate might be the most frustrating thing I have embarked on thus far. I actually thought that I was going to get a job within a month XD I was that naive.

Every single job needs experience but I need a job to get experience and the vicious cycle goes on and on. I think all I need to do is calm down and trudge on but every rejection is so hard and the days just are so emotionally draining. Then I remind myself that I am in a fortunate position that I can take my time.

Truth is, everyone has their own pace and its a privilege to be able to be choosy in my career.

I am back in Sabah and I feel absolutely lost and sad and lonely!!! But I won't talk about that.

I am, however, going to talk about how I am losing weight! At least I think I am cause I can physically see it happening but I don't have a scale. Maybe its caused I've stopped obsessing about my weight that I'm losing it. I haven't been eating dinner and I haven't been drinking any soft drinks, so maybeeeee...

Although because I have not been eating dinner, I think my gastritis flared up and I got sick for an entire week. I puked and couldn't keep any food down. I must be pretty messed up in the head cause I was kinda pleased I wasn't digesting more calories.

I am so sad.

I don't want to leave. I've been doing everything I can to stay here but it seems like I am destined to graduate on time. And I feel so drained all the time but I can't sleep at night. On sunday night, I slept at 7 FUCKING AM. I mean, I went to bed at 2am and closed my eyes but my brain just wouldn't shut up. It felt like I was dreaming but it was just my head going wild.

Anyways, I guess its gonna happen sooner or later and I should suck it up and deal with it. I'm just so tired, mentally and physically.

But I know its all going to be okay and this is just a small blip in my life. I just have to keep reminding myself that its all going to be okay and this too will pass. I have to leave to move forward.

You know what... I am actually so jealous of people who get to go to grad school immediately after doing their undergrad degree. Its just that there is a sense of comfort knowing that life isn't gonna drastically change and the people around you change and the air around you is different and your entire lifestyle is gonna change in a single day oh god im making myself anxious.

Does this make sense to you?

I DON'T WANNA GO BACK TO MALAYSIA BECAUSE I LIKE MY FIRST-WORLD LIFE. There I said it. Its nice to have everything delivered to my doorstep and not have to go out ever, and feel safe and having my independence. When I go home, I'm just gonna feel like a child again living with my parents. A child and a maid, cause I'm gonna be the only one who cares about cleanliness.

And my eczema is gonna come back full swing cause its so hot and humid and dirty! D:

I wish I was rich.

Let's talk about my day.

Today I slept at 2AM and woke up at 8:25AM. I took 25 minutes to get ready for work which was supposed to start at 9AM and arrived at 9:15AM. I was late shit. But its okay cause my work is flexible and my boss told me its okay to be a little late as long as I finish on time.

I worked till about 11:25AM and then went to the greenhouse to water my plant experiments. There were some sprouting now. I thought they all died lol.

Then I went to eat and watch some YouTube before going to the library because its quiet and nice.

ugh i suck.

1ST DAY OF CLASS

Hurrah today was the first day of the last semester... Or maybe not hurrah cause I am dreading the day when I get home. But its okay, I had the chance to experience something amazing.

I only had one class today at 8 FREAKING AM and I am so tempted to kill it out of my schedule. As soon as my professor uttered the words "group project", "presentation to the office of something something", and what made me wanna barf in the middle of class was all the readings and essays omg am I actually going to have to WORK for this??!!

Just another day in me being a brat,

Then I went home and slept the ENTIRE day. Oh! And YOU on Netflix is amaaaazinggg like holy shit I love it! I am watching it as I am typing this right now.

Today I failed at saving money. I bought a 5$ bag of chips and then had food delivered to my house. T.T. Its okay, I have a shift tomorrow and I'll just work an extra hour and a half to make up for it.

Trying to limit my shopping

In the spirit of saving money, I am going to limit my shopping.

I have always loved to shop. In my first year of university, I think I shopped almost every single week whether its on Amazon or Target or Sephora. And most of the time, it was just to have fun! I think at that time, my rent so low (270$) that it really left me with lots of leftover money.

But now, I am paying 399$ a month on rent which is wayyy more than what I used to pay. Gas and water is included in that though, so that actually evens it out a little bit but still... I saw a picture shared by Dave Ramsey and he said that 25% of your income should go into housing. I think I spend about 37%, depending on how many hours I worked in my part-time job. Then again, I don't pay for insurance, or a car, or health, so 37% sounds about right. But shopping is so compulsive and unnecessary. It clutters and makes me feel like shit afterwards. So no more compulsive shopping and that includes food delivery!

I think another really important lesson I learnt in the past year is that I don't have to go on vacation so much. I really much rather stay at this home I spent so much money decorating, with the internet I pay so much monthly, and the gas that is already included in rent.

But sometimes I do get jealous when I see pictures on instagram. It just seems so fun!!! T.T And I just seem so lame for sitting at home.

Then you know what's even not so fun and lame? BEING A BROKE ASS BISS. Honestly, its just pressure and jealousy that's making me go on these expensive vacations. I just wanna brag about how much money I can spend when I don't have money to spend. Its so stupid cause I should've started saving earlier and worked more instead.

And that's how I comfort myself. However since I've been so good and not travelling, I am saving up to go to Chicago for spring break and that should be fun! I've already been to Chicago but this time, I think its gonna be more of a relaxing trip than a explore the city kind of trip. The plan is to rent out an amazing Airbnb and chill with good food, and think of it as a treat.

New Year, New Me

In 2016, I spent new years in San Francisco. In 2017, I spent new years in New York. Today, I am spending new years at Columbus, OH and it feels SO GOOD to do nothing all day long. 

That sums up my entire winter break.

Last night, I slept at 6.30am, which is a new record for me. I spent 6 hours on YouTube watching  youtuber called Aja Dang talk about her student loan debt. I really like watching financial videos while being financially a hot mess but she inspired me to make more money! So here's another goal for 2019: WORK MORE. I don't know if she said this but its better to make more money than have to cut spending so here we go.

Also! Something really annoying has been going on for an entire week: I DO NOT HAVE CONTACT LENSES AKA LIFE.

It all started when I was washing my last pair of contact lens at my toilet sink when it fell and was swept away into the drain. So then I tried to buy new ones at lens.com while crying cause that shit ain't cheap. Then they told me a few days later that they'll ship it like two weeks later which is the most ridiculous shit I have ever heard in customer care history! #dramaticbish

So I cancelled and ordered new ones on Lenscrafters with next day shipping. But that shit wasn't shipped till todayyyyy and so I chatted with the most unhelpful customer service representative who told me to email someone else and I know I'm being an entitled spoiled bitch and complaining about nothing but its just so frustrating cause I feel like I am living the real life Bird Box cause I can't see shit and my glasses are shit and I'm just so poor to get new glasses gahbkjna,dnnde help.

Ok calm down biss you're fine.

Anyways.

I emailed them and am waiting for a reply and I hope hope hope that it goes through.

One Semester Left

WINTER 2K18 YA'LL!

I feel like I blinked and suddenly I'm gonna graduate in 6 MONTHS. Oh my god it seems hella surreal. First of all, I don't even feel like a senior. Second of all, I still can't add without a calculator and third, I feel like I wanna be a forever student. But I have to graduate sooner or later, I suppose so why not just cut the cord now.

Lately I've been thinking about saving money a lot. There are so many articles and videos out there about jobless millennials and I keep thing shit there's a 80% chance that that's gonna be me. But deep breaths. In the wise words of CL, I can do everything if I wanted to. But I'm saving anyway so I can take my time to find the right job for me. The best thing is that I am earning in USD, so it makes it so much easier to get to my goal. The biggest barrier is food :( cause I love eating out. I used to eat out almost everyday except for the past 3 days lol. OMG and deliveries are my favorite things. I Postmate food to my apartment so much its a disease. A money sucking soul crushing future killing disease. AND Amazon delivers in 2 days so I used to just get things willy nilly.

However, I did get a job as a undergrad research assistant and basically, I take care of fish. I make about 10$ an hour (I say about cause taxes kill my paycheck). OK lemme digress for a bit.

Us scholarship kids who are studying overseas are getting hate on Twitter cause we are living our best lives here. Basically, people are saying that we are irresponsible with our money by going on vacays and drinking starbucks and buying branded shit. First of all... true lol. I am secretly loving the drama on twitter cause my life is so not happening. What they don't know is that we literally work our fat asses off to make that happen. #humblebrag

But really, all that is the highlight reel. I would know, cause I only post highlight reels on my social media.

Another problem in my life is that I also got kinda fat from all the food I'm eating. I am in a record breaking weight of 54.5 kg. HOLY SHIT IKR HOW DID I GAIN 10 FU---- KG. I used to be soooo skinny T.T I'm only 5 ft tall so dahlah short, gemuk lagi like, GET IT TOGETHER CRYSTAL.

Therefore! One of my 2019 goals is to lose all this weight. Stop eating so much! Go to the gym! Nasib my uni gym is only 6 minutes away from my apartment and its pretty nice. I started going in November and at first I was so self conscious. But now I feel slightly more confident to use different machines and working out in front of people. I even started liking it a little bit. Right now the gym is closed till Jan 1st so I'll go back as soon as it reopens.

2019 Goals
1. Lose weight, get toned.
2. Work more.
3. Save lots of moniesss yayy
4. Cook more at home.

Life Update : A Year Has Passed

A year has passed since I have landed on the States, though I am currently in Malaysia right now cause its SUMMER BREAK! My thoughts upon arrival in Malaysia run along the lines of "OH GOD WHY DID I COME BACK" because:

1. Its so hot.
2. Everyone is relatively rude. :(
3. I have no friends fml.
4. I have no independence here.

But thank the lawd cause summer break is almost over and I am returning back to normal everyday life with coffee and salads. Oh yeah, I love coffee and salads now, can you believe that? Life has been a sorta roller coaster lately.

I changed my major twice. From chemical engineering to ecological engineering to biological engineering. Its all because of a huge debacle with my sponsor but its all good now cause I used to like biology in secondary school. Then again, I have not touched biology since SPM so I'm a little afraid that I'll be slow and lag behind the other students. I keep telling myself that so far, everyone has been respectful of each other and I tell myself that there are things I know that others don't know and if everyone is respectful of that then we should be good. But I am a third year student and I am still clueless so I am worried.

Ah well, all I can do is work hard I guess. Oh my god, work hard is not something I can do very well. I even have two labs next semester and I am nervous that my cluelessness will show. T_T

Breathe in breathe out. This will all be okay.

Apart from that, I got a job as a glorified lunch lady at one of the dining halls, got an Iphone even after talking shit about it, and travelled!

During winter break which lasted 3 weeks, I travelled to Boulder, Colorado by plane with Faidah! From there, we had a roadtrip with a few of our friends and drove through Utah, Arizona, Las Vegas, and California. I can only remember the trip through rose colored glasses and remembered that I had fun, but I distinctly remember that I hated the driving hahaha. I also remember that I thought road trips are not for me cause I absolutely hated being stuck sitting down for hours and FYI, we drove for 15 hours just to get our asses to Los Angeles. Then it was hours more to go to San Diego and San Francisco and then another hell ride back to Colorado.

T.T But it was fun cause I don't have a license so I didn't have to drive AND I am shit at navigating so I basically slept the entire ride hohoho #uselessparasite

But yeah, it was fun :D

I am hoping for more adventures and I am kinda pissed at myself for returning to Malaysia when I had literally 4 months to go gansau around the States. I need to save money starting from now!

Last night was Thanksgiving.

For this very special day, I decided to watch Fantastic Beasts and Where To Find Them. However, I really thought that it was kinda boring. I fell asleep towards the end. There wasn't any of the super magical feeling that the other Harry Potter movies had. Or maybe I just have a very bad case of adultitis, I don't know.

What I really enjoyed was that the cinema hall was almost empty! There was no one there and I could pretend that I was super rich and had my own personal cinema in my home heheh.

After the movie, we rushed to Kroger because we needed to bake brownies to bring to the MASA (that's the Malaysian Organisation at OSU) Friendsgiving dinner. And by the time we arrived back home we only had an hour left to bake them FOL.

So we were a bit late.

We arrived at the place half an hour late but we still had food, which is the most important thing. But me being me, I hate crowded places so I went outside to eat.

It was 3 degrees celcius.

I ate with shaking hands and shaking legs but me being me again, I only took finger foods cause I hate food that is messy to eat like spaghetti and turkey. I only had bread and some pudding.

But I actuallybreally enjoyed the Friendsgiving. It was a chance for me to hang out with friends that I haven't been seeing. So yeah, it was nice. We only stayed for like, an hour though haha.

Yesterday I experienced my first snow!!!!!

And today was my first day working at my job and it was sooo great to know that I was trading some of my time for money.

Today is yet another game day at OSU and on this eventful day, my housemates and I decided to go out to eat at this amazing asian food place called Joy's.

And to get there, we had to walk for about 15 minutes and since it was game day, it was happening.

So we were walking and in the distance, this guy was shouting O-H to everyone passing by.

Let me explain, in OSU, there is this thing we do that when someone shouts O-H to you, you shout I-O back. And together, you spell OHIO.

Hahaha I know.

So far, I have gone by without ever having to yell I-O back. And I thought it was so embarassing!

So when this guy was walking down the street in our direction, saying O-H to everyone, I was thinking "NO DON'T DO THIS TO ME"

And of course he did and I said I-O back.

I didn't die la thank God.

Song Joong Ki Was In My Dream!!

I had a wonderful dream last night! It was so wonderful that I refused to wake up to study for my calculus and organic chemistry quiz that was going to happen 3 hours later.

It was so wonderful cause Song Joong Ki was in it and he was in love with me lol.

Somehow it made so much sense as I was dreaming it and now it feels so disconnected and vague. What I remember was:

1. Song Joong Ki was in a parallel universe on a mission and the only way we could contact was if I was dreaming.

2. Nobody could know that I could contact Song Joong Ki.
     2.5 But someone (my best friend) did find out, and she was freaking out and I dramatically cut off my friendship with her.

3. Song Joong Ki's right hand man in my dream was Seo Dae Young.

Ya, that's all sadly. But I remember that it was so awesome!!!

My alarm totally ruined the whole thing.

Being Mature

When I see other Malaysian overseas students, more often than not, they will be the very assertive, dominant, mature, and confident types. These types are usually seniors, and... YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN RIGHT???

They're very serious and businesslike...

and then there's me. I am childish and fun (if I do say so myself) and I still refer to multiple choice questions as ABC questions. My favorite food are potatoes and my favorite coffee is white chocolate. I watch Pokemon Indigo and chick flicks that shrivel up my brain. I laugh wayyyyy too loudly and I talk about meaningless things like how I want Song Joong Ki to be my oppa.

Don't you?

I still feel like a 17 year old!!!

And its so frustrating to be so childlike and 'cute' (konon la) and small when you're an engineering student because I feel like people look down on me. And I know these are silly stupid thoughts cause people probably are not even thinking about me as much as I think they do so...

On to another topic!

I wanna go shopping so so so so badlyyyyy but I am sooooo broke!! I am going on a trip for the whole winter break and its gonna cost 700$. 700$ right now is almost RM 3000 I shit you not, I am crazy to spend so much on one trip.

Its just that I don't wanna regret not making memories and having experiences while I am in the UNITED STATES OF AMERICA! I am only 20 once, and the next time I'm gonna be here I am probably gonna be bringing children and family and I am going to be old and serious and assertive and dominant and all those other mature people stuff. Maybe.

But right now, I am young and insecure and carefree and I feel so me that I want to experience all I can as me right now. Cause I think I'm pretty fun if I do say so myself.

Haritu we went to Park of Roses and we saw roses. Oh ya! I also dyed my hair back to black and I loveeee it! Its not as dark as my original hair colour so I don't feel like a total nerd.

The weather is getting really cold nowadays with temperature as low as 3 degrees celcius. Its my first time experiencing this kind of cold and I hate it and love it at the same time.  The cold isn't as bad as it sounds, but its still shocking to go out and walk to class in the cold.

Despite it being cold, I am determined to lose weight and look good for my trip during my winter break! These cheeks and all other jiggly parts have to go! Stomach, thighs, cheeks, arms all have to tone up wuhahhaha.

But then every day I eat chocolate T.T   Its ok! Baby steps!

When am I going to be happy?

I feel so unhappy all the time.

Its A Learning Process

Ever since I started college and university, I noticed that I started to grow. For one thing, I don't get homesick anymore. I can go to the bank by myself. I can cook my own food. I find my way around public transportation.

You know, little things. And this growing up thing is happening without me noticing unless I really slow down, stop, and take a good look at me being 20 years old.

Oh, let me digress. I turned 20 last Tuesday! My birthday was a simple affair, and this time, I am determined not to get pissed off at the people who forgot. I spent my birthday morning chilling at Thompson Library and it was GOOD. The library is the best place in any part of the world. The world gets quiet and its just you and a book.

One of the things I changed my perspective about is the way I look at failure. I used to think that failing at something was the worst thing ever and I would always have this ache in my heart whenever I don't excel in my studies. I remember crying after bad tests during high school and studying my brain cells away after school. But I was so harsh on myself. I used to write "Idiot" and "Stupid" at every wrong answer in red ink.

But now, I don't mind failing anymore and if I don't do well on an exam or quiz, I would think it's a learning process. Every single mistake I make would be an opportunity to learn and I look at my mistakes as me getting better after each mistake.

And I love that kind of mindset. I guess being in a non-competitive college really helps. There is no Dean's List, there's no ranking, there's no smart or top class. There is just you, your friends, and the knowledge.

Haha, you become the best pun it doesn't matter cause nobody would know or care anyway.

Oooooh, I remember during pre-cal, I got a 33 out of 65, which is a fail and I was sooooo upset.

But then after two years, I repeated a subject and I didn't really care pun. And I have failed so many tests and quizzes, you don't even know. Its a learning process.

A Good Way To Spend Time

This week has been a rainy week in Columbus, Ohio and I have been caught in the rain every single day. For some reason, I can't find my umbrella that I bought for 5$.

Fall has officially started according to the earth's position in the orbital and IT IS COLD! But I really like this coldness cause I can use this as an excuse to go shopping for fall and winter clothing. EVENTHOUGH I DAH SPENT A LOT!

This week I went out quite a lot.

Last Friday, I went out to Jeni's Ice-cream which is said to be AMAZING but I thought it was just okay.

Then last Sunday, I went walking at Olentangy Trail. Americans really likes to do outdoor stuff like lay outside, go out on walks, suntanning. In Malaysia, everyone would be indoors in their air-conditioned rooms.

Then on Friday, I watched a movie, but I slept in the middle of it until the end.

And yesterday I went to a park to look at flowers!

But most of the time, I just want to curl up with a good book and forget the world exists.

I just think resting and healing from all the shit that accumulates throughout the week is the best and I can't do that when I'm with people. With people, I feel like I need to put on a front to look normal and be charming and be social.

Why am I like this.

I miss the people who I can be totally myself with and not put on a front to. I miss my family and I miss the friends I don't get to spend time with. I miss home and I miss being comfortable and I miss not being pressured to tip.

I miss INTEC and how I actually liked going out on weekends with Sabrina, Rowina, and Carlin. Those times were good times!!

I used to go shopping almost every weekend at Sunway Pyramid, or Midvalley, or Berjaya Times Square and there were cell group meetings where we had REALLY good food and good fun. And when I go to school, there would always be someone to talk to and hang out with and everyone knew everyone.

I guess I miss the familiarity of it all.

Mami and Dadi, maafkanlah anak anda yang memboros ini :'(

Okay I'm upset.

These past few weeks in America made me realise a startling fact about myself: I am so damn talentless. I'm mediocre in every single aspect of my life.

Ok la, I know that its not a very legit reason to be as upset as I am right now, but after 2 decades to hone some sort of skill, you'd think I am able to do something amazingly. And yet here I am, just drifting by life and only getting by.

In Malaysia, I guess what stood out about me was that I spoke English really well but here, everyone speaks English so much better than I do. WHO AM I ANYMORE?!

I now also realize how boring I am. I never explore. I never have anything interesting to say. I'm not opinionated. I don't even have a good life story to tell. Kill me now. T.T Its like my life is just a gray space occasionally embellished with a few good moments.

Sigh, I don't even know why I care so much. I guess theres more to this upsetness than just being talentless and boring. Its also about me being in a perpetual slump.

I don't want to be an engineer. Its not me. Its not what I'm interested in. I get jealous every time someone says they have an interesting class and they love the lectures and its awesome for them, because I will probably never feel that way about what I'm doing. Waking up in the morning is never fun, and I am almost never happy going to class. Studying is always a chore and I want to just choke myself every time I have to do a calculus question.

 At the same time, I want to continue being an engineering student and I want to someday become an engineer purely by the fact that I have invested too much time and money into this curse. And I am afraid to back out because what if I choose to major in something else and it turns out I hate that the same and it turns out that its just my perangai yang pemalas, and I just generally don't like studying. What if?

And what if I can't pick myself up after backing out from this. I'd have to go through all this from the beginning and get left behind and while everyone is working, I'd be doing my first year of degree hahaha fml.

And I'm scared that the whole 'Follow Your Dreams' thing is a scam and that actually, we shouldn't follow our dreams because the dream doesn't make money.

But then if I make a lot of money pun... so what? I don't really care about that. But that's easy for me to say cause I get money handed to me every month by a scholarship and I have never been in lack of money before. My family has never struggled financially (at least, I don't see it) and money is always a phone call away in case of emergencies.

But worst of all, the dream doesn't actually bring happiness.

But I hate it... and it sucks that I can't do anything about it. Someone asked me what I wanted to be if not an engineer, and I though... Housewife lol.

Anyway, I shouldn't be ranting about such a first world problem. "I hate having a free education boohoo!"

I should count my blessings before it gets taken away. Next post will be a more positive one, I promise. :)

America Thus Far

I did it! I have arrived in America and I feel...

SO OVERWHELMED!

I mean, that should be a very predictable feeling but I feel so clueless. But I'll take one thing at a time and put one foot in front of the other very slowly.

So today I shall write about... the plane ride!

I left Malaysia on the 12th of August 2016, and arrived in Columbus, Ohio on the 13th of August, So I saw this on my ticket and was like, "Oh okay, I'll travel 24 hours."

I TRAVELLED 2 DAYS. Somehow, it didn't occur to me to think about the time difference and think about the transits stops in between. It was:

14 hours to London, Heathrow.
5 hours stop and rest.
9 hours-ish to Chicago.
5 hours rest.
1.5 hour to Ohio.

It was an experience I do not wish to re-experience. *shudders

I think through this experience, I have discovered a critical aspect of myself which is that I hate travelling. I see now why my dad never brought my family overseas. Its a nightmare. Sitting in a cramped space for 14 hours is not fun, especially when you have to wake your the person in the seat next to you every time you have to use the toilet. And! It was even more awkward when said neighbor is sleeping.

Landing in London, I thought wow, everything is pretty. The sky is bluer and the clouds are fluffier. It was 14 degrees celcius and they air was crisp. But even that I can't enjoy because there was the whole security check to go through.

Which reminds me. There are so many security checks to go through and each one is even more thorough than the ones before. I was prepared for them to open my bags but I didn't get any inspection at all. I did see some other people get their bags opened because they had spices in their carry on luggage and I even saw some people kena tahan for no reason.

But I got through just fine!

So after all the travelling and transitting, I landed in Columbus and.... my bag didn't come out. I was waiting up until the moving belt thing stopped. Huhuhuhu that was stressful.

Our seniors were waiting there for us and their president told me to report it missing and have them deliver it to my doorstep.

Sure enough, I got my bag the next day yay! The seniors who picked us up were VERY NICE although they seemed a bit stressed out. But that's understandable because it was midnight and they had to pick up 70 students over the course of 2 days.

Then I stepped foot on American soil for the first time. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

The Stupidest Lie I Have Ever Believed

When I was 8 years old, I had this friend. Let's call her Ursula cause she was manipulative and evil.

She was mean but she was my friend wtf.


There was this one time, she didn't approve of me being friends with this other girl, and she turned our whole gang against me.

Anyways, here's the story.

We were in class, and she asked me, "Can you give me RM2?"

My dad only gives me RM3 a day and I needed the money to buy food during recess so I said, "Go ask someone else."

Then she begins to tell me this whole elaborate story about how her mother died, and her father married a woman who had two daughters. Her stepsisters were mean to her and they would always steal her shoes and the mother was ugly with a lazy eye.

Sometimes, her stepsisters won't even let her inside the house. And I remember that I was so moved by her predicament that I LENT her RM2.

What.The.Hell.

And she never gave me back the money.